Chapter 18:

The Echoes of Severance

Nature of Humans


As Zen carefully repacked his small collection of possessions, the dim, everlasting twilight that clung to the alcove appeared to band together, expanding its embrace. Each thing was carefully placed, its familiar textures serving as a tiny anchor amid the growing shadows. These items included a worn journal, a set of sensitive tools for energetic readings, and a pouch of dried medicines. When he juxtaposed the raw, visceral horror of his own recent experience in the Warden's Grove with the insights he had painstakingly extracted from Icor's bequeathed journals and scattered notes, he saw a picture that was considerably more intricate and dismal than he had first imagined. He now saw that the Curator was more than just a barrier, a protector to be conquered. A sad character, she was permanently linked to a terrifyingly exact protocol that itself had been fashioned out of a deep, ancient wound—a "severance," as Icor had referred to it in his theoretical works. It seemed too early to consider plunging back into her suffocating dominion now, even with this more sophisticated, sympathetic understanding. The pieces would not line up, like attempting to repair a broken, precious vase with dreadfully inadequate glue.

"Understanding the genesis of that original rupture…" Zen whispered, his voice a thin sound, nearly entirely lost in the stifling, vigilant silence of the Whispering Verge that loomed just outside his makeshift haven. "That seems… a more foundational, a more vital step."

With a sigh that was heavy with the stress of his recent experience, he unfolded Icor's main map of Kuro-no-Mori with care. It was a vast, complex work that was the result of years of intense devotion. It combined layers of vibrant, shimmering readings and commentaries written in a mysterious, nearly unintelligible script with painstakingly rendered geographical surveys. The location of his terrifying experience, the Warden's Grove, was identified as a dark, extremely powerful node that was forebodingly close to the old, twisted heartwood of the forest. However, he found himself looking at other, less definite regions that Icor had filled with tentative question marks, with special symbols signifying unusual concentrations of emotional residue, or with fragmented legends suggesting locations where the forest's omnipresent sadness was especially tangible, almost tangible.

One of these locations, which was rather far southeast of the Warden's Grove, had the misleadingly straightforward title, "The Sunken Fields – Whispers of Lost Lullabies?" Icor's observations on this particular region were incredibly limited and more speculative and based on second-hand reports than factual information. They described a location of false calm, a pleasant, almost overpowering sweetness that pervaded the air, a false scent that concealed a profound, underlying sadness. Uncomfortable stories also circulated about "child-like spirits" or, even more terrifyingly, "echoes of innocence betrayed." Although this route marked a conscious departure from the Grove's recent, unfiltered tragedy, Zen sensed an innate attraction, recognizing its possible link to the forest's more extensive, melancholy past. Perhaps these other desolate areas of Kuro-no-Mori possessed various textures, distinct representations of that same initial, foundational sorrow if the Curator's domain was an open, festering scar of broken covenants and the chilling enforcement of a strict, unyielding order.

Zen made up his mind and fastened the last buckle on his pack, the tattered leather groaning softly in the stillness. He hesitated, his eyes scanning his surroundings again, taking in the image of the old, twisted trees, their bark twisted into patterns like frozen, sorrowful faces. Long and erratic in the gloomy light, the shadows played tricks on his tired eye as they danced at the edge of his view. Here, he was an outsider, an alien presence, a visitor moving warily across a terrain carved by centuries of accumulated, invisible emotion rather than wind and water.

He took slow, methodical movements to leave the relative protection of the alcove and then advanced forward into the eerie embrace of the Whispering Verge. The more obvious game tracks, which he deliberately avoided, seemed to wind back on themselves in confusing circles or end abruptly in impenetrable, thorny thickets—a regular, confusing trick of the Verge, as Icor had warned and he had seen. Instead, using a skill meticulously developed from Icor's esoteric teachings and his own natural sensitivity, he navigated by feeling the delicate energetic currents, the faint, nearly undetectable "grain" of the forest's stifling environment.

It seems that the forest itself reacted to his new course, his changed line of investigation, in its own thoughtful, melancholy manner. The tonal tone of the ubiquitous murmurs that flowed and eddied around him started to change. They had evolved from a generic, formless miasma of misery to carrying faint, nearly inaudible melodic bits on occasion, like the ethereal snippets of a lost children's song, tragically warped by the weight of incalculable grief and the vast distance. Subtly, the trees also started to change. Their twisted shapes ceased to be so obviously threatening, their presence infused with a deep, omnipresent sadness. He went through a quiet woodland in which elderly, weeping willows trailed their thin branches like innumerable veils of grief, their leaves bearing the sour, bruised hue of ancient contusions. Beneath them, the ground was abnormally soft, covered in an odd moss that pulsed with a faint, sickly green brightness, giving off a spooky, underwater light that seemed to suck away all warmth.

Here and there, in the fluctuating darkness, Zen saw disturbing images of a broken, tainted domesticity. For a brief, heart-stopping moment, a random group of moss-covered pebbles may resemble the broken remains of a cradle. From a specific perspective, a particularly thick patch of tangled, prickly vines might resemble the enormous, deserted body of a child's doll, with its cloth limbs crooked in a pose of finality. Rather than being overt illusions intended to shock, these were subtle, sneaky environmental cues, as though the forest itself were having nightmares, its sleep tainted by a past that was neither completely recollectible nor completely, mercifully forgotten—the tortured subconscious of a wounded, ancient being realized as landscape.

Zen painstakingly documented these unsettling occurrences in his journal, drawing the warped forms with his charcoal stick against the parchment and noting the quiet, melancholy noises that seemed to come straight from the ground. He was now creating an atlas of sorrow and a geography of pain rather than merely mapping a geographical area.

Eventually, he reached a point where the way—if such a vague track could be referred to be a path at all—divided. One of the forks led down, into a hollow, hazy basin from which came that cloying, subtle sweetness he had heard about, the air inside it heavy and eerily silent. The alternative route up a low, desolate slope, leading to a region where the trees seemed strangely blighted, their branches skeletal and austere, clawing blackly against the sky that was always pale. He checked Icor's map again, and it verified his suspicions: the "Lost Lullabies" question was prominently displayed in the basin.

"The path of least resistance," Zen thought softly as he stared at the fog-covered basin, the words a familiar warning to himself, "so often leads to the deepest, most treacherous mire." Nevertheless, it was the unmistakable path that his study, Icor's broken hints, and the forest's own faint, melancholy cues appeared to be urging him in spite of his concerns. Cloying and tinged with something that seemed like decay, the pleasant aroma had an ineffable undertone of deep, almost excruciating grief, a flavor of sorrow very different from the stiff, ferociously controlled gloom emanating from the Warden's Grove. This felt older, gentler in some ways, but maybe even more profoundly, firmly anchored in the primeval anguish of the forest.

He rearranged his bag, the familiar weight of his diaries and equipment providing a slight, palpable solace from the enormity of the task at hand. He had a deep-seated suspicion that the route into the Sunken Fields would require a different kind of fortitude and a different way of thinking than the one demanded by the powerful Curator and her eerie, symbolic paper sword. The only thing needed would be a readiness to hear the saddest, oldest tales the forest has to offer—not conflict.