Coping

Right now I'm sitting in my room, thinking over the mess my life has become. Let me recount to you the events after everything went on its way to become utterly bizarre. 
Today, in the morning, I went to school as my twin sister as she was sick. I had to reject a guy who has given her a letter. The guy turns out to be a total douchebag, but I don't reject him as he's my sister's type. 
And then, I find out that that douchebag is none other than my favorite cutie. 
I stood behind the curtain, trying to contain my purest disbelief as I saw Anya's frame promulgated out of that bastard. I watched her quickly change into the girl's uniform and head out of the empty classroom. 
Though I was alone now, I didn't dare come out from behind the curtain.I watched the grayish sky outside and heaved a sigh. What was I even supposed to think of, then??
I thought, I like Anya just so much, why could she be doing this? A story started cooking in my head. It could be that Anya likes Ichiko so she pretended to be a boy to be with her. That would also explain why the guy was so Ichiko's type. 
I was disappointed. I was hurt. I didn't like that Anya would try to deceive my sister like that.I had thought she was an innocent, sweet girl, but now the picture I has of seemed to be crumbling to reveal something I can't like....
My thoughts were interrupted as the bell's sound banged into my ears, announcing the end of the break. I quickly came out and ran to class. I saw all the girls from before.... and Anya too. No matter how I felt, I had to sit beside her. 
She glanced at me as I sat down and tugged me softly. "So what did you say?"
I gulped my disappointment and smiled."I told him I'd think about it."
She smiled back. "So what are you thinking of saying? Is he your type?"
I forced out another smile, the corner of my mouth twitching. "I'll have to think, you know. And he was a bit too rough, I would say."
Her smile seemed to falter but she recovered quickly. "I thought rough was your type?"
"Hmm, I don't know, He seemed quite excessive for me."I was enjoying this, making her feel bad, even though I probably shouldn't. 
"Oh, I-I see."She nodded and smiled, but it seemed like she was dead inside.
The teacher came and the next class began. And after that, the next. Time probably sped up, or maybe it was because I wasn't focused at all. 
Anyways, we soon went home and I buried myself in my room. That's where I am right now.
I have been thinking, and I have decided, no matter what, sis can't know about this. It would break her heart to know that Anya would deceive her. It broke mine too. 
What do you usually do in uncertain times? For me, I usually confide in my sis or bestie and get their help. Right now, asking sis is out of question, so there's just one option. 
I rang her up and called her over. Who, you ask? Just like sis has he bestie Anya, I have mine, Alex. Let me give you a brief intro about her. 
Alex is a tomboy, and she is handsome. Yes, she's a she, and she's handsome. So handsome in fact, wherever she goes, girls think she's a pretty boy and hit on her. It annoys her a lot, though I find it absolutely hilarious. It's her own fault for dressing up like a gentleman, what with the short hair and that flat, flat chest. Though it pisses her off when I mention her flatness, it is reality.
Speak of the devil, here she is, I can hear the bell go off. I should have told her not to ring it as sis is sleeping but I was so absorbed in other thoughts... hopefully, she doesn't wake up. 
I open the door and get smitten by her handsomeness. Even though I know she's a girl, damn, she's so handsome. She waved her hand in front of my face. "Don't get lost in thought after I came all the way here, dumbass"
I frowned and pulled her to my room. She seemed somewhat concerned. "Is this about Ichiko? You told me she was sick"
I sighed and gathered my mind, thinking about the sequence of events that transpired."She is recovering, and no, it's not exactly about her..."
She bumped my shoulder. She does it when she's trying to lighten the mood. "Don't look all gloomy like that, just spit it out, dumbass"
I sighed and hugged her. I rarely do this, only when I'm really overwhelmed. She held me and stroked my head. "Just let it out..."
I didn't want to just dump my burden onto her, but I need her help...I can't do this alone...
I pulled back a little and explained everything to her. I explained how I pretended to be my sis, the letter, the encounter with the guy, what I saw in the classroom, all of it. The heaviness in my heart became way lighter, somehow. I wouldn't tell these things to anyone except her.
I asked her what I should do now. She patted my head."You should go and get us a drink"
I frowned."This is no time for your silly jokes."
"I'm not joking! Seriously! We need to replenish our minds first and think about this!"
I gave a her a playful glare and went to get the drinks. My throat too felt dry after talking so much, and feeling so much. Maybe she guessed that. No, she very likely guessed that. Though she could at least have gotten the drinks for me instead, this lazy dummy. 
