FIller: Haruka Suzuki's Diary

 ~~~~~Extra-Suzuki's Diary.~~~~~

Dear diary,

I'm here writing these words to you.

You know very well that I've been in love with Fumihiro for over a year, right?

Well... You have no idea how much it hurts me to see him suffer because of a person who is destroying him from the inside.

Before they were happy, and I was happy too with them.

Seeing him happy was enough for me to be happy too.

Fumihiro was everything I wanted, or rather I wanted his happiness.

The fact that I wasn't close to him was irrelevant... until now.

After seeing Ema's behavior, it seems that destiny wants to test me.

Maybe it wants to reward me? Maybe it's giving me some chance? I don't know.

I really want to repay the favor.

He saved my life in my worst moment, he saved me from loneliness...

I love everything about him, anything.

His smile, the way he talks to me... even the way he's clumsy.

Do you remember when I told you he called me by my name for the first time? I didn't sleep all night.

I was happy.

For a very short time, but I was.

I fell in love with that boy without even realizing it... I was antisocial and broken, with no friends... with an overprotective and indifferent father at the same time.

Everyone was scared of me and took distance.

I just wanted to be loved and accepted.

He was the only one who was never afraid of me or who I was.

Despite not being in a romantic way, he gave me all the love i needed.

He always showed kindness towards me... even in the smallest and most banal gestures.

Despite being already involved, he always treated me like a human being and made me make friends.

Thanks to him, I discovered how beautiful it is to have friends, to go out, to have fun.

Even just the thought of him makes my heart beat fast.

I know it's really bad to say, but a toxic person like Ema doesn't deserve him at all.

I'm sure I could make him happy.

I really hope that things between them end, for the good of both Fumi and Ema... and also for mine.

I can't stand seeing the person I love suffering and crying because of someone who has even betrayed him.

It's not fair... not at all.

I'd do my best to make him smile every day.

That's what i'd do if he was my boyfriend.

I'd do my my best every day, evertything in my power just to see his smile.

Today I made him lunch... I wanted to cheer him up for the whole situation that happened to him...

He called me by my name again...

You have no idea of how much has made me happy.

I cried when i came home, in fact i'm writing with tears of joy in my eyes.

I even prepared myself to be beautiful enough to make him to like me.

I hope he was truly happy about today.

I love him too much.

I would give my soul for him...

Why is life so cruel?

Why do the good people always stay with toxic people who clearly don't love them?

Why are people like this?

What's wrong with the world?

I don't know.

I'd do my best to make someone happy...

I'd love him every day... I'd shower him with love.

Life is so... unfair... sometimes.

And destiny is even worse than that.

Thank you for listening to me, diary...

And thank you for being my friend. See you tomorrow with more stories.

~Haruka Suzuki