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I had this nasty dream dream. It's one of those where you only remember how it made you feel and maybe just some tiny details. You wake up exhausted and are like, "Damn, I feel horrible." All I remember is flashing lights, some kind of pain, and fear. The pain still lingers in my hands, but I am not hurt at all. I think I will stay in bed for just a while longer. I hate this. I slept for so long, but I am still so tired. I even went to bed early after that emotional rollercoaster yesterday, but I am glad that I was able to talk to her again.

As the day went by, I continued to reminisce about it. I started doubting myself again and asking if it was just a weird dream, or something more. The last thing I recall in my mind is being with her and then this. I am a bit worried if there are some connections. That would be horrid. But how would that even happen? I don't have any hints or proof, but still, I am thinking about the worst case scenarios, that I am sure I wouldn't be capable of under any circumstances. What am I even talking about?

I want to text her, just to be sure. This is not me, but I can't trust it. I think it's been okay recently. What if that's just what I am thinking and I am not aware of stuff? It sounds stupid, but can I trust myself? I think I kept lying to myself, and now the truth is catching up. I will text her if she is okay.

No reply. I guess this is it for me.