Invisible Strings

[ I live in a small town... With my dad.... I'm the only child my parents have... But sometimes I wish I wasn't.... My life is as bad as possible... I go to a nearby high school.... It's not that good... I don't get good grades and I get bullied... Yes, I have a few friends but.... They're just... not like true ones... Like the ones I see on TV... My dad doesn't like me at all... He says I'm a disappointment to the family... My mom recently left me and my dad... She married another man and went overseas... My dad hasn't been normal after that.... He's been drinking alot lately. Even tho I go to my part time job at Starbucks, when I come back home he's there. Waiting for me. Waiting to pour all his anger out on me ]

This was written on the first page of Mika's diary, and that was the only page she wrote until it was thrown into the trash.

Mika is a 17 year old teen. Her life hasn't been all roses and pearls. Instead, it has always been thorns and spikes. Just like she wrote in her diary. Although she's really pretty and has short silky brown hair, her classmates are pure bullies. She faces a lot of difficulty at school , home and at work too. So basically she's overwhelmed and depressed everywhere. The teachers talk to her at school about her grades and how her dad doesn't attend parent teacher meetings. The manager at work also taunts her just for her looks and not for her work because her work fellows take the credit for all her work. And she spends only a few hours at home. She doesn't have the energy to prover herself , to tell her story to everyone and open to people about her situation. So she just stays shut and listens to whatever everyone's saying. She doesn't believe in love and hates the word when used by anyone. She never receives love nor she gives it to anyone. She feels herself like a beautiful bird, trapped in a dark room and unable to fly the way it wants. She has lost her interest in living and now she's just surviving. 

*Mika*

Another day has started... I don't wanna go to school but.. I guess that's my everyday dialogue.. I get up and get ready for school... I don't actually like school but the only thing I like is the uniform. It's really cute. So I wear everything and wear a tie. Then I make my way to the nearest convenience store to buy a quick breakfast which is a cream bun and a coffee. I'm so glad I didn't see my dad today.

I make my way to school and I soon as I reach the school grounds I see my so called friends walk towards me. "Hey! Mika!" "Hey.." "You know what?! That boy over there just gave me my notebook that I forgot at school yesterday" "huh?" "Yeah! I think he likes me" "oh God. Not this again. He was just being nice that's all. Don't be so-" My friend got furious and says, "You shouldn't talk like this! You don't even know about love. How would you know." she scoffs and walks away. I'm glad I gave her a reality check , she really needed it.

I go to my classroom and sit there. The boys are so noisy, I wish to just punch them in the face to let them know I'm irritated by them. But I can't , sadly. Anyhow, the first lecture starts and that's when I fall asleep. Sooner or later, I wake up to a lot of noise above my head. The teacher isn't in the classroom. "What the hell is all this noise about?" I get up and look at a certain two students. A boy was confessing his love to a girl. Ew! This is a classroom, not a confession room. This disgusts me so I just leave the classroom.

I make my way to the building exit so I can sit outside on the benches. Everyone's in love these days. Nobody is serious about anything anymore. Just love , love and love that's all. The thought literally disgusts me. I don't even want to think about me being in love.

Just as I'm about to sit on a bench, my chemistry sensei notices me. "Mika! What are you doing here?! You're supposed to be in class right now" "I would be in class if the teacher was there teaching" "Teachers are humans. They can make mistakes and be late." "Well. It wasn't a classroom in their absense so I left. It was a literal confession room in there!" I'm furious and I can't hide it. Sensei just scoffs and leaves. He just doesn't like me at all. Maybe it's because of my grades or maybe he got into a fight with my dad one time. Don't wanna think about it honestly. After a while of sitting and rethinking my life decisions, I get up to walk to my classroom. Hoping to see a teacher instead of another couple just confessing.

I walk to my classroom and stand for a few seconds at the door. As soon as I open it, I'm met with student's intense stares. "Mika! You're late! Go to the council president" "but I-" "no! Not a single word. Leave now" . I scoff. I seriously loathe everything about this school (except the uniform obvi). Now I'm walking towards the council room. I remember seeing the council president once or twice. He gives speeches on special occasions. All the girls drool over him apparently. But he doesn't give a damn. That's how everyone should be. And yet again I stand in front of another door. Not knowing what challenge awaits for me inside.