I got them and handed her a small bottle, while helping myself to another and jumped down on the bed beside her. She gulped it down even faster than me and spoke."So why do you think Anya pretended to be a dude? There's nothing good about being a dude, you know."She said it so matter of factly, you would think she has been a dude.
I finished my drink a little later and began. "Well, obviously, it seems like Anya likes sis and she's pretending to be a boy to be with her."
She gave me a certain look. "How do you know that that's the reason?"
I shrugged. "What else could it be?"
She pretended to look up and think. I shoved her lightly and she giggled and I giggled with her. She shoved me back. "There's another possibility, you know."
I picked up the pillow and hit her lightly. "What's that?"
She grabbed it from me and threw it at me. I laid down in surrender. "What if she's filling in for somebody like you were filling up for Ichiko?"
I got up and gasped. I hadn't even considered that possibility. She continued. "Maybe it's her brother or something. Maybe he was sick too, so she took his place." She shrugged. 
I looked at her and patted her head and smirked. "Good girl, you can think. I'm proud of you."
She swatted my hand away and gave me a playful glare."The thing is, we have to find out if she was filling in for someone or if it's all her."
I nodded and we both went to thinking. I felt guilty for making Anya feel bad, and for being angry at her, because if she was doing exactly what I was doing, how could I blame her? No, first, we need to find out if she was filling in or making a new character, we need to think....
That's when I heard a soft bang and got up. The noise came from Ichiko's room. We quickly ran to her, Alex in front of me. 
She opened the door and we entered. Sis was there, lying on the floor. Alex and I hurriedly helped her to the bed. She opened her eyes and she seemed even weaker and paler than when I left her.
She looked at Alex and understood that I had told her I pretended to be Ichiko; she knows I tell her everything. "So did you do it?"She asked me. I glanced at Alex and she shook her head. 
I looked back at Ichiko. "You should rest right now, your condition is even worse"
She pouted but closed her eyes. And then feel asleep, which was a little too quick for her. I was really worried by now. I looked Alex and she spoke my thoughts. "We gotta take her to the doc."
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We came back to my home a little while later, after the doctor said she has to be admitted and her whining how she's doesn't but couldn't even get up. Of course the doctor isn't dumb and neither are we, she's there trapped for at least a week. The doctor said it's a certain variant of influenza; nothing to be too worried about, but she's gotta rest a lot. 
I sat down and frowned at Alex. "Why haven't you gone home though? Your parents would be worried."
I recalled the memories of her parents. They're very nice and her mom is tomboyish too, though she's anything but flat, hers are two big ol' Gs, her hair is long too. And her dad, he is a very lucky man. Apparently, he used to be a Yakuza. Though after looking at him, you'd think twice about that. 
I had to end this train of thought, as recalling her parents reminded me of mine too...
I shifted my focus back to reality. "Nah, I ain't gonna go home today, I'm here with ya"She replied and smirked.
I eyed her with mock suspicion."You're gonna stay over again? Your parents know?"
She shrugged me off."Nah, but they know I'm at your place so they would figure."
I shoved her, somewhat forcefully this time, but still playfully. "Your mom has entrusted me to mane you behave properly, so go and call her, dumbass."
She shot me a fake glare and shoved me back. "Nah, I don't wanna. She thinks you're some kinda perfect angel or somethin' "
I smirked. "Well, she's right, isn't she?"Heck, I love her mom. 
She chuckled."Never could be more wrong. You're as much angel as I'm an alien"
"That's a lot of angel then."
She pouted. And ruffled my hair. "You calling me an alien? You wanna go, shortie?"
We chuckled and went to my room. Of course I made her call her mom and tell her she's staying over. And then we watched movie till late night and had fun. The memory of Anya turning out to be that guy seemed so distant, so far away, like it happened in another world. We feel asleep on the couch, a thin sheet covering us from cold, and a thicker sheet covering us from reality...
The next morning, I got up and didn't see Alex beside me. I looked in the kitchen and the other rooms and didn't see her. I thought that was weird, she's not the kind of girl who wouldn't announce her leave like it's national news. 
Then I saw her, settled quietly on a chair on the dining table in the kitchen. She was in such a secluded corner, I didn't even see her before. And she seemed far too lost in thought to even notice me. I took a seat opposite to her and looked at her like why she's being so quiet.
Then she looked at me and spoke up. "I have a plan."