Chapter 13:
If You Really Love Me, Then You Should Love Yourself First!
We sat in Shiro sofa in her dimension. She said ‘It’s still on progress’, but this is a whole house. A WHOLE HOUSE, inside my apartment. Dude, she had her own garden. Now am I can’t jealous of her, of course I can. It’s my dream in the future to have a nice house. Sure, my apartment right now is also nice. But this…….god.
“When you finished by saying it out loud in your head, Souta, I suggest that you finish your tea first.” Cut Shiro from my head start to you.
“Sorry.”
I slurped the tea for a second and the tea is already finished. I put the cup in the table and Shiro commenting, “Wow, that’s 2 cups already.”
“Yeah. I admit that tea was good.”
“It’s a usual tea you usually bought in Nina’s supermarket, you know.”
“Then you must brew it correctly than Onii-chan.”
“Oh, come on, I’m still learning that.”
“It’s alright, Onii-chan. I know you’ve been trying. Even before I was here technically.”
She’s right. When I were bored, I usually brew some tea or a coffee when I were bored. Sometimes I even brew a coffee leaf, and when I sipped it for the first time, I didn’t realize I will enjoy it until this day.
“Well, that aside, you three were commenting on my house for a quite time. But all of you is not telling me directly to me. I’m okay with it. But, at least spill it.”
I knew it she peeking our minds again.
“Yes, and I’m sorry. I can’t hold it. You can say it a some of ‘curse’ from being one of the founders of this world.”
Rina asks her, “Wait, curse?”
“Do you can imagine you can hear everyone minds without any control except a control to ignore it every single time?”
We sat down there, and for some reason, looks like we stepped into a landmine of feelings right now.
“Now, I want to talk about your situations. Souta.”
Oh! I hope I can get something from this.
“Your situation is, bizarre. Even for me. But in order to change another situation, you need to do a sacrifice.”
I confused, “A sacrifice?”
While holding his left upper hand, Rina said, “Wait, don’t tell me we need to do something like out from the horror movie.”
“No, it’s not to that extend. And it’s not that kind of sacrifice.”
Shiro flick her finger, and the PC for the ‘World Coding’ is appearing.
“In fact, Souta is already doing that. Unfortunately, he didn’t know what happened outside of his apartment.”
She is right. When I change the default setting of myself to Touka, I didn’t know what or something change outside of my apartment room.
“Well, for example what he is doing earlier. Kai, your dear best childhood friend, is not take interest at Touka anymore.”
Eh! Wait, so when I change the settings, it will adjust anything in this world?
Shiro continuing, “And not just that. Kai first love was changed back where it’s belonged.”
So, this is it. In order to fix Kai, I need to be Touka forever.
“Well, it’s not the end of yourself, Souta. This is fixable. But of course, with sacrifice, and automatically if you need to do something the same, you need to do another, even sometimes a different sacrifice.”
Rina asks again to Shiro, started concerned. “Then, what should we do?”
“Relax, Souta is already doing it, and you just fine, right?”
Confused, I just say, “Yes. Uumm. Of course.”
“You seem confused. Alright, let me do one thing to you. Nothing drastic nor dangerous.”
Shiro sat in front of the PC and started to editing the code. After she’s done, she turns her back into us.
“So, what did you feel, right now.”
“Nothi-“ When I say that, I realize my voice is becoming girly, but not girly as Touka.
Did she change me into Touka?
I took a glance at Touka, but I confused when I see Touka, she’s not changed a little bit. Still the same short hair.
When I touch my own hair, I sensed my hair is longer than I were when I touch myself through Touka. Not long as Rina has, but it’s definitely longer than Touka.
“Wait, why did you change Souta into a girl?” Rina ask Shiro angrily.
“It’s obvious. To change Kai first love to Nina.”
“What do you mean by changing him into a girl as well!? He had more enough girl experience as Touka.”
“Relax, let me explain from the beginning.”
Shiro showing us a really big transparent display in front of us, like out from a sci-fi movie.
“This is Souta default code, with Touka under it.”
She scroll that code until it shows Kai, “This is Kai’s code. As you can see his first love for some reason become Touka.”
Shiro flicks her finger and that code is already changed.
“Now this is what was I edited in Shota’s code. I’m sorry but for now, your name is still Souta.”
“Nah, It’s alright.” I say it to her
Thank you for not changing my name.
Rina sees Kai code line and found something unusual, “Wait, Kai lines. It’s not changed. What happened?”
“It’s because Souta is originally a female at this reality. I don’t want to spoil it to you guys but, in this reality, Souta does something to Kai that Kai is not considering both Souta and Touka as his first love anymore, even though they were both females.”
Now I wonder what did I do in this reality to Kai.
“Now, I want to say this. I’m sorry.”
We paused for a second there.
“It’s alright, Shiro. It’s for Souta and Touka sake.”
“Don’t push yourself too hard, Shi-chan.”
“Even if you are a powerful god, you still a person that we know. Truthful and kind.”
“No! That’s not what I meant.” Shiro cut me right when I was finished my sentence.
“What I meant was, I….I actually know how to fix Kai situation form beginning. But there is a reason why I didn’t do it until I found a right place and the right time.”
Rina watches the surrounding of the house. “I understand the right place part, but what do you mean the right time?”
Shiro sat on the sofa again, leaving the PC turned off automatically.
“When the day Souta got split up as Souta and Touka, I realize that in order to grant all of your wish, is changing your perspective, some of the memories and your physical appearance. Well, most of it goes to Souta and Touka.”
I say to Shiro, “Okay, I understand at this point. But you telling it to us like you still not sure about it.”
Shiro answered me, “That’s the problem. In order to you fix this problem, is to experiment it on someone. That means you need to experimenting the code to yourselves, to Rina, to Kai, or someone else.”
Now I know why Shiro is hesitated. She knows my morals. And she knew, if she said it before I was experimenting on myselfs, I will reject her idea.
“What!? He needs to do that!? Oh no, please tell me there is something else we can-“
“Rina.”
I touch her shoulder trying to stopped her.
“Rina, that’s enough. I know what you feel. But Shiro is right, we can’t do anything about it. You said it yourself, ‘world is harsh place to live.’”
“I know, but….. but…”
“Rina, whatever I do, still love you.”
“Souta…… You are a girl right now, but for some reason, I still mesmerized by you.”
“Uugghhhmm!”
“Ah!” “Ah!”
We startled at Shiro clearing her throat.
“You two, I know I said I don’t want to disturb you in your apartment, but please, if you want to do flirting stuff, do it on your apartment, will you.”
“Even when Onii-chan changed into a girl, he still loves Rina, and Rina also love him no matter what Onii-chan appearance.”
We blushed because of Touka, say that to us. Even though I instinctively said it through Touka, in my conscious I still consider Touka as my little sister. Maybe that because of the code, but at this point, I don’t care. I love Touka and Rina. Not equally of course.
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