WATASHI NO SENTAKU/MY CHOICE

"Days.
They elapse away and i find myself becoming immersed in this life.Watching a war that i had only read about come even more to life as i watch from the home of a loyal follower to Saigo Takamori,the home of Tennami.

I watch as time elapses on and away that he finds me endlessly fascinating,Kiko watches me with strange eyes that i know not their meaning.

Further on time goes into a year here and i try to make sense of the dreams that plague me to the point sleep is never spared for me,nor to The Warrior Noroi.

The few times he remains here before Saigo-san sends him away on missions,i watch him train in a quiet garden not far from here,i watch him now as i write these words.It is raining heavily and i have learned to not even  dare to try to stop him from it.
He once told me after my persistent begging the reason.

"What do you hear out here?What do you feel?"
I could not reply to him,I only looked in his eyes,eyes that only recently began to soften towards me,even though often enough if I happen by him as he sleeps or wakes he will unconsciously beg me not to leave,not to die again.

I would often during these times try to sneak away,find manuscripts detailing the training of Nakano Takeko but I find myself unable to shed the blood that calls to me,that I can manipulate.

Lastly,I wonder what has become of my father?
Hana?
Is my life over in the present,a standstill?
I tire of these thoughts swirling around me.I want to take action,to help Noroi win the war,stop the constant blood cries I hear day in and day out as the battles worsen,I know it is nearing it final times but living it,seeing it.

Terrible,let no soul tell you it is glorious,ask the blood that calls out wishing they had been home,not taken the sword and those that wished the sword wish that the faces they slew would not follow them beyond the field of battle.

I want to live,I Sakura Sanada,must try.

My heart refuses to leave this spot anyway,I still watch The Warrior,a man called Noroi for reasons I can only guess now and find myself falling in love with him,even the movements are like a dance that wants to free not slay.

Tennami watches me from the rooms doorway,Kiko stares on at the garden towards  Noroi,slowly realizing that what she feels is not reciprocated and defying it.

I simply don't know what to do but it I can't sit idly by now,I was frightened when I first came to this time one year ago but now I am learning,adapting.

I must survive,I need them to do so.
I need him.
The blade that has a shadow I thought was darkness but instead seems to be only a withering facade.

It all ends soon for us here,for good or bad.
The blood calls,I want to free it."


EPILOGUE.
"You are perfect.My lovely princess.
You will have the warrior you have dreamed of,a life you had hoped for as I promised.
I poured so much of my heart and my will in that carving just for you I my lovely granddaughter.
Simply ensure one event occurs and you will no longer relive and redo your life again.
On what remains of my honor my darling princess."

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