Perceptions of a first night together.Trio.

The feeling that comes over me when I finally make my snails pace walk into the living room is akin to food poisoning.

The meal was fantastic but the reality of being so full of that good meal has me sick,so sick I am afraid I will make a mess of this evening before I get a chance to really enjoy it.
I am just before the room now and peeking in,my eyes scan my dress for any issue and my hands flatten out nothing but nervous energy on my sides.

Don't even ask how my stomach feels yet,
The moment I am close enough to see, but not be seen ,is something else altogether.
Like finally being able to walk outside on the most beautiful day of spring after a harsh and biting winter.

I can not take my eyes off of him.
Kenshin is smiling from one ear to the other,I do not sense any of the fear I am swallowing down in his manners at all,he just seems to just know somehow what I am still trying to understand in myself,this feeling.
I see he is wearing very dark blue trousers,fitted to him like a glove with a very light blue button down shirt that he has the sleeves rolled to his forearm,that villain caught me noticing those very forearms the other day after he finished the demonstration.I smirk as I catch onto the fact that he feels the desire to pull out all the stops for someone like me.
Even the vest he is wearing is solid black but has little blue snowflakes and flowers embroidered on it.
My namesake.

"Are you finally going to showstop us Yuki or am I going to have to pull you in here myself to knock the socks off the boys?"

Kaoru laughingly challenges me into the living room and I I walk in not hiding the narrow expression of future revenge heading her way for this but that feeling certainly melts when I see how Kenshin views me.

If hearts were actually eyes I think that is the closest thing to the best description I could offer,saying this as a writer kind of hurts but there really is no words else to me that fits.
The second he caught sight of me I felt every single thread,all locks of hair,my eyes and my lips,my form.

Not a sight unnoticed nor unappreciated given that he has the most gentle expression on his face,the smile turned from so playful and jovial with my Uncle to one so much more tender.

"As I have said before,I repeat again.Never is a sight more beautiful."

KENSHIN

I can not believe it.

Over a decade of waiting and watching her from across the arcade ,afraid she would pound me for telling her 'Hello' or 'I have loved you since you laughed at me the day I laid eyes on you and haven't let that sound escape my memory'.

Finally she is here,with me in the same car and not having the expression of someone trying to ascertain whether or not she should pound me for flirting with her and calling her to join me at the park.
I was so nervous I devoured the chicken with gusto that day.

Now though,I am driving my dads car(I still can not believe he let me borrow his vintage german car that grandfather gave him for his sixteenth birthday)and am able to actually view her safely,with no cameras in sight,no other family or so-called friends to interrupt.

It is just us for one of only a few times and I will drink it like a fine tea.

I can not get over how gorgeous she is.
When she wears her uniform,hair pulled back and barely any makeup it is enough to make me wish I could grab a hold of her somewhere private and kiss her until she is giggling in my arms and now she is beside me wearing a soft fabric green dress that is slightly fitted but flows from the knees down,her hair is long to her thighs,waving in the wind from the car window being open.

The make up is light but the lipstick is like peach color and with it the smell of peaches mixing with her perfume the scent like flowers I think she may be trying to kill me or make me less of a gentleman but on my honor,I will not have what she will not give.

I love her too much for any less.

The fact also didn't escape me, is that she thought I had no idea she was staring at me from the room edge,that alone gave me 'More than a dollar worth of courage!',As a friend of Grandfathers would often tell me after he would return from America with treats for me and news for Grandfather.

It is almost to the place where I intend to begin my most heartfelt wooing,for now though I have five more minutes of time I intentionally added on to the drive because she is quietly singing "When did heaven get so close to me" and thinks I can not hear it.

I want to keep hearing it.
I want to hear and have more.

As much as I can get.

ARATA

"Maybe she is right.Maybe I really am just not for her or her future.You better do what you said you would Ito,if she cries over you that will be all for me.I can not watch her cry like she did the night her parents left again.I just hate I was too much a coward to comfort her that night,Lying to her that I had already left was a joke.....ugh."

I watched them as Ito drove her away.
Yukihana was like looking at a star she was so brilliantly beautiful.
Just,
Not my star.

I catch sight of Uncle Goji,he still lets me call him that,he steps down and towards me.I am leaning on the same bridge ramp I always do to just enjoy what little of Yukihana I can now,little it has always been to me.
Never enough.

"You are so lost now Arata,I wish I could help you but I myself feel it too.I always thought it would be you and her,the writer and the chef.But,her heart landed with his,he is a decent young man even in the spotlight of a prestigious dojo and a conglomerate future too.Maybe you should look at things like that,maybe try to let go so that you can soon have something to hold onto else than her?She will be safe with him,I knew it when he was little and could do nothing but rave on about his hopes and decade long plan to win her.Be brave boy,You have a future of your own that I think will shine just as much as she did tonight."

Part of me wants to rage at his words,yell that is isn't fair and that it should have been me like even he thought for sure it would be but,

I am tired of it.
Wanting and failing.

Just tired of it and I simply nod to him,turning away until I catch sight of a young woman rushing towards me.

She kisses me.
My knees buckle and my brain feels out of sorts.

"What just...?"

Even Uncle Goji is staring after her,stunned as I am.
More stunning also is that.

I know that taste,I snuck a kiss from those very lips a long time ago when I was only seven at a birthday party but it couldn't be her could it?

I just watched her drive away but that peach taste,it is only ever been on the lips of one girl I ever knew.

"Did you run off without Ito?"