Chapter 43:

Do you want to be my Gulasch

I Found my Pathetic Self Transported to Another World after Having my First Love Confession Rejected. Will I be Able to Find the Life I Want to Have here??


Violet went outside on the Balcony. She immediately spotted Alex standing at the railing a bit to the side, where nobody else was. Violet rushed over.

“Ah shit, I only got one spoon… but I’m not going back now… guess we’ll just share…”, she said approaching him.

Violet went next to Alex and placed the bowl and the bread on the railing in front of them and looked up. The night was clear and the sky full of stars.

“It’s beautiful, isn’t it?”, she said.

“The most beautiful I have ever seen.”, he said.

“That’s a bi-“, Violet paused as she turned towards him.

He was directly staring at her. Violet’s heart began to beat faster. She began fiddling with a strand of her hair. Violet prepared herself mentally. She closed her eyes, breathed deep and opened her eyes again. Suddenly there was a knot in her stomach, because Alex expression had changed. He looked distressed and outright pained.

“What? What is wrong? Are you not feeling good?”, she asked worried.

“No... I… am sorry…”, he said slowly and quietly.

The knot in Violet’s gut got tighter, she began to breathe faster.

“You are sorry for what?”, she asked unsure.

“I fucked up… again…” he said, and Violet noticed a small tear leaving his left eye and vanishing into his beard.

“What do you mean? What’s wrong? Tell me! Please!”

“I did the one thing I shouldn’t have done.”

Violet shook her head in confusion.

“What shouldn’t you have done?”

“You did so much for me… you helped me when I came here… I honestly don’t know what I would have done without you… You even agreed to help me with my problems… You were always there for me, when I needed someone… You cheered me up when I was down…You... I am just so grateful to have gotten to know you… You mean so much to me… but I did it … again…”

Violet saw that he was struggling not to start crying.

“What did you do… again?” asked Violet dreading the answer somehow.

“I fell in love with the one person again that I should not have… The one person that I knew from the start that it was hopeless, but it didn’t stop me from getting my hopes up any ways… Unlike last time where I only knew it myself, that I had no chance… this time you even told me… multiple times that there would not be more between us… but I did it anyway.”

Violet looked even more confused.

“Wait… what did you just say? Who is it that you fell in love with?”

“It’s you, Violet! I fell in love with you… I love you… I know that you told me not to… but I just can’t do anything about it… I just… love you… I love the way you smile… I love your hair… I just love being near you… I love my new live with you here in this world… You asked me often if I ever think about going back… not anymore… I want to stay with you… forever.”

“What?... You love me?”

Violets were wide open, and thousands of thoughts rushed through her mind, all went so completely differently than she had planed and it threw her hard of her game.

“Yes, I love you… I want to be with you… I… I know you told me that you could not love anyone anymore, because of your… past… I get it… I just… You said you would not mind the physical aspect… I… I am okay with only getting that, if it means being with you… I … sorry... I must sound so desperate now… because I am… I just want to be with you… or at least get the chance… I don’t mind If I don’t receive the same back as I give… I take everything you want to give and be happy about it, not expectig more... I just… really… really would like to have a chance… Maybe something will change if we give it a try... If nothing comes from it… so be it… I had to give up without a chance the last time I felt this way for someone… I just can’t this time… Not without asking...or begging… I will grovel on the floor if you want me to… I’m at my breaking point here… I am sorry, this must all be so annoying and pathetic for you to hear…”

Alex voice cracked a few times. Violet stared at him desperately trying to process what he was talking about.

“You… are … so wrong, my dude…”, she began to stutter.

“Yes, I know I am wrong to have fallen in love with you… I just could not help myself… I’m sorry to do this to you… just… get it over with… please, just make it quick.”

Violet slapped herself with both hands.

“What is...”, asked Alex confused.

“Dude, I said you are wrong!”, said Violet clearly

“Yes, I kn-“

“No, you don’t! Shut the fuck up, I’m talking now! If you ever want to be with a woman you need to learn a very important thing… when to shut the fuck up and let her talk… this is one of the times where you just shut the fuck up, understood?”

Alex opened his mouth but quickly closed it after Violet glared at him.

“Good… now listen and listen careful! What’s wrong is not that you fall in love with me… it’s everything else… understand?”

No reaction.

“You can nod or shake your head you idiot!”

