Where Am I?

What do they mean world ending? Who? Who is world ending and who means it? I just got here. The gravitational ripples I sent through the fabric of space time in this star system haven't even bounced back to me, except from the scientist ship, but I can sense the star light. There are two suns in this system, almost three billion kilometers from each other but the closest starlight to me and they bathe the system in it, and me. The rest sprinkles in from distances I don't know how I can fathom. I can't bear to think how far the star I can remember shining down on me and giving me life is now.
Am I even still in the same universe? I wait for the voice of the radio signal to talk back, to start talking to myself again but nothing happens. I can make out bits and pieces of the stray signals around me. I might get to know about the beings that live here eventually, but it's all so overwhelming. I need the signal from the ship back but it's still chugging away from me. What can I do?

I cry out but it's like screaming a void, and not just screaming into one. What am I? A black hole. I can sense the accretion disk, and I can almost strain at it. The signal said it was going through me. I heard it through the thumps. They were binary but they were words, in whatever language the scientists on the ship speak. Can I repeat something back to them? Greetings, I strain at my accretion disk. This is preposterous. Wake up!!!!! I try to remember the pounding. Thump, thump thump, thump. Thump thump. Greetings. It's not Morse code, they wouldn't know it. The signal is binary but they're not. Something simple. Thump, thump, thump thump, thump thump thump, thump thump thump thump thump, thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump. I strain out the Fibonacci sequence. I remember it from a movie. A movie? What movie? Was I a movie? No. I was a who. Not a what.

Right now I needed the ship back. I can pull on the fabric of space time and get the ship back to me. That would scare it. World-ending black hole. They don't like me already around here. Somehow I'd gotten to 28,657 in the Fibonacci sequence.

I don't have a surface, I remember I had told myself. But I can feel the light of the two stars, and if I focus I can make out the way their light reflects on the planets and even the scientist ship. Is that how I could see them?

The voice that claimed to be me had scared me when I first got here, but now I sensed I needed it. It was connected to the ship somehow but now the ship was leaving. Why? These stars bathe the system in light. Whoever thought space was dark? 

I can see other ships. Approaching me? Or approaching the scientists? I feel a sense of dread, but I'm not supposed to feel. It's not feeling, what is it? I can tug on the fabric I'm ripped into, I know that. But I know I can't do it accurately enough to blow these other ships away. Imagine that. Now that's a black hole with powers. That's a movie. Why do I remember those? What else can I remember? I know what I can't remember. Me. I woke up a black hole. No, I haven't woke up yet. I remember Kafka’s Metamorphosis. “Gregor Samsa woke up one morning and found himself changed in his bed into a monstrous cockroach.” How would I remember the line? The story scared me. Did he turn into a giant cockroach or a regular sized one? Someone threw an apple at him. He must have been man-sized. I'm a tiny black hole, am I man-sized? I don't belong here.

The sound that arrives is different, and shattering. I missed the explosion. One of the ships blew up, the light of the stars reflecting on the wreckage. Then the sound of the explosion arrived. There's not supposed to be sound in space. I must definitely be in a different universe. I know that much physics. How? And how did I miss the explosion? What was I thinking of? Thinking. Like focus. Without focus the light and signals and bits of matter coming through my event horizon are undifferentiated. I have to focus to make any meaning of them but I'm not focused because I can't remember who I am and I'm focused on that, but I must still be in here, right? How could I miss the explosion? The wreckage of the ship, the light from the stars reflecting off it and into me, but it's not the scientist ship. One of the others blew up, and the other is leaving. Are they coming back? I thump, thump thump, thump thump, focusing again on straining my accretion disk. I am here!

The ship approaches again, too far to give off a signal. I try to focus on what else the light of the two stars in this system bounces off of. There are planets, a few orbiting around the one and one orbiting around the other. There's a planet much closer, it's orbiting far from both stars. Some of them have rocks orbiting around them, or pieces of metallic junk. Satellites. And I catch the stray messages. Planet X, far from the others, and the planets M-----, the planet of the purple people and the moon Ulnas. They all know about each other but they don't like each other, and have so many names for themselves and each other. I can't tell all that much apart. The purple people keep coming up. There's a friendly competition of some kind being held between all the races. It's supposed to bring peace. I'm not convinced.