Chapter 5:
My Love Language Is Emotional Damage (Volume 1)
Chapter 4.2 : The Mirror Cracks
“The most dangerous cage is the one you decorate yourself.” – Adam
What’s wrong with me?
She barely heard the teacher droning on about chemical reactions. Ellie was beside her, whispering something about club registration. The usual routine. The same old rhythm.
But her world had tilted off its axis. She couldn’t walk straight anymore.They sat under their usual tree in the courtyard. Students buzzed past, eating, laughing, tossing balls across the field. But Ellie was unusually quiet. She opened her bento, picked at her rice, and watched Akane like she was decoding a riddle that didn’t want solving.
Finally, she slammed her chopsticks down
“Akane. I’m not stupid. What the hell’s going on between you and Adam?”.
Akane stiffened. Her grip faltered.
“I… I don’t know,” she said, barely above a whisper. “It’s… complicated.”
Ellie leaned in, her voice sharp. “Complicated is when you forget someone’s birthday. This? This is something else. He bit you, Akane. Like some goddamn animal.”
Akane looked down. Her rice felt like gravel in her mouth.
“I didn’t say I liked it,” she whispered
“But you didn’t stop him either,” Ellie said, not cruelly , just plainly
That silence between them spoke louder than anything. Birds chirped in the distance. The wind rustled the sakura blossoms
And Akane knew she couldn’t explain it. Not in words. Not even to herself.
…
Meanwhile, Riku was unraveling in his own silence
He sat at the back corner of the cafeteria, alone, stirring his miso soup until it went cold. His friends noticed the shift, the way he stopped laughing at their jokes, how his jaw clenched every time someone mentioned Akane’s name. But none of them dared bring it up.
That afternoon, after school, he walked out to the vending machines. The same spot where Adam had kissed her
The memory was carved into the ground.
He stood there, staring at the concrete, fists balled in his pockets. “You hesitated,” a voice inside him sneered. “And he didn’t.”He watched it again. Adam’s smirk. Akane’s frozen expression. Adam’s lips moving
He turned the volume up, back, up again
“She’s already mine,” Adam whispered.
Riku froze.
The words were toxic, but what chilled him more… was Akane’s expression. She didn’t recoil. She didn’t runShe ran her fingers along the fracture.
Her reflection blinked back at her, the same eyes, but not the same girl
“I don’t even know who I am anymore.”
The room was filled with the faint hum of her desk fan. Outside, cicadas screamed from the trees
She remembered Riku’s confession. How simple it had felt. Pure. Predictable. Like a soft blanket she could wrap around herself.
And then she remembered him
Adam.
The chaos. The fire behind his eyes. The bite. The possessiveness. The way he looked at the world like it had betrayed him and he’d decided to betray it back.
“I should hate him,” she whispered
But hate… hate was just love with knives
And obsession was already coiling inside her chest like smoke
She lifted the mirror, stared harder
“This isn’t who I was,” she said.And in the silence that followed, the version of herself staring back didn’t look afraid.
She looked like someone who had begun to crack, and didn’t mind the breaking
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