Alex nodded.

“So you understand what you are wrong about?”

Alex shook his head.

“Argh… well ok you see... I… look… sometimes you’re wrong with what you think, okay? Things change and then boom! Something is there that wasn’t there before… Am I making sense to you?”

Alex shook his head.

“Fuck…. Uhm okay let’s see… I… l…lo… shit… why is this so hard…”

Violet looked around trying to find the words somewhere. She looked at her bowl.

“Ah! Of course! I would really like to ask you If you want to be my Gulasch? You understand now, don’t you?”

Alex looked very confused at her and shook the head.

“Of course, not… of course not Violet… what are you thinking you stupid fucking girl… just fucking say it … it’s just one letter followed by four and then three…” thought Violet out aloud got frustrated with herself. She looked at Alex.

“Why are you not saying anything? I’m struggling here dude! Help a girl in need out!”

Alex looked very confused and stressed about what to do. Suddenly he paused. Slowly he raised his arm with the Bracelet and pointed at it.

“You are a fucking genius dude! Here I will show you what I mean… Brace yourself… this could be a bit much…”

Violet looked him deep into the eyes and opened up. She showed him everything, just everything. Violet opened the gates fully and let every feeling… every fear… every joy… just everything that she is was flowing out to him and she showed her one and only love that she held deep inside her heart. Violet felt like a big dam opened. First there were just some splashes, but it grew quickly in intensity. Then everything that she felt got swept away and there only was her love remaining that emanated from her bracelet. Her love for one person only. Her love for Alex.

“Do… you understand now?”, she asked cautiously

She felt so vulnerable right now. Alex slowly shook his head. Violet eyes grew big, and a flame seemed to be lit suddenly.

“Oh, you fucking dense log of a man… Fine, I’ll show you! Just don’t complain later that it wasn’t what you envisioned!”

Violet grabbed Alex by his beard and pulled him close to her. Since she was a bit taller than him in her heeled shoes, his face was a bit tilted up as she placed her lips upon his and gave him a kiss. Just the lips nothing more and nothing special… but it was the first lips of a woman, or rather anyone, that had ever touched his. Tears began streaming out of his eyes. Violet pulled back from him and glared into his teary eyes.

“Now you understand?”

Alex shook his head vehemently in tears.

“What? How?”

Alex shook his head again.”

“Fucking talk already, you can talk again! I’ll allow it!”

“I didn’t get that part before… could you repeat that again?” asked Alex.

His face was in tears which made is try for a joke a bit absurd. Violet looked at him in disbelief.

“You… You are in tears and try to be cheeky, huh? Well okay if you want it repeated, I will repeat it thoroughly and with something extra!”

She pulled him in again and kissed him again but this time with everything she got. They continued their imitation of a dance now inside of Alex mouth. It took a while until one of them pulled back. Both were in no rush whatsoever.

“Now you have to understand, right?”, said Violet and glared at Alex.

He wiped his tears away with one of his braids.

“Yes… but… can you tell me in words too? I love you.”, he with a slightly hoarse voice.

Violet looked at him and breathed deep.

“Okay… I… love… y-MHMHM…. Mmh!”

She could not finish the sentence because this time Alex kissed her. And he placed his arms around her. She had her right hand still on of his beard braids. The other she swung around his neck. He griped her tight, but not painful and hoisted her up a bit. Violet right foot unconsciously went up and her knee bent. It took what felt an eternity until Alex let go of her again. But Violet did not mind at all. Out of breath she gasped for some air.

“Damn… at least… let me finish… the damn sentence… you big smiling Idiot!”, she said and hit him playfully on the shoulder.

“I love you.”, she added, this time uninterrupted.

He hugged her really tight.

“And what do we do now?”, whispered Violet, still in his arms.

“Oh… I have some Ideas…”, said Alex and his Bracelet began to glow.

Violet pushed away from him and looked really astonished. She opened her mouth and closed it again. Alex saw her face taking the color of her hair for the first time. Her ears had blended together with its surrounding long ago. She began to giggle.

“Oh… damn… the old gnomes don’t hold a candle to you, I see… I…yeah… I think I would like that.”, she said and gave him the biggest smile ever.

She kissed him again and then took him by the hand. Together and hand in hand they slunk away from the party.

In this night something somewhere erupted for the first time after laying dormant for so long.

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