Sympathism Act I

Sometimes we believe we are the protagonist of our own stories, sometimes we think that when everything is going well we are the luckiest person in the world, congruent happinesses are a consequence of how we react to something inevitable.

But what if all the options we have lead to an empty, dark path?After Lana told me about having to use my family's name to get into Bukingham Palace to get information about some kind of evil master villain who rules the entire London mob I really thought about running out the door and not caring about anything, but something crossed my mind... a thought that is a little peculiar to everyone.

"Would dying alone be a bad thing?!"
Yes, I thought of running out that door, even though I knew that my life would become like that of a rat that hides in the sewer so as not to be killed by superior beings and eat scraps to survive and all the while knowing that I would have no one I could trust, the people I thought I could trust like the kids at school who claimed to be my friends, were all gone without even looking back, I really hate them and I don't want many others to go through these feelings, Humiliation, hatred, repulsion, and all of this happens because of those who exude luxury and glamour, I will prove to all these people that I will never need them to get what I want, I cogitated all my values and thought about what Lana had said to me "What was hatred and repulsion became anger and general discrimination. Not all people are monsters, selfish and soulless who only think of themselves, so I found people I can count on.

Em tom alto eu falei para Lana com um olhar determinado a acabar com a mafia de Sisifo "Então está bem!, eu irei entrar dentro daquele palácio"

"That was a nice choice Johnny" I heard Lana say with a proud smile on her face

"But don't think for a second that we're the good guys, after all, now you're a mobster you'll often receive orders to kill or to rob, so don't let it get into your head that we're doing it for some righteous cause or something, justice is relative, we're just protecting our territory." Those words that came to me in a proud tone now are of intimidation as if they had been engraved in my mind.

"Anyway...we'll send you to John to tell him we have a golden-wooled sheep come in to help us" as she spoke, Lana headed toward the scarlet carpeted stairs, while Leonard was drying wine glasses.

I thought to myself "I guess this is where my journey begins, so I'll make it count!" After saying that I close my eyes and open a wide smile.

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2 weeks later, Lana managed to talk to John to introduce the new member of the Zagred mafia, consequently I had to enter this by my own conquests, Entering that metal door with the flashing light I began to feel slight chills and cold in the belly, I did not know what fate had in store for me, never in my life I imagined I would be in a situation like this.Going down the stairs I feel the air more and more cold, a wooden staircase and pareBdes stone polished and damp, when I get there I meet two peculiar people, one was with a Japanese Kimono with red and white lines and another was wearing a dark over all with a mask with a cartoon smile.

"You must be the Golden Sheep who will be our little spy, aren't you!!!, my name is Freak Sanes and I am one of the Vice Commanders of Amongst the shadows this one next to me is called Henry Loyalty, he is just a weirdo who wears that mask" spoke Freak in a softer and slightly serious tone, while Henry stood still without saying anything, "My name is Johnn..." Before I finish my speech Lana covers my mouth with her hand wearing a silk glove.

"Quiet, here you only speak if you are allowed, you only give your opinion if you are asked, you breathe if you are allowed, understood?" Lana spoke directly looking into my eyes with a more intimidating and serious tone, I just nodded my head and kept my head down, so we went forward with the two vice captains in front of us and Lana and I behind, I walk with my head down and thoughtful, already Lana is with a serious look as if this was something of extreme importance. Arriving at the main hall I find several people of different ages and sizes.

"You are most welcome to our main lobby Young Greybarrial, here is the place where everything happens and everything is done, in this lobby you find people with dark and heavy pasts, everyone here in this lobby has gone through countless situations, many of them of death." I hear a background voice echoing throughout the dark lobby only being dimly lit by burning oil drums, within seconds I am tied up and thrown into a chair.

"Wait? WHAT'S GOING ON?! LANA?!"

"Calm down Young man" a somewhat muffled calm voice approaches from the darkness.

"My name is John Zagred, and yours?" John appears in front of me with a type of Japanese Katana with black details, John was wearing an elegant suit with gold shoulder details.

"Do you realize why you are here?"

".... I-I came to be part of... this group..." I speak in a slightly fearful tone because of John's intimidating pose

"Humm... I see, you are a boy who was humiliated by his own family, disowned his blood and now you are here wanting to join my mafia, and thus "save" Your fate so you can say you made some kind of "CHANGE" in London, correct?" John speaks in a more expository and thoughtful tone.

"I speak in a determined tone looking directly into John's eyes, but at the same instant John who was with a sarcastic and smiling face, changed to a face of disgust and regret, thus making John get up and go to one of the corners of the room, open a closet and pull out another sword like the one I was holding, so he comes back to me and unties me.

"What?" without understanding anything John throws the sword into my hands.

"Now draw your sword and point it at me"

"But wait for me nu-"

"I SENT IT NOW" John speaks in a loud and intimidating tone, at that moment I felt that those shivers and chills in my stomach were not of excitement or Anxiety... they were of Fear. So after I draw the Katana John came directly using the momentum of the feet to gain speed aiming directly at my neck, at the same moment of fear I crouch and let go.

"WAIT, WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS FOR? WHY, FOR WHAT REASON?!" without understanding anything I try to beg desperately.

"Who told you to drop the sword? Pick it up immediately" John said looking straight into my eyes, so I stand up and hold the sword with both hands

"Now protect yourself"

"What do you mean?" At the end of my speech John goes straight at me with his sword, but hitting me in my protection, with consecutive cuts.

"DO YOU REALLY THINK PEOPLE ARE ALL THE SAME NO MATTER THE SITUATION?!" John speaks in a serious and intimidating tone as he strikes my protection, in a strong cut with both hands John hits the base of my sword making it fly away and still using the centrifugal force he shakes and hits with a kick the base of my feet making me fall, then he quickly gets up and takes sword with and aims directly at my neck and defers the quick blow at me, but at the same time I thought to myself.

"What a horrible life I've had, surrounded by falsehoods and humiliations, I'll just die where I always had to be...on the dusty ground" I thought in a calm and reflective way, accepting my death fully, really an irony, live for everything and never conquered anything.

"You really are a ridiculous person Johnny" John speaks directly with a calm tone from before, as I open my eyes I see Zagred's blade near my neck and feel an immediate relief.

"Why didn't you kill me?" I speak in a saddened and somewhat whispered tone, at the same time John sheathes his sword.

"Johnny, you say that no one is better than anyone else even with the situations derived from social and personal classes, but if that is true then why did I beat you then?" at that moment I became restless and thoughtful, I realized that I am just an ignoramus who judges everything by his own point of view.

"There will always be people better than you Johnny, you'll never be equal to anyone, but the reality is the wrong one is the one who is better and squanders it and the one who has self-centeredness, you need to have the thought of a teacher Johnny, For knowing something don't feel superior for it, teach them to be better than you" John after saying this left the lobby, at the same time falls a black blazer with gold details on the shoulders along with an armband with a symbol of a rose dripping blood on a cross above the Tower of London.

"So I really joined the group" even though I didn't know my fate, I knew that at least, my story was already being recorded, Lana comes close to me and puts her hand on my head.

"Welcome to Amongst the shadows, Johnny" says Lana with a smile on her face.