Again and Again (if it's for you..)
"you are the key to the lock that is destruction,as long as you exist there is no peace here nor in any of the existing verses,still do you wish to thrive in that mortal facade? just what is your reasoning to not let go of it? why won't you shed that hope even if it all means destruction & chaos at end of the day just why won't you take my hand at becoming one with me for eternal eternity?" ....... just why would you leave me all alone here..just why
No not again... please come back, why would you.. just why you seemed so happy just yesterday didn't you promise me of showing your novel once you finish it, now who's gonna finish it you idiot
"uh.. seriously when does this cringe fest end..?"
she muttered to herself as she wearily watched the airing drama
How in the god's name do people even watch these boring stuff...?
these were the thoughts of the girl who was currently watching stuff recommended by her fellow friends, cuddled up with her face on the bench of her University's classroom,the room was barely lit with only one of the five high intensity tube lights burning and it was already past seven in the evening so obviously most of the students weren't present ,the classroom radiated a gloomy aura synonymous to the whole University.
the girl had a pale look on her as the phone screen reflected off the pink round eyeglasses she was wearing and even her emerald blue eyes seemed dead as she stared at her phone blankly..
"10 more minutes for the episode to end.. huh, ok that leaves me with more or less 20 minutes to reach my home before eight.."
the girl gently stretched herself.. and continued watching
After a mere few seconds an unknown shadow coupled with footsteps approached towards the classroom from the far end of the corridor, the steps rather felt graceful as of an athlete with a certain distinct rhythm.
in a few more seconds the unknown figure was at the doorstep, well it was a boy who seemed of the same age as her and had blood red eyes with messy black hair, he had a blue t shirt on matched with blue shorts and both were soaking wet with sweat
the boy playfully jumped in and started to shout cheerfully as he was fascinated by how eerily quiet his chirpy classroom was but in the haste of the moment he had completely ignored the girl who was sitting at the corner of the last bench.
As soon as he spotted her, he put both his hand on his mouth, stopped himself from shouting more and stared at the ground with red flushed cheeks as he was embarrassed by the act.
The girl on the other hand had her earphones on, so it seemed as if she was completely unaware of what has happened, but her sheer instinct had suggested that someone had entered the class, so she lifts her head up drowsily and finds him blushing with his eyes staring towards the floor.
"Did ya need anything..?"
the girl enquired
"uhm..n-no it's jus-st my bag,..i came to pick up my bag that's it.."
the boy answered anxiously still not making eye contact with her as he slowly picks up the bag and starts to head towards the door so he can exit but the girl on the other hand was still looking at him with a rather sorrowful look
There he is, at it again.. trying to escape from a conversation.like hell he doesn't even reply with his eyes fixated on me.
she thought to herself as he slowly but completely disappeared from her vision
I don't remember having a single decent chat with him even though its been a month since the classes have started already and top of that he sits right in the bench beside me..
Well why am i so bothered by it in the first place..?
whatever it is let it be
but still a major part of her was submerged with the thoughts of him
"Aren't you gonna save him?"
right out of nowhere..a deep feminine voice echoed inside her repeatedly asking her the same question.
right as she heard that, her body instinctively started to long for few more glimpses of him, it almost felt as if she had suddenly been possessed by something.
the hand of hers turned off the phone which she was holding, she swiftly put on her bag and rushed towards the exit..
I want to see him more, talk with him more, laugh with him more and ...
these strange yet warmth filled thoughts bottled up inside her and weirdly enough
she subconsciously knew these weren't her own thoughts, it almost felt like as if something or someone is inducing those feelings into her.. commanding her to feel things towards him
She swiftly followed him as these weird yet warm thoughts swivelled inside her
the corridors were empty, the air had a faint smell of earth, which had been stowed in from outside because of the brief rain from earlier that evening, she raced through the white corridor and made it down the spiral staircase at the corner made it to the ground floor but he was nowhere to be seen.
Is he well versed in teleportation magic and shit..?
these were the exact thoughts of hers as she was rather puzzled as to where he had vanished in such a short amount of time since he left the classroom
No way would he have made it out of the building within the time frame, but where did he seriously vanish to though..
