Confession and The Rules

It took a bit of convincing to make this happen but I was able to do it.
I had to mentally sword fight myself to pull away to be honest,had to force my brain to think a little before anything else is said now.

Barely convincing Kenshin to be anywhere but within arms length was a bit of a challenge but I did it.

Again,just barely.

Now I am standing a few arms distance away from Kenshin as he simply sits on a desk watching me like Cookie when I have a treat that he has waited all day for.
(They really are so much alike somehow to me.His eyes are just remaining constant on mine and unashamedly on more than my eyes but my lips too.That alone I am trying to make myself calm a bit about if that is even possible at all.)

Honestly it is so adorable to see that look on his face but I need to calm down,so does he.
He did just skip some major date time by going after my lips in zero time after confession.

"Okay...okay well-um...we need to talk.I mean we ACTUALLY need to talk.Okay?"

Kenshin has eyes just remaining happily on me,he nods simply making the slight waves of his lengthening hair to fall a little in his eyes which I take quick notice of and he smirks the worse for it."Would you please tone down the flirty for all of five seconds!Please?"

"Try but will fail Lovely Wordsmith."

Kenshin puts on a air quickly of a somber old man with nothing except a world to worry about and frankly it is so comical I can not keep the straight face I had been faking since he kissed me less than five minutes ago.

I still can not believe HE kissed ME less than five minutes ago.

How can he do this?

"Stop smirking like you can read my mind you goopy -eyed -flirting -machine!"
"It means I must have guessed right when I smirked again at just the moment you thought back on what just happened."

I like this,this feeling that I can freely talk to him instead of feeling so strange but my brain wants to return a bit now and he feels the sudden change in my manner.How I become a bit more somber as I walk near to him and sit on top of the desk opposite to him.Somehow looking in the eyes this walking heart attack before me who is now only slightly so more serious and curious over my quick mood change.

"This really scares me,Ito.I have been hiding for two years because of one event that changed my life,my present and future.Being with me is a risk to you and your family,a loss of privacy to me and mine.Let alone we do not really know each other at all.We met briefly as kids and only a few days now.So...?"
"So?"

I see Kenshin ask me,he doesn't seem in the slightest put off by my words.I honestly wonder if I should tell him it all now,full disclosure early on to be fair.

"That event is not for me to hear right now,I do not look at whatever happened that day as you,that is a part of you but I do not want to have you feel like you need to be half you with me.My family has its own darkness and past as any other,it would be a lie to say my family has nothing but goodness in it when all families have this or that as a public issue.Your family will have to decide like you have to take public life or not,I never had the option of that so I wouldn't know the feeling of that choice so I wouldn't dream of taking that at all."
"But about knowing each other?Do you truly believe you do not know me?I on the other hand,I believe you are one of four that actually know me at all,one of which is the only bond I felt on sight and haven't felt since nor wish to with anyone else."

Thump.
Thump,thump...

"I am not the sort that would never play you,if you truly like me,truly wish to be with me then I accept more than happily and quickly.I will not be seen or in the arms of another so long as you tell me I am yours.I am sorry for rushing you in such a manner,I have waited for you a longer time than I suppose you would be aware of so I took my joy a bit too early in kissing you though I do not regret it at all.Like kissing candy to me.But if you need a assurance that is all I can offer and any protection I can in the eyes of the public but I can not speak for you to them.Your life has to be in your words to survive in this world Lovely."

His words are turning my heart to a puddle,he means it I can see it in his eyes and even the slight nervous hand crack he begins to do when he says something from his heart(I caught onto that when he told my Uncle how much the time he spent at  the arcade meant to him,the friendly advice and escape there made him feel safe,normal.)
My eyes briefly turn to look outside to see the sun beginning to set,we were here this long?

It only seemed like minutes to me,I reach to pull out my phone and remember it got stolen over the weekend.
"I texted your Uncle already so do not worry.He has you covered."

Kenshin speaks softly,attention not so much wavering as mine.His boldness gives him more confidence than I.
I am only confident on paper writing my warriors,my love sick but unshakeable heroines.

In real life I feel like a coward,and frankly this almost seems wrong after what I took away from this world.
Kenshin reaches just slightly forward,palm out to take my hand and I eye that hand for long and longer moments until I abruptly rise from my desk,loudly enough even Kenshin startled a bit.

"If this is going to happen,'This'"
I point between he and I twice for emphasis,the puppy expression returns to his face.His body language relaxed and enjoying my quick turn of mood.

"If this is going to happen there must be rules.RULES!!."

Kenshins eyes quirk up but he listens intently as I list them with each finger:

"1:
No trying to kiss me before a date!Please I am not that calm of a person to-to deal with all...that so early."

The smile that he had just then,
I toss my make up bag at his face to stop distracting me which fails miserably.

"2:
I am a lady,no touchy anywhere uncovered.Rings required for that.Understood?"

His eyes just keep looking like mischievous orbs,
There goes another object at him but he dodges artfully even I admit it.

"3:
Don't....don't cheat on me if we really,if we become...just please don't.Okay?If someone appears in your heart and you can not feel or see me there anymore.Let me go.I can not take anymore games."

Kenshin turns his head slightly like he is baffled over who or why,the who and why I am not ready to dive into yet although this school knows my family history so I am at a loss as to how he doesn't know already.

"4:
My family,my writing and my dog are a package deal.No one then not all for me."

"Anything else to add?"
Kenshin asks like he does not have to think at all.

I do a moment.

"No roses either.I think it is too cliche."

"Agreed.It is a deal except I have a few rules of my own."

I shudder exaggeratedly.

"1:
No I will not kiss you again until we have had a proper date but after I will readily require your doctors care level of treatment because I really like the reality of your affection.
2:
I am a gentleman,marriage yes but do not think I will not have my arms around you or ponder that chin or neck will be avoided because unless I get a no from you ,I will certainly enjoy what is acceptable by you to have.
3:
I need you to hold my heart,I can not care for the thing and I do not like it.If you want me then be honest with me,cherish my heart and it will be yours but as you have requested of me I request of you.Do not cheat on me either.If I do not have your heart then end us,It is not fair to play at all,ever.
And lastly....."

Kenshin nears me,puts his mouth much,much to close to my ear for my thudding heart to stay calm with and adds before leaving the room and handing me a small stack of pretty paper and pens to match.

"I have all intentions to win your heart for life,if that scares you then give me your word now.If not then tomorrow i will begin to set in motion a chain of events hopefully leading to the wooing of Yukihana Mori."