Chapter 6 - Everyone's Worries

As I gazed down from the top of the wall, I realized I may be trapped inside the cemetery. There’s a ground inside the cemetery, but I can’t say the same thing outside the wall,

There was no ground at all.

It was all black. If I were to explain it, it looked like the night sky without the stars, and without the light coming from the moon. There was nothing on it, and that’s what I could clearly see.

But, there might be something that could tell me what is it. I slowly jumped from above, avoiding any mistake that might lead me to fall into the darkness.

I looked around the area, finding something I could throw over the wall. Since this was a cemetery full of maintained ground, finding something would be hard. But, luckily I was able to find some small stones around the corner.

If I were to test what the ground is, the first thing I could do is to throw something on it. It’s dangerous to jump over it since I am not sure about what’s it supposed to be.

I grabbed the stone and looked over the small wall. “It is really all black.” I whispered.

Then I pulled myself up to the wall and sat over it. My legs were trembling as I looked down the ground.

This is too scary… I thought as I gripped my other hand to the wall, terrified that I might lose my balance. And then as planned, I placed my hand over the wall. Holding the stone with my closed hand, I opened it and let the stone fall.

Then suddenly, the stone was gone. It vanished on the ground with no trace.

“What?” Startled, I lost my balance and fell to my right. “AHHH!”

—THUD!!! I fell to the ground inside the cemetery with my head upside down.

With my body lying on the ground, I stared at the grass in front of me. And as expected, I didn’t feel any pain whatsoever, it was really nonexistent now.

But the ground over the wall was more than that. It was able to make the stone vanish in a flash. It felt like it swallowed the stone with no trace. There’s no way that was real right?

I couldn’t believe my eyes. Seeing the stone suddenly vanish in front of me was something I did expect, but never thought it would happen.

I got up from the ground, pulled myself, and stood up.

“…” There is nothing else to say, other than the fact that I am stuck inside this cemetery.

I sighed. Even if I were to scream and run around, it’s not going to change anything. It only made me realize that, in the end, I am truly dead.

I thought as I leaned on the wall behind me, the only wall that separates me from the black void outside.

Normally I would be terrified. Knowing that I am in the cemetery and it is nighttime. But, I would be lying if I said that I am not scared. It’s just this feeling of dying and getting trapped made me feel lost and forgotten.

Gazing at the colorless sky, I was lost in thought. The stars as always looked white even with me being color-blind.

“So pretty…” I murmured, in awe at the sight of the night sky.

My situation made me realize that even without colors and losing the ability to feel, I could still find peace in gazing at the stars. And somehow, that alone made me feel warm.

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I opened my eyes. My body ached and my head felt heavy from sleeping on the cold floor.

I cried too much. I thought seeing that I was sleeping on the floor the whole time. I rubbed my eyes, trying to see if my eyes were still wet. But they were all dried out.

I stretched my body and stared at the ceiling. I could feel a bit of soreness in my back. I blinked, and blinked, and continued staring pondering about what I did.

I am still a kid and Mom was right. I haven’t changed, and probably will never be.

I gritted my teeth and smiled bitterly. “I shouldn’t have done that.” I whispered, remembering I shouted again at her. My emotions got the best of me, and I wasn’t able to control it.

—GRUMBLE… A low rumbling sound came from my stomach. “Right… I still haven’t anything yet.” I said, getting up from the floor.

I wonder if Mom left behind something…

If she was angry, she might’ve not left anything for me.

I took a deep breath. “It’s my fault to begin with. If there’s nothing, then there’s nothing.” I muttered as I slowly turned the knob and opened the door.

The first thing that I noticed is that there are no more lights around the corridor.

She is probably sleeping now. I thought and grabbed the phone in my pocket. I opened the screen and the brightness killed my eyes in a flash. “Ah…” I squinted and immediately lowered the brightness. “That surprised me…”

I took a glance at the screen. The screen showed that it was still early in the eighth. Normally she sleeps when it is 10pm, but right now she was already in the room despite being this early.

I turned off the phone and approached Mom’s room. “She is really asleep now.” I whispered. Thinking that it must be really my fault that she is sleeping this early.

I let out a slow breath, feeling the guilt within me. I turned around and walked towards the kitchen, hoping there was something I could eat. As I approached the kitchen, the light was still on.

I raised an eyebrow. Is she still here?

I slowly approached the kitchen and as I neared it, I took a peek and realized there was no one. I sighed in relief, knowing that there was no one around.

If I were to meet her right now, it would be extremely awkward.

Since I was still feeling the hunger in my stomach, I walked into the kitchen. Then I noticed that there was something on the table, there was food. My immediate thought is that there was food in it because normally that is the case.

Without wasting any more time because I was still hungry, I walked towards the table and opened the cover, only to be welcomed by a dinner and a paper beside it.

—[ Sorry. -Mom ]

My vision slowly started to blur. I could feel my dried eyes start to burn and feel warm as the tears started to form around it once more.

“I-Im sorry Mom…” I whispered, teary and my voice trembling.

I unwrapped the food slowly. Grabbing the utensils, I sat down beside the table and took a bite. The food was already cold, but it felt like warm as my tears continued flowing down my face.

I ate in silence, eating and munching on the food like it was the best dinner I had in my whole life.