By this time she was already standing at the University building's entrance which was completely furnished with marbled floor and compared to the whole University was rather well lit with chandelier hanging through the roof, She stood in the middle as she searched for possible ways the boy had slipped out from.
She checked out the opposite way of the corridor too and had little to no luck but as soon as she was about to give up, she heard faint sound of steps approaching down form the upper floor through the same spiral staircase which she walked down from a few minutes ago.
The tapping sounds of footsteps grew louder by each second.. and through the last curve she could see a boy's silhouette, well yes it was obviously him.
as soon as she saw him her eyes started sparkling and she started to move towards him slowly
"whoa he was still here..nice"
she muttered to herself
and the next moment she was already behind him.
the boy on the other hand had his blue earphones on and was busy with his phone so obviously he didn't notice her
the girl slowly but steadily followed him,the boy wore a loose red Tracksuit on contrary to the short and T he had on him while he entered the classroom earlier.
Must have went to the changing room right after he left the classroom..no wonder i couldn't find him anywhere.
she thought to herself
she heard a faint voice come from right ahead, yes it was of that boy, she looked towards him and as soon as they made eye contact, the boy averted his gaze and started to scroll through his phone again and walk away as if he didn't care about having a conversation and blatantly ignoring her
there it is, being mean again and yeah he seriously needs a lesson in "how to ignore without them noticing that they are being ignored" like what harm have i done to you to be shot down this hardly atleast be a bit more gentle at it shithead
she anxiously rebuked him in her thoughts as she followed him
she muttered towards the boy, hoping in thoughts he wouldn't hear as he had his earphones on but surprisingly the boy stopped and turned around and still not making eye contact enquired
"well was that directed towards me?"
Revati alarmed by this, averted her gaze from him and lied as easily as she breathed
"uhm..no was talking to myself"
"ah ok sorry for that.."
the boy replied in an apologetic tone
the boy knew that it indeed was directed towards him, but he let it off for some
now they stood there awkwardly with their gazes averted both not knowing what to do next.
the foyer which was majestically designed with white marble floor and the chandelier hanging on top weirdly made the whole atmosphere more awkward somewhat making it look more like something straight out of love stories in fairy tales which certainly wasn't the case here.
the boy took a step back turned around and slowly started walking back towards the entrance, there was awkward tension in the air and it was quite apparent that the boy was trying to escape this.
Revati gazed the boy with quite the disheartened look
Well there he goes.. not like the first time he has done that, no wonder most of the girls tend to ignore him for that attitude
"Save him please.."
the deep feminine voice yet again chimed in her heart, her body yet again was longing for the boy who was marching away from her slowly
her hands moved on their own and she suddenly pulled the boy's shoulder by his tracksuit
she gently called his name
Akira surprised by her action quickly jumped forward and turned around to face her
"well are you heading home now..?"
Revati enquired gently in a feeble tone though
Akira gazed at her with utter confusion the red gleaming eyes of his contacted with Revati's eyes for just mere seconds before he averted them again as he replied in a gentle tone
"yes, why though..?"
Revati was caught off guard because she didn't plan the conversation ahead also the plain & blunt way he answered almost seemed as if he was trying to end the conversation with a word or two
Revati started to panic internally
Ah fuck wait well obviously he is heading home.. like is it even the right way to start a conversation, he sure thinks i'm a weirdo for asking something obvious as that ah shit shit shit what should i do.. how do i keep the conversation going without making a joke outta myself fuck, why is it so hard for me to start a conversation with this guy, honestly i might just die from this embarrassment..
right as the awkward aura between them was building up into unbearable tension,a loud beeping started to arise from somewhere..it was from the bag Revati was holding and the beeping sound almost felt like a siren alarm.
Akira stared at her bag as soon as he heard the sound coming off it but Revati was rather still and there was an odd sense of terror and confusion on her face,she had become so stiff that she couldn't even move her hand.
"Yo, R-revati your phone.."
Akira saw her face shook still, he didn't know the cause nor was he close enough with her to ask the cause for that reaction.
he gently poked at her shoulders
"well something's ringing, you might want to
As soon as he poked her, Revati came back to her senses
Akira was rather close with a concerned look on his face and his red eyes gleamed beneath the well lit hallway.
