Perspective 0 - Live Interpretation

Pax: “I wouldn’t mind falling in love with someone like that”

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Pax: Well, at least that’s what I think she was thinking at the time… It’s not like I could read her mind or anything.

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Pax: Well obviously she’s dead now so we can’t just ask her about it! You know all this happened like a thousand years ago right?

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Pax: I’m sorry for the spoilers but she’s not immortal like me you know? Don’t worry, her death is dramatic and beautiful… 

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Sorry, that’s a shitty joke... Like that 9/11 one I wrote earlier...

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Pax: This- This story is kind of worthless isn’t it? Honestly, I’m not completely sure why I’m going through all of this… I just- I just want to believe that that stupid idiot’s feelings were worth something… You know what I mean? Pax’s feelings, Adam’s feelings – I looked back one day and realized that I was starting to forget what it was like to be young and stupid…

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Pax: Maybe that’s not a good way of putting it… Something that consumed my life, something that I once thought about for every waking moment. The original Pax truly wanted to kill himself, and he went through with it… Reflecting on that, its not like I don’t understand why he felt that way, but I just can’t feel the same way anymore…

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Pax: Suicide, huh. For some reason though I can’t come up with a good reason to say it’s not something you should do. But like, even if I could kill myself right now I don’t think I would. Is that strange?

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Pax: Anyways, what I’m trying to say is that my past just looks like facts to me these days. I want to remember my feelings because I feel like I lost them at some point. And I also want my past to have not been meaningless... Though, its not like anything really has meaning anyways…

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Victoria: What are you up to Pax?

The voice belonged to a beautiful woman who came bouncing down the stairs. Walking towards Pax once she got down to the floor, it was clear that the two were very familiar with one another.

Pax: We’re about midway through Cycle 1 right now. The name is still being workshopped though… I was thinking of something along the lines of “I was reincarnated into this batshit crazy world, but when I died a second time I kept on living even though I didn’t really want to”

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Pax: Too long? Yeah, I think so too. I also feel like it spoils what is supposed to be something of a plot twist… Though, that is the main gimmick so maybe not…

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Pax: Don’t act like you’re surprised by that, you were there when it happened. But now that I’m thinking about it, way too much happens before I die the second time for that gimmick to really be in the title. Maybe I should change the order of the story around or something…

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Pax: Yeah, you’re right…Oh I almost forgot! If you every get the opportunity to, you should get the perspectives of other people so that this story feels more complete. Right now, its all from my point of view, so I think it lacks perspective. Also, I’m sure I made some mistakes every now and then so please fact check for me alright?

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Pax: Its fine, I trust your judgement. It is my story at the end of the day, but it wouldn’t really be complete without some other perspectives. We won’t be getting to it for a while, but there is a period of a couple years where all of my memories are missing and everything is a mess after that for a little bit. I’ll need you to figure out what happens by looking into other peoples’ perspectives all right?

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Victoria: I’m not sure how I feel about you going so in detail about your previous loves here.

Victoria had apparently picked up the book while Pax and I were talking. It seems she skipped straight to the most incriminating parts first.

Pax: Stop teasing me so, witch. I know that you know I love you more than anything and everything. Whether you like it or not, I’m in love with you for eternity.

Victoria: I just wanted to hear you say “I love you” again…

Now embracing Pax entirely, Victoria said such. After sharing an emotional kiss, the two continued to activities that I’m sure they would rather I didn’t go too in detail into. Well, maybe they wouldn’t mind that much, but including every single time they “do it” to this story would cause the whole thing to double in length.

Guess I’ll get back to work…