Chapter 25:
Failure Will Make My Pen Sharp as a Blade: My Writer's Life in Another World
Lysteria doesn’t look like the same place we nearly died in.
The streets are crooked, patched together like a child tried too hard to glue a vase back after breaking it. Roofs tilt at odd angles, as if arguing over which way rain should fall. Gardens sprout from cracks in the cobblestones - wild, stubborn, half weeds, half flowers, like they decided perfection was overrated and just bloomed anyway.
And through it all… It’s alive.
People pour out of their homes with wonder lighting their faces everyday. An old man leans on his cane, running a trembling hand over the wall of a rebuilt house as if afraid it’ll vanish. Kids chase each other between piles of stones that used to be rubble, their laughter still shaky, but laughter nonetheless. Merchants start setting up crooked stalls, hammering nails into wood that doesn’t quite fit, bargaining with voices that crack but don’t break.
It isn’t pretty. Honestly, it looks like a sketch drawn by someone drunk. But for the first time, no one’s trying to erase the lines.
I sit on the steps of what’s left of the town hall, the Pen resting in my lap, and realize my hand isn’t shaking. I don’t need to write to hold this place together anymore. I could stop, and the world wouldn’t collapse. That’s new. That’s… Terrifying, but in a good way.
But when I pick up the pen anyway, it’s not out of desperation. It's a choice.
My words don’t burn like fire or cut like blades this time. They land soft, like seeds scattered on fresh soil. A phrase scribbled in the diary nudges a half fallen lantern post upright. A doodle of a crooked window actually fixes itself into a house wall, still crooked, but functional. My sentences don’t scream survival. They hum life.
For the first time, I’m not patching holes. I’m planting stories.
And gods, does that feel different. Even more so because, this time, I’m not consuming my memories. I’m giving life to them.
I smile, dotting the end of a sentence, and close the diary. I get up, stretch, and go back to my library, wondering what I should do for the rest of the day.
The doors creak when I push them open, though I’m not sure if that’s the wood or my own head making the sound. The library greets me the same as always, rows and rows of shelves, the smell of ink, that endless hush that feels heavier than silence. Only this time, something is… Different.
A shimmer runs along the far wall. The shelves seem to bend, stretch, then split, as if the architecture of this place is still figuring itself out. Slowly, with a patience that makes my skin prickle, a new aisle forms where there wasn’t one before.
A shelf appears. Not old, not dusty, but young, if that word can belong to furniture. Its wood is smooth and pale, and the books it holds - dozens, maybe hundreds - aren’t uniform. Some are thick, some thin. Some have cracked spines, some are pristine, others unfinished with loose pages poking out. I recognize them before I even step closer.
They’re mine.
Every story I started and abandoned. Every journal entry that stopped mid sentence. Every idea I wrote down on the back of receipts and never finished. The half worlds, the characters left suspended, the drafts I hated too much to continue. All the ghosts of my writing, lined up and waiting.
There’s a slip of paper tucked into the corner of the shelf. A note, the handwriting unfamiliar yet strangely warm:
"This is my gift. Feel free to wander through every world you’ve ever begun, and maybe, spread your gift across them too.
-Resilience”
I laugh. Not the bitter kind I used to choke on, but something lighter. Of course she’d leave a note like that.
My fingers hover over the nearest book. The title is smudged, half-formed, like it never decided what it wanted to be. I almost pull it free, but stop. The shelf hums faintly, as if it’s alive, patient. The stories aren’t going anywhere. They’ve been waiting years; they can wait a little longer.
I take a step back, feeling the weight of the gift settle into me. The library isn’t just my cage anymore. It isn’t even just my refuge. It’s a doorway. A reminder that all the things I threw away still matter. That I can choose to pick them up again.
And for once, the idea doesn’t scare me.
The new shelf still looms in front of me, impossibly tall. I don’t even notice the door creak until I hear Dalylah’s boots against the floor. Yuki follows, quieter, but not less imposing. Both of them stop short when they see me standing in front of the shelf.
Dalylah crosses her arms, tilting her head.
“What in all hells is that supposed to be?”
Yuki narrows her eyes at the spines of the books.
“Looks like trouble. Or opportunity. Usually the same thing with you.”
I chuckle, not even looking at them.
“Apparently, it’s a doorway to… New places.”
I show them the note. Yuki raises her brows as Dalylah frowns a bit.
“New places, huh?” She says, curiosity slipping through her voice.
I open my mouth, then close it again, feeling my throat dry. For once, I don’t have sarcasm ready. Just a single, shaky question:
“What if I… Went? What if I tried to see what waits in those stories?” my fingers twitch at my side, hovering near my pen. “What if there’s more out there? More than Lysteria?”
The silence stretches. I half expect them to laugh at me - or worse, tell me no.
Dalylah snorts, sharp and humorless, stepping forward until she’s right beside me.
“And let you leave alone?” her eyes flash, hard but not unkind. “Please. If we take our eyes off you for five seconds, you’ll probably burn yourself alive with that pen of yours. Not happening.”
I blink, caught between indignation and… Gratitude.
“That’s unfair. I don’t burn myself alive that often.”
“Yet.” Dalylah mutters.
Yuki’s voice is softer, carrying the weight of a half smile.
“Besides, you’d get lost in the first chapter without us.” she taps her bow lightly against her shoulder. “No, Aya. We’re going too.”
Something in my chest loosens, something I didn’t realize was still knotted tight. For so long, it was always me, alone with my pain and pen, convincing myself every word I wrote was worth it. Now… I’m not the only one holding the page.
I glance between them, Dalylah’s defiance and Yuki’s calm certainty, and I don’t feel like the center of a story. I feel like part of a line, three threads twisted together, pulling the same direction.
The shelf hums, faint but insistent, like the spine of a book waiting to be cracked open. One of the tomes glows faintly, its title blurred but pulsing, like a heartbeat written in ink. An invitation. Or maybe a dare.
I step closer, pen in hand. Dalylah adjusts the flame licking along her sword, its glow reflecting in her eyes. Yuki pulls her bowstring back just enough to make the golden thread hum, the sound steady and sure. The three of us stand shoulder to shoulder, facing the unknown, as if it’s just another battlefield - except this one smells like possibility instead of blood.
And once and for all, I don’t feel like I have to hold the burden alone. I don’t feel like I have to hold the whole story myself. This isn’t just my handwriting anymore. It’s our page. Our mess. Our chance.
The shelf flickers again, daring me to write the first line. I take a breath, steadying the burn in my palm, and let the words form - not on the page yet, but in me.
The failures are what keep the stories alive.
I smile, faint and crooked, looking at the two standing beside me.
“I wonder what other failures we’ll find in these new stories.”
And with that, we step forward together, into whatever waits on the other side of the page.
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