She slowly unzipped her bag, still with her hands shaking and reached out to her phone and took it out
"Ah i knew it.."
she put it back in and unzipped another compartment and dig through the rubble and suddenly stopped at once and took out a small worn out phone, it donned a cute pink casing which had an illustration of a girl on it.
she flipped the screen towards her and the face of hers sank more in despair as soon as she saw the screen, her consciousness slowly started to shake because of the sheer tension she felt.
Akira was was seeing all this unravel in front of him.
"Well are you okay?.. should we go to the infirmary or anything.. like you are shaking crazy you know.."
Akira spoke to her
Revati who had completely lost her composure as of now didn't hear him and was shook still as she stared at the screen of her phone
he gently poked at her shoulder as he called out for her
"ah ye-yees what uhm.."
she suddenly snapped back to sense and answered also simultaneously switched the notification off on her phone and put it back in a jeopardy
"are you all right?"
akira enquired again with a deep sense of concern on his face.
woh that's new
Revati was quite surprised by this strange yet complete change in character of his as soon as she seemed stressed.
"okay if you say so but still you seem quite out of it"
there was a long 5-10 seconds awkward pause before Akira engaged the conversation again.
"you are going back to home right? ..well let me escort you till there.."
he said in an hesitant tone
Revati was swept off by surprise again seeing him being concerned for her sake
she knew there wasn't any malicious intention behind those words but just genuine concern and care for her, still the face which he made while enquiring revati made her even more curious behind its reasoning.
"aah, don't take it the wrong way, i'm not hitting on you or anything, it's just..uh.."
Akira's face was flushed red and was struggling to make eye contact with her but on the other hand Revathi was completely clueless as to what Akira was going on about
Revati asked as her face revealed that she was utterly confused
"nothing.. nevermind then"
Akira replied as he turned around again
"also as to what i suggested are you okay with that?"
Akira enquired with his back turned towards revati
"yeah sure ,if you don't mind that is"
Akira slowly started to walk ahead as Revati closely followed his footsteps, they passed the main entrance, the path ahead was well lit with street lights at the middle and small straight road on either sides, the air had a faint smell of moist earth caused due to rains earlier that evening.
"it's way too quiet".
Revati said in a feeble voice
and the silence crept in again.
Revati started to feel anxious by this time as she figured out that this awkwardness between them will drag on and on up until they reach her home if she won't somehow manage to turn it around,so she started to take initiative.
"well are you the type of person who prefers quietness?"
"huh.., well yeah..- actually no i love the calmness and tranquility of the night as it is but yeah nothing beats having a stroll at night with soothing music resonating in the background..you know like you get this feel as if you are in your own little world with your preferred music,no burdens to be taken care of whatsoever ...yeah its the best feeling in the world..right alongside the feel you get when you see something you have admired for quite a lot of time finally getting the recognition it deserves..you know something like that.."
Revati silently followed him as he went on talking enthusiastically about something, It was her first time seeing him being so genuine with her, as of now she couldn't hear much of what akira was saying but she was rather just mesmerised and lost in the way she was exposed to the rare honesty and genuine feelings he was oozing out towards something, Akira gently looked behind as to check on Revati cause she was oddly quiet, the moon which was engulfed by clouds up till now slowly started to fade and right as Akira faced slightly towards Revati, half his profile was being beamed with moonlight, the sight almost felt surreal with Akira looking like a literal embodiment of pristine..revati could only watch it dazzled as she uttered..
"huh, what ..sorry if i talked too much.., i didn't want to bore you, also like my brakes turn off as soon as someone asks something about myself"
Akira replied back in a rather embarrassed tone, and yeah obviously he was blushing as usual.
Revati slowly crept beside him
"no don't worry,listening to you rather talk your hearts out was rather refreshing"
Revati indeed was surprised and delighted.
Akira asked in a feeble voice
"why would i lie idiot?"
