Who.. Who am I?
Why... why am I here?
Do I belong here?
Why am I... Why am I me?
That's something I was always asking myself when I was little.
Was it because I was too young, or perhaps... too alone?
So many questions that I thought I would never find an answer to.
"KURAGARI!" a woman yelled from downstairs
oh.. my step-mom huh... damn I was having a real good dream so why did this bitch have to ruin it like THI-
"KURAGARIIII" she yelled even louder
"aghh she just haas to be so looouuud, doesn't she?" I told myself
"K U R A G A R I !!!" she yelled the hardest she could
"OKAY, OKAY.. I'm waking up. God..." I yelled back
"It's funny how I am mentioning God when he doesn't even care to make my life better" I told myself
My name is Kuragari (meaning: darkness)
Seriously, what were my parents thinking??? Darkness?
REALLY DAD? REALLY MO-
Where even is my mom?
Who even is she in the first place?
Like hell I believe that.
She is probably dead somewhere.
And the fact that I just called that violent idiot dad..
Anyways, my only job is to just act happy and everything will be fine, like he says.
I need to look happy, dress happy, listen to happy songs that I dislike.
I am actually accepted like that so I'm probably just going to continue doing that.
It's not like anyone can read my mind and see the truth that I actually have a death wish
I should probably get up and choose what I'll wear today. Why should I even give a fuck about what I'll wear. I just have to wear my mask and eye patch so I could hide my scars even though I look like a weirdo. I'm just gonna grab the most casual outfit and dress like everyone so that I wouldn't have to worry if I look dumb in front of my friends...
OOOH RIGHT.. I don't have them. Riiight!
But I actually like myself in black so I'll just wear stuff like that
I'm done with dressing up but should I at least wash myself..? Like hell I will. Why would I do that when I don't even care about mys-
*the door opened violently*
Oooh right, its him- I didn't finish my sentence in my head because of the sound from my father's fist hitting my head with a punch
"That's not how you should greet your father, asshole" said the man that opened the door
"But I didn't even greet yo-" I said while getting punched even harder
"SHUT THE FUCK UP WHEN I'M TALKING OR ELSE YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO WALK ON TWO FEET TO SCHOOL OR EVEN WORSE, YOU WON'T EVEN SHOW UP AT SCHOOL YOU WORTHLESS PEACE OF SHIT" - said Mazoku (Kuragari's father)
My father is usually violent with me.. They say he was like that ever since mom left but why the hell would I give a shit about that? "HE SHOULD AT LEAST TREAT ME BETTER BEFORE I LEAVE TO-" I told myself before being rudely interruped
"What's that look on your face you worthless idiot. SMILE... SMILEE. If anyone sees you depressed I will kill you with my own two hands in front of them as I fucking dug your nails into your goddamn arms.. YOU UNDERSTAND?" Asked Mazoku
"Y- yeah, sure" I replied
"That's what I thought" said Mazoku while leaving the room