Prologue

 I never thought love could be so painful. When the one you love the most is now hidden by dirt and a cold slab of concrete, everything feels numb. Time may flow fast for others, but for me? It feels like it's at a standstill.

Memories flood like a maelstrom, reminding me of the thing I lost at every waking millisecond. The kisses I shared days ago. The jokes you made that had us in a laughing fit for hours. And worst of all, the warmth I felt that just made me feel whole, complete. That.. was all gone.

“Rose…” A woman's voice called out. It was the mother of the one buried under that horrid gray slab. “None of this was your fault. I hope you know that. Edward wouldn't want you to beat yourself over this.”

As much as his mothers words rang true, I still felt empty inside. No, It was my fault. I pushed my emotions too much on him. I loved him too much. And as a result, the guilt of not being able to forget the girl he loved that resembled me ate at him. My affection was too much for him, and he didn’t want to feel the guilt of only seeing the other girl he loved before me…

I had gotten him killed. And it was my affection that made him feel guilt. I felt a distant warmth as Edwards mother hugged me. And his father, shielding us from the oncoming rain that started. If only the rain could wash away this hollow emptiness I had finally managed to fill. If only the rain could drown this ache of yet again, feeling alone. I wasn’t alone. My brain knew that. But the ache my heart felt, and my dull emotions, told me otherwise.

I don’t know how I was going to recover from this. And frankly…. I don’t know if I wanted to recover from it.