Revati replied in a playful tone
Akira let a breath of sigh
"as long as i don't annoy you it's well and fine i guess..,you know what"
"nah i don't"
Revati mockingly blocked him right in middle of his sentence, Akira started to chuckle at this gesture
"Not gonna lie, you might be the most cheerful person in the class"
"oh you have been watching me huh? you peeping cat.."
in a teasing manner revati replied with a smirk on her face
"uh..eh no well i mean ..there aren't a lot of interesting people in our class, i mean..well fuck i don't know how to get it out"
Revati was finding the situation quite amusing..and wanted to tease him more
"woah you are interested in me now?..weeh you gonna make me blush"
Akira was extremely embarrassed with the way Revati was keeping on with her playfully taunting replies and desperately wanted to make a comeback
"aahh...i can't, You win yeah i have been trying to have a conversation with you"
"eh..what uhm..heeee ok"
Revati's face had turned quite red because of what Akira had stated just now and was left with utter confusion as to what she should say ahead.
"I mean well ..i certainly didn't mean it in that way..like yeah there is a selfish reason as to why i wanted to have a talk with you and it's mainly because Nimit me..- well nevermind"
Revati was confused by Akira's mentioning of Nimit's name
"Nimit? how is he relevant in this conversation though?"
"don't worry about that much,i will explain it to you later some day..yeah that's obviously if we somehow strike up a conversation like today"
there was a slight tint of sadness to his voice but it was obvious that he was trying to keep the mood as cheery as possible
"hey don't just leave me in a curious state ..i want some answers mister"
Revati tried persuading him on a rather curious note.
Akira gently turned towards her and uttered
"Yeah as i said if we ever have more of these talk's again i will say it to you"
the expression on Akira's face rather made her to quit pursuing as it felt as if he was requesting her to keep this talk for any other day.
"yeah ok if you say so"
ah wait doesn't it mean he wants to keep getting involved with me..well it's not like i'm happy or anything but yeah it's quite strange as to how i'm getting literal butterflies in my stomach with just these thoughts of being in touch with him also Nimit , How in the actual fuck is he relatable here though..
Nimit was the class representative of their respective class,he was quite the popular guy in his respective college and was rather quite a close friend to Revati as she knew him since her childhood.
Well anyways let it be..i'm gonna get to know it anyways by tomorrow if i just enquire that bastard
"Akira you should involve more with your classmates you know.."
"no i didn't know, thanks for the advice mam"
Akira replied in a rather noble yet playful tone
Revati giggled with his rather abrupt reply
"Well you certainly are hyper-active with your activities involving just the boys"
"who's the peeping cat now,huh?"
Akira glanced at her as he uttered those words
it was true that Revati indeed was always observing him..like it was more like her eyes always followed him around subconsciously .
"No i was just said so by Nimit,he constantly babbles about you from time to time as to how you are overly enthusiastic and curious about learning and doing things also how you always act like you ignore girls in your class, but you are rather just timid and shy to talk with them and some other shit too, though honestly thought most of the things he said about you were fake as he is known to trust and believe the facades of other people"
Revati replied in a rather calm tone
"that was harsh though yeah, you can say he is on point with most of the things he has revealed"
Akira admitted with a gesture of humiliation
"yeah i'm not as big of an idiot as Nimit to fall for facades and i can just tell by our conversation up until now..that you got serious problems with getting involved or just having rather a common conversation with members from opposite gender"
Akira replied with a slight sorrowful look on his face, Revati notice this and immediately talked on
"Akira, well why don't we get rid of that problem, like you are having a decent talk with me quite breezily right?"
"Then from now on i will have a conversation with you on regular basis, will greet you wherever i see you and your job is to carry on with my greeting and talks, how about that"?
Revati was holding back her embarrassment as she declared this, though she had no malicious intent behind her statement, but it was rather just the idea alone which seemed quite childish for two college students to follow , something inside her was driving her to these lengths to help him.
"Well that certainly is a good idea, but why though? like i haven't done anything for you nor was i a close aid to you in the past..still why are you agreeing on to helping me in this"?
Akira asked her
"Well, there certainly wasn't any need for you to escort me till my house, but still as soon as you found out i was feeling a bit uneasy you went out of your way to escort me."
