MITSUKETE KUDASAI/PLEASE FIND ME

SAKURA

My mind seems to be set at ease.
If only but for a moment.
Memories flood into my mind quickly,of times I went down each path,the good and the bad of each one but the more I recall the more I see this is my,
Our,
Only choice.

"Poor little loves...."The heart in my chest pounds like it could simply explode from the sudden pressure from seeing the memory I had not fully understood before.
The lives of my son,grandson,great-grand son.I watched there lives unfold and devolve over and over jumping from life to life to fix what evil has been done,all because I am just like the villain of my story.
I want it all.
Life isn't mine to manipulate,I never caught ion to that in each life I lived,nor did I catch onto the fact until the last life and this one who has done this.
Why though?
"Why grandmother?I have adored you in every time and under no restraint at all.Thick as thieves.Why would you do such to lives,To the world.To me?"

NOROI
THREE MONTHS LATER

The battles are becoming fewer but increasingly more are dying under Takanori-Sama than ever before.
I am feeling more frightened than I ever have and being frightened is something I must be wary of,I can't focus on anything else but trying to find her,Itoshi-Hito,and to fight the battles I am bid to for Takanori-Sama.
I can't really seem to find her though,I sense her often.

Falling petals that seem to land only on my fingertips or the tip of my nose as she would put them when I would be sleeping during the one spring we would be  not enough often together.
Other times.
I hear a raven cry far above me,flying circles over my head and making quick dives to force me left or right away from the path I had been hinted on of as sighting of her.Tonight I have no other objectives keeping me here,so I ride out trying something I had not in so long I may be failing on how to do this but I pray as I had seen her do so,I very rarely and listen.
The wind,falling leaves,distantly breathing of animals but all I feel is cold wind bringing the early fall,all I see is a moonlight that seems to be near blinding and no one in sight that has chestnut hair and soft eyes,
No sight of a gently smiling face or entrancing figure.
Nothing.

SAKURA
 
What are you doing?
I watch him,he rides slowly keeping his eyes closed and the reins loose in his hands and I find myself entranced honestly.
Like every single time I remember even more vividly,just like every time I wind up being his short term happy place until I become the reason for his premature death,unlike his original life where he lived a long life,that I know now from being stuck here for three months but now...
He is here.
Noroi is finally here and I can't reach him,he can't see me but he is here at least.
Here.
The petals must have worked,I watched him each time he got close enough to this place and If I lead,he followed but never this close before.

"Noroi....."
My words are whisper soft,I feel so lost and I thought this would be my answered prayer and now it seems like I can't reach him,maybe I should not have even tried to reach out at all.
"Noroi?Please,I can not stay here any longer.If I remain here everything will reset and I don't think the next  time I will realize what has been done,what will be done.I watched my babies die my love!All of them!I can not.....can not.....Noroi....."
I am praying to GOD in my heart,hoping my voice will echo out of this plane.

"Thank you GOD....."I see my love turn to me,to my voice and I can not express how happy I am until what I see next.
"NOROI!"
Arrow after arrow is shot at him in a wide arc.
At least three hit his chest and two manage to reach much higher.
The ground is met with a hard thud and I can't even see him move.