First Notice: What Happened Yasterday. surely, It wasn't My Habit

I opened my eyes. Clearly, I was compeletely upset, denying and unpleasant, and I was hoplessly running, probably to someone or someplace, but this time, not to hide anymore. That was my feeling, now I'm barely on my feet, and forgot that mass . 

First, I toke look, then that look became rapidly to stare, I was absolutely comfussed, there were nothing, I repeated again and again found out nothing was on my sight, even backward, upward, downward was the same view of forward to me, that it was certainly nothing, and again nothing to see.

By first, I was stunned, then I thought nothing wasn't a right expression in this scenery or place. Similary, It was darkness, blackish outlook, nothing to see or recognize, just perfect once, nothing to recognize. In another term, I was in Entirely darkness room, a wide one, or something like this. yep, even if I stare for days, just darkness seen I Would stared, even when I closed my eyes and opened again, or when I rubbed eyes too.
Just none different to see or note.
Wh...Whaaat!?.

Obviously, my amazement changed to panic, because I was panic, real panic, and with badly emotional as well I seemed. This panic wasn't only cuzed by negativity staring on darkness made me imaged that the darkness was staring me too, but this was the oppesite results of deep thinking of my thought, in that case I thought probably I became blind.

I was entirely scared, desperate and sad. However, It was just closest answer described my state, It is hard to admire my own results, so I sadly started to grap my hair with sorrow, then timidly, I covered my tears as if I wiped by my hands.
I was entirely distroied, but not for long time, no more need from tears, because I could saw usually hand, to be specific there were my hands and I am very glad to see them again.

One, two, three second to have some relife and to take a deep exhalation, so I started looking for the lastest memory in my head. Automatically my thumb was tapping my forehead, and the other was holding the bite of my teeth. So The flashback came to me to give soon, and that what I was my needs.

"I remember. But wait, I was in library, so how end me up here.", I was soo comfussed, so I said without wasting any second more.
"haaaaaa", I pulled my hair out, I was too angey at myself, forgetting all studying days in librry, then I yelled loudly," How could I forget this tragedddddy!!!?"

I toke a another deep exhale again, after lossing my all breath, but this time, I decided to relax myself encouraging, not discouaging, and aware, unaware, unlike when I opened my eyes. 

So I strated by closing my eyes, and talked, " No problem, no problem, you worked your best, and thank you for all time you wasted for me", I was insanely clasping, smiling, talking to myself, but that was very  helpful for me.

" thank you, Ollie."

I spontaneously replied, "no thanks, no thanks, I was glad to help you, and...." I stoped, I shocked too much to can remove smile face from my face, however my eyes were about to jump over.

That was totally result of an unknown replied from an unknown side and source. I really, really , really froze 

"Thank you, Ollie." And again, the unknown voice clearly repeated her thanks to me than first time, but this time I noted that sound dircetion, which came from bright light came over my back, so I slowly turned. 
I toke a look, but the light was too shine and harmful to my eyes from that far although, that light could not changed thing in that drakness. 

But who and why?. I did not know whom that voice, so why kept thanking me. 

Who are you?. And why did you thank me?. I initiated by my questions, I tought and hoped that could be helpful to get some answers, but I strated to get closed as plan B.

"I wish you constant success, and don't neglect your studying." 

"hhaa", I stopped getting forword and sighed, I was annoyed, that girl who is obseesing over my studying, don't bother youself bitch.
" my studying my business, b...". I deleted bitch word at end, but I should keep get closer to kick her ass, so I began to scamper.

" thank you for your kidness, but I couldn't recoginze you from my place, and I have many fans those days, so would mind to tell me who you are?", I veiled light by my hand, and I took another look, but again nothing good to me.

who's tricked?. Me, seriously, me, of course,I was sure that I didn't remember any polite girl I met those last couple months, even if her voice was so familier to me, but those days I prefered to remember what I read than who I met.

"So, Good bye." 

"What!!. Whaaat. Wait" I said it, and increased my speed up.

the light was getting dim, so I toke another look at her and saw some kind silhouette, that was her silhouette, she didn't lied about her farewell.

"Hey, you, I don't remember you, stop, I'm talking,  you.", I shouted loudly, I was about to lose my temper, because that was the first time to be completely ignored, and that was by one girl, which even I didn't remember her. This girl made me felt that my prestige was hardly smached by her, so I had to save my honor at less.

I decided to throw all my cards out, so I started to warn her, "Yon must stop pretend leaving right now.", but thing was useful indeed.

"You, you, you think that bitch like you can leave me", I yelled, until I lost my whole breath, but It wasn't the only thing that I lost,  nor my prestige, or my honor were saved, instead, I was incredibly defeated.

Again, I toke deep breath, and again chose to continue running. I was upon reaching the light, but In this time, the silhouette wholly vanished, and the light began to faded out.

I thought, decided and jumped into the light, I jumped and rised my both hand forward the light, I was like  international swimmer, so funny to note, or so weird.

The light was about to vanish, but when my nails reached the bounderies of the light, the light expaneded speedily, so I briefly closed my eyes and removed my lift hand to veil my eyes too.

But this time I prevented to take look, becouse I doubted the possibility of my successful, and of course I was frightened to face the failure, especially, for me, who used to success.

"Coo-coo, coo-coo."

This sound was so familiar, and relaxing too, but I chosed not to open my eyes.

"Scratch-scratch-scratch, coo-coo, coo-coo" 

Also this sound so annoying indeed, and it seemed the first and only thing I could do now, was to open my eyes again.

"Tap-tap-tap, tap-tap-tap, coo-coo, coo-coo"

I opened my eyes slowly, but this time was the first time, I saw the first scenery looked familiar, how much familiar?, so much. That scenery was my usual first scenery, specific scenery, everyday, just like my regular daily scenery, and that was the roof of my room, the shared room, from the first day in the university kadsrov.

Obviously, I was on my bed, so I chose to continue my sleeping, but I noted, this smell, septic smell. I started to check out, tried to find the source, and of cource, by using my noise. I figured out, it came my pillow and my clothes, then I got up of my bed, and.

"Booom", I hardly fell down to ground, then. 

"Flap-flap-flap-flap" the pigeons quickly flow a way.

"Aaaaaahh!!." I was paining.

Firstly, I was glad to prevent my face, when I fell down, secondly, I forgot that all beds in the dormitory were double bunk bed and my was top bunk, thirdly and last, I was crazy last night, I didn't study, went out lately, celebrated, drank lot and vomited in room.

"Whhhhhhhy?, That didn't look like my habit, I was entirely insane yesterday." I decleard my sarrow.

It was about the first lecture, so I decided to skip it to clean of the miss first, and joined to rest lecture then.

So I began by opening the windows and hangings too, then wiping the rest vomit on the entrance, rubbish basket and the double bunk bed, but I noted something weird, didn't look familiar to me at all.

"What?. It is mine, and I don't think it's something chady owns too." I disclosed my opinion, but this things can't be boyish belongs.

"A neckless, it is so feminine." I said, and again, I was surprised.

So I was honestly sure, at this time, that would not be the last one in this day.