"anyone who found you in that situation would have done that"
Akira interrupted her abruptly and said that
Revati glanced at him with a kind look on her face and replied
"no they wouldn't trust me on this, also you should stop belittling yourself and admit that you were kind enough to offer me aid even without asking for it, these are the small things that matter and forgot to mention how hard it would have been for you to just get the talk going with the troubles you have with having talks with us girls, see i won't ask what happened in the past for you to be in this kind of "gynophobic state" , but just for now accept my proposal ."
Akira said in a shy tone
"Ah i meant eh uhm ..the proposal of the that communication thing i said earlier"
Revati replied in a rather state of distress
Akira replied and there was a big smile on his face, Revati looked back at him only to lost in his smile again.
man is he an angel or something? why is he so freaking cute and innocent, i might just gobble him at this rate
No, wait why do i sound like someone who is gonna attack him at any time now, shouldn't this have gone the other way around as to him escorting me so that i get home safely, poor guy he doesn't know how much of a danger he is in
control revati, control , you know he is cute but those thoughts are morally wrong so hold on to your horses...for now.
Revati had already known by now that she had a huge crush on this guy and she was just ignoring that all these days by just brushing it off by creating a fake persona of him inside her head and hating on it,but now those locks were gone and there was no thing for her to cling on to than fall right into him.
they talked all the way up until her house and it was finally time for them to part, Revati just wanted this to go on and on but here she was right outside her house which she...hated with all her guts.
"Akira meet you tomorrow then,it was totes fun talking with you and thanks a freaking lot for escorting me"
"No actually thanks to you that i was able to talk so much, hoping to talk to you more from tomorrow onwards"
Akira replied cheerfully.
he was met with a happy smiling face of Revati which conveyed her words without actual words involved.
Revati went inside her apartment building, hopped onto the transparent glass elevator, tapped the floor button, the elevator music played a soft jazz music and through the transparent glass she could see Akira walking off at the distance, Revati waved at him playfully even though she knew he wouldn't wave back as he was too far away, within a few seconds she already was halfway through her elevator ride a she slowly glanced upward towards the sky..she oddly noticed it being a tint of lavender the night sky almost seemed magical yet instilled a slight sense of unknown nostalgic terror in her.
i wonder why though..
she slowly approached her house..and gently tapped on the door...
The door opens, only to be met with sight of a women in her early 30's, she had her glasses on and wore a red apron as she seemed like she just walked straight here from kitchen.
"Revati do you even know what time is it?"
she enquired angrily
"8-8-30 i guess"
Revati replied in a stoic tone
" i know the time, it just isn't safe for you to be outside at this hour"
she said with a rather concerned tone
"i know i know.."
"well then, welcome home"
"yes i'm home"
"no not like that"
the women replied
"ok ok, i'm home Mom "
Revati answered in a stoic yet cold tone again
"there it is, though next time try saying it a bit more cheerfully"
Revati's mom replied as she welcomed her inside.
it was around mid night Revati laid on her bed recalling all the events that happened later that evening, it almost felt unreal that she got so much closer to the one guy she thought she would never get to know that too in span of a single evening, she was excited for the days to come and was still equally terrified as for the fact she still didn't know much about the voices she heard inside her head at that certain time and also obviously the mysterious messages her old broken phone's been getting.
Well i'm certainly scared to get more into those stuff tonight, but i just can't keep running from it can i?, well i should get to know the truth about it someday right?
"it's here they have found him, tomorrow's the day, save him"
she was suddenly alerted with the same voice again.
there it is again, shit did i turn crazy or something?
she slowly turned towards her right..only to be met with the sights of her clock displaying 8:30 on it.
"Shit i overslept..fuck"
she hurriedly did her chorus, by that time her dad had already went to his respective job whereas her mother had went to the nearby market and as for her baby little sister..she was still in her deep sleep, so she locked the house from outside rushed into a nearby bus stop and hopped onto the first bus she saw.
Within few minutes she was at the university, but oddly enough the atmosphere felt eerily gloomy, not like it ever oozed out a fun aura but today the vibe was just pitch black.
