If i had emotions, would the world seem more beautiful?
"Its uncomfortable to talk to you..." , "Why don't you react properly?", "Read the atmosphere a little would you? Damn...".
No less than a dozen times had i heard those words pierce my ears time and time again. I had always wondered, if i were normal, if i was to be able to convey my emotions and feel again, would anything change for me? Would i be able to view the world in a much sparkling manner?Countless of books of various different Genre had always described how beautiful the world is, how cruel, merciless, blissful and beautiful it is, but yet the only world i could see is a blank and monotonous world, devoid of any emotions or colors.
"Say Yuusuke, i know that you aren't really enjoying your time here in High School. I heard the rumors quite often, 'mood-breaker', 'can't read the atmosphere, 'the weirdo', the dead kid'. It sure looks like you have quite the reputation here."
"Hah...That's the first time i ever heard the those. And besides, i'm complete content with my current situation now, So you don't really have to worry about me that much Kouda-Sensei.
I had said in a monotonous tone with a simple blank on my face.
"Don't you have a club you are in, or at least interested in?
"I'm a full-fledged member of the Go-Home-Club."
"....You know.. That's not the answer i was looking for. Have you made a single friend yet during your time here? It has only been 2 months since you came to this school but yet the rumors about you are everywhere"
Mr Kouda reluctantly commented with a frown and a slight hint of dissatisfaction in his eyes.
"Seeing that i go home straight away right after school, i don't really see the need for me to make a friend. My friends are the various books on my shelf at home and my bed. And i am not interested in joining a club that doesn't fit me, i would just kill the atmosphere there."
"Sigh.....It doesn't look like you will change anytime soon, that's all i have for you today. You can go to your 'club' now. I will see you next week again"
"Understood. Thanks for your time Kouda-Sensei"
i briefly thank before i proceed to walk out of the staff room."
"You know Yuusuke? If there isn't a club you like here, why don't you make one of your own then? Well not that you will be keen to do it."
With the sudden farewell comment made by Kouda-sensei, i stopped dead in my tracks and blanked out for a few seconds before proceeding to resume exiting the staff room. Right before i left the classroom, my mind had me muttered a few words that i also did not expect.
"....i will think about it..."
As i was closing the door, i could hear Kouda-sensei letting out a small sound of shock to my statement.