I think that the school bell was especially made with a purpose of making my anxiety bigger each time it rings.
I really said that out loud didn't I..?
"What is it, Kuragari?" a man says while entering the classroom with a huge notebook in his hands.
Of course he has to be here right on time with that huge Death Note of his.
Well of course, it's not a death note but it kills me mentally every time he writes every single thing I do in there because apparently "I'm not interested".
As soon as I see his face I have the urge to destroy something.
"Why are you not answering when I'm asking you?" the teacher says while opening his notebook wanting to write something.
"I- I am sorry... I really am.." I said.
I am, my ass.
I get stuck in my thoughts whenever someone talks to me. Am I in the wrong here? Hell no. Nobody wants to talk to me so how should I develop my communication skills?
And this cunt I call MiStEr doesn't give a fuck to do something about it but instead makes it worst by humiliating me in front of the whole class.
I wish I can say this out loud.
"Um, I still didn't get my answer, Kuragari" the teacher gasps while putting his notebook on the table and sits on the chair.
"Like hell I even care. I can just write that you disrespected me because that's exactly what you did" he continued.
I don't have the courage to defend myself so I'll just stay quiet.
My dad is not even going to know the stuff he writes about me because he doesn't even care if I'm alive.
His only wish is for me to fake my happiness so he wouldn't be bothered by other people about why I'm sad..
That's when she walked in.