She entered the campus as usual and went through the college entrance , but to her surprise most of the students were still to be found in the corridor even though the classes should have started a few minutes ago itself, she could hear all of them eerily gossiping between themselves and there was this heaviness in the atmosphere which was making her suffocate, she slowly made it towards her class upstairs and as soon as she made it closer to the class she could feel something was flipping wrong.
A group of boys from her class passed beside her and she saw it, their eyes were red, and on brink of tears there was a mix of utter sorrow and confusion in their face as they headed down.
Why..what is happening..
she was utterly confused yet was scared to ask them about the details as to what is happening, she slowly made it closer to her class only to hear loud cries from the class, which were of utter sadness screaming in pain as few more entered to console them.
yes something had happened
she could slightly hear the loud gossips being passed i the corridor yet she somehow ignored them subconsciously, but now she knew she couldn't run from it.
most of the boys in class weren't present and the one's who were present were utterly devastated and the girls were still in disbelief, she slowly headed more inside the classroom, only for her to see nimit sitting at a corner with sad yet dead eyes who almost seemed as if he had lost it, she slowly crept near him and sat beside.
Nimit slowly turned towards her, rested his head on her shoulder and uttered the words which shook the world of hers completely forever
He killed himself they said
Revati stood up took a few steps behind, glanced the whole room, searching for that one face, the one she had come to admire recently, the one with whom she promised of talking to recently..
the one which she had swore to protect secretly
he was dead now.
Akira had died.
Revati's hands started to tremble,her eyes started to fade,her legs wobbled and her mysterious phone started to beep again, she didn't have the power nor the will to reach the phone, the last thing she could feel was her longing for his warmth, she always felt nostalgic the whole time she spent with him but now she was sure that there is something more to them but all of them were worth nothing now as he is dead, mysteriously enough this feeling of dread and helplessness didn't feel much of a newer experience at all.
there you go again, leaving me all alone again
she slowly fainted with these thoughts ..
"Do you want to see him again?"
"Do you want to save him?"
"Do you love him"?
"Do you love him!!!!"?
i don't exactly know if these are even my own feelings but if i have to answer you right here as of now..
"HELLL YEEEEEEEEEES i love him!"
"don't hinder to the sly talks of hers and don't give up..go get em girl!!"
Revati slowly opened her eyes only to be met with a completely unknown alien location which she could have only imagine of existing in dreams..but here it was right in front of her..
it was a giant hall,with a green shiny emerald corridor coupled with mysterious golden artifacts which looked like different types of clocks on either side of the corridor..and it all led to the crimson red throne under the grand chandelier,the hall was the definition of mysterious yet luxurious beauty and Revati couldn't help but get enchanted by its mysterious beauty.
"is this real"?
revati asked herself
well atleast i should try doing the classic "pinching myself technique" to check if its real
as she was about to do so..a commanding yet unheard voice started to order
"Nay needeth of doing yond t is real and i can guaranteeth t,so f'r anon but soft headeth towards the throne."
"ok..well i got some parts of that"
Revati slowly made her way towards the throne,several doubts and fears linger within her but she had to do what she gotta do to get what she want..but what did she set out for though? but what did she truly want?
"why am i here?"
his voice resonated in her..
yes it was for him
Revati didn't know at the time that the quest for him was not just for him but to find herself too..and the path wasn't an easy one nor was their destination, if only she knew the path she set out on was not a path for love and harmony but rather a path of rumble and destruction.
if only they knew that they were gonna be the genesis of the end of the universe as we know it.
Revati made it up-to the throne..she slowly tried reaching for the throne but was interrupted
"Welcometh leman i has't been waiting f'r thee"
it was the same voice she heard as soon as she arrived here
she looked around and as soon as she turned towards the throne again..an adult women who looked like she was in her late 20's materialized outta nowhere..she had blue eyes,bore silver hair,something shiny was floating on top of her which Revati couldn't understand even though she could see it,she knew that she won't be able to describe it. she wore a red slit outfit with a plain back and her body proportions were...well just out of the world as perfect as it can be so was her face with a pale skin tone almost resembling the elves she had read in fantasies, Revati bedazzled by her sheer beauty uttered her inner thoughts subconsciously..
"Oh my freaking gosh..she is hot AF..!!!!!!!!"
....TO BE CONTINUED....
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