Chapter 1:

Happiness

Nande


Who.. Who am I?

Why... why am I here?

Do I belong here?Bookmark here

Why am I... Why am I me?
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That's something I was always asking myself when I was little. Bookmark here

Huuh.. Bookmark here

Was it because I was too young, or perhaps... too alone?Bookmark here

So many questions that I thought I would never find an answer to.Bookmark here

Start of chapter one
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"KURAGARI!" - a woman yelled from downstairs

oh.. my step-mom huh... damn I was having a real good dream so why did this bitch have to ruin it like THI-
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"KURAGARIIII"Bookmark here

aghh she just haas to be so looouuud, doesn't she?Bookmark here

"K U R A G A R I !!!"Bookmark here

OKAY, OKAY.. I'm waking up. God...
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It's funny how I am mentioning God when he doesn't even care to make my life better
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introduction:
My name is Kuragari (meaning: darkness)
Seriously, what were my parents thinking??? Darkness? 
REALLY DAD? REALLY MO-

Where even is my mom?
Who even is she in the first place?Bookmark here

Yes, my mother apparently left me when I was little

Like hell I believe that.
She is probably dead somewhere.Bookmark here

And the fact that I just called that violent idiot dad..
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Anyways, my only job is to just act happy and everything will be fine, like he says.
I need to look happy, dress happy, listen to happy songs that I dislike.
I am actually accepted like that so I'm probably just going to continue doing that.
It's not like anyone can read my mind and see the truth that I actually have a death wish Bookmark here

I should probably get up and choose what I'll wear today. Why should I even give a fuck about what I'll wear. I'm just gonna grab the most casual outfit and dress like everyone so that I wouldn't have to worry if I look dumb in front of my friends... 
OOOH RIGHT.. I don't have them. Riiight!Bookmark here

But I actually like myself in black so I'll just wear stuff like that

I'm done with dressing up but should I at least wash myself..? Like hell I will. Why would I do that when I don't even care about mys-
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*the door opened violently*Bookmark here

Oooh right, its him- *gets slapped*Bookmark here

That's not how you should greet your father, asshole - says the man that opened the door
But I didn't even greet yo- *gets slapped even harder*
SHUT THE FUCK UP WHEN I'M TALKING OR ELSE YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO WALK ON TWO FEET TO SCHOOL OR EVEN WORSE, YOU WON'T EVEN SHOW UP AT SCHOOL YOU WORTHLESS PEACE OF SHIT - says Mazoku (Kuragari's father)Bookmark here

My father is usually violent with me.. They say he was like that ever since mom left but why the hell would I give a shit about that? HE SHOULD AT LEAST TREAT ME BETTER BEFORE I LEAVE TO- Bookmark here

What's that look on your face you worthless idiot. SMILE... SMILEE. If anyone sees you depressed I will kill you with my own two hands in front of them as I fucking dug your nails into your goddamn arms YOU UNDERSTAND?
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That's what I thought
*leaves the room*Bookmark here

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