Chapter 13 - My Rules, My Sanction

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And then, his voice comes—low, deliberate, “Most of all, you don’t belong to anyone else. Not anymore.”

The words cut straight through me. “More importantly, you’re staying here in the villa until I say you can go.”

“Yes… I understand, Master Asami.”

The moment the words leave me, my throat closes. My voice cracks like thin glass, and I drop my head, fists curling against my knees to keep myself from breaking down in front of him.

He says nothing. Not at first.

Just the razor-sharp clink of ice against crystal as he tips his glass. The silence burns worse than any anger. At least anger has edges I can see. Silence only stretches, coiled, waiting to snap.

I keep my head down, but I can feel it—the weight of his gaze, pressing, judging. Every second drags, heavy with his disappointment and my crushing shame over the vase I’d destroyed—the shame of failing him.

I had broken the vase—the last of his mother’s heirlooms. Even if I say sorry a thousand times, nothing will change; the shards scatter across the floor.

The sound of it breaking still rings in my ears, sharp and merciless. I’ve destroyed something irreplaceable… and maybe whatever fragile chance I had left of being seen as anything but a burden in his eyes.

The thought of Paige worries me. Sweet, fragile Paige. If his anger goes through her, she couldn’t even withstand his raised voice, much less the kind of fury that twists inside him now. She’d break under it, and it would be my fault.

I force myself to look up for a breath of a second. He lounges back in his chair, glass loose between his fingers. He looks carved out of stone, cold and untouchable. I catch it—the tiny twitch in his jaw—his grip tightens until his glass is empty.

“I told you before,” he says finally, voice low and even.

“When you’re under my roof, you follow my rules. When you disobey—when you betray that trust—someone pays for it.” he adds, too calm.

My stomach twists hard. Someone. He doesn’t have to say who. I shake my head fast, desperation cracking my voice.

“Don’t—don’t punish her. Please. She had nothing to do with this. Only me. It was me who broke the vase.”

His eyes narrow, the faintest flicker of amusement—or maybe cruelty—passing through them. He sets his glass down with a soft click and leans forward.

“Then take it,” he says softly.

“Take the punishment onto yourself. Accept my condition. Obey, and Paige remains unharmed. Defy me, and…” His fingers flatten against the table, tendons tightening.

“I won’t hesitate.”

The words wrap around me like chains, one after another, locking tight. My throat aches from holding back a sob. I have no choice. Obedience is the only shield I can offer Paige and whatever storm he holds inside.

For a moment I almost hesitate. Not because I doubt what he’d do, but because I know exactly what giving in means. Once I accept his condition, there will be no taking it back—my choice binds me to him in a way nothing else matters. And the worst part is how quickly I feel myself caving, as if I am already his.

I nod—one small, trembling surrender. I have given him control over me so easily, without fighting back—shame burns, but it is nothing compared to the dread of seeing Paige suffer because of the accident.

He catches my nod. His gaze lingers, absorbing every weakness. For a brief second, he closes his eyes, a flicker of genuine struggle—pain or deep regret—crossing his face. When they open again, they are sharper, darker, cutting into me like a blade.

“You understand me now,” he murmurs.

“You are mine. And as long as you are mine, no one else suffers for your mistakes.”

Too soft. Too final. These words sear straight through me, branding me in a place no one can see.

Silence presses in until it feels like weight on my chest. I can’t bear it another second. I grip the table edge and force myself upright. Pain shoots up my injured ankle, but pain is easier than silence.

“Master Asami…” My voice cracks. “I’ll be going now. I… I want to rest. Please.”

My words hang between us—small, pitiful. They are all I have left to offer him. Not an apology, not an excuse—just the need to retreat before I break entirely.

He doesn’t answer at first. His gaze traces me, unreadable. Then he stands, the shift of his weight commanding.

“Yes,” he says, clipped but not unkind. “You can. Let me help you.” His eyes flick to my ankle. “Be careful on the stairs.”

The bluntness should sting; instead it lands heavier, almost protective. I reach for the crutch and haul myself upright. Pain surges. Before I can steady myself, his hand brushes my elbow—firm, grounding.

“I’ve got you.”

I freeze at the contact. He doesn’t grip hard; just enough to steady me. His touch marks me all the same.

We move toward the stairs, slow steps, his presence steady beside me. Tears slip down, betraying me. I wipe fast, hoping he won’t notice.

Of course he does. He always notices. I see his jaw tighten, but he says nothing, though his hand never leaves my arm. The stairs rise steeply, and fear grips me. I falter. His grip shifts—firmer now, guiding.

“Lean on me,” he says, with no room for argument.

I obey, letting his strength take half my weight. My crutch taps softly on each step. My muscles scream, but with him there, I keep moving.

Halfway up, I risk a glance. His expression is carved tight—restrained, protective, weighted with something I can’t name. Like he is holding himself back with visible effort.

At the landing, I stumble. His arm wraps around my back instantly. His chest brushes my shoulder. For one dizzying second, I almost lean in.

Then I remember the vase. His anger. His threat. I pull away, heart pounding too fast. We reach my door.

I want to thank him—to say anything—yet my throat closes around the words. I bow my head instead.

Inside, I clutch the crutch like it is the only thing holding me together. When the door clicks shut, everything I’d held back collapses. Tears pour hot and merciless. My chest aches.

I can’t make sense of him—his demands, his threats, the chains he wraps around me with words that still echo through me. I can’t bear the thought that he might truly hate me now.

He lingers in the doorway. I feel his gaze even with my face buried in my hands. His silence presses in again, unwanted and suffocating.

Part of me wants him to leave. Part of me needs him to stay.

I sink onto the bed, exhausted. Tears spill fast the moment I sit. My breath breaks, my palms wet.

His words echo: Mine. My rules. My punishment.

Each syllable hooks beneath my ribs.

And shamefully, painfully—I regret how quickly I’d surrendered. I regret giving him power so openly, even though the blame was mine. The truth doesn’t matter. He’s already judged me. And still, I ache for his forgiveness.

I drop the crutch and let it clatter to the floor. My knees shake.

My pillow is damp when I finally pull it away from my face. My heart lurches. My breath shudders uselessly.

I think I locked the door. I thought I was alone—until the mattress dips. The click sounded too loud, too. He is inside? I hadn’t heard him come in.

“Asami—” I choke on his name. I turn my face toward the wall, wishing he’d leave me to fall apart alone.

But he doesn’t. The heat of him presses closer, his weight steady next to me. His hand brushes my wrist—gentle, not commanding.

“Look at me,” he says. Not quite an order, but close enough that I obey.

My eyes burn, swollen and red. His gaze pins me, sharp but wavering with something else beneath.

His fingers hover near my cheek—almost touching, almost wiping the tear tracks. The air between us thickens, humming with something I can’t bear to name.

For a heartbeat, I think he will close the distance. That he’ll forget his anger and pull me against him.

Then—he stops, his hand clenches into a fist, dropping to his knee. He shuts his eyes, as if reining himself back from a precipice.

When he opens them, the softness is gone. The silence between us roars louder than my sobs had.

“Get some rest,” he says. “You’ll need it.”

He rises and leaves, the door clicking shut behind him. The ghost of his almost-touch burns. The quiet settles in, but it doesn’t calm me.

Every nerve ending is static, waiting for him to settle the charge. This desire is a dangerous, secret flame burning me right now—that irresistible pull I can’t deny. The feeling of his ghost-touch is still running through me.

Then, suddenly, the sound of a footstep right outside the door frame.

A wave of emotion spikes, mixing with a deep tremor.

And the knob begins to turn.

To be continued…