Chapter 22:

The Forsaken Road Returns

Blood in Petal




They found a clearing by mid-afternoon—a natural amphitheater formed by ancient stones arranged in a circle, worn smooth by centuries of weather. The priest recognized it immediately.
"A judgment ground. Places like this were used for trials in the old days—criminals would stand in the center while the community decided their fate." He ran his hand along one of the stones, feeling the grooves carved into its surface. "These markings are prayers. Pleas for wisdom, for justice, for mercy."
"Fitting," Ayame said, moving to stand in the circle's center. "Considering what's coming."
The sun was descending toward the horizon, painting the sky in shades of crimson and gold. They had perhaps two hours until moonrise, when the Serpent would return to administer the trial of Wrath.
Haruto settled against one of the stones, his arm still aching but no longer infected. The herbs from the Forsaken Shrine had worked their medicine, though he remained weak. Beside him, Kiku sat cross-legged, her small hands folded in her lap, the demon essence inside her pulsing in rhythm with her heartbeat.
"I've been thinking," she said quietly, "about what the Serpent said. That we'd face what we've wrought. That pride wasn't about believing we're strong, but about accepting consequences." She looked at Ayame. "What did your wrath wrought? What consequences are you going to face?"
Ayame was silent for a long moment, staring at her hands. "Everything. The corruption of Kagura-no-Sato. The suffering of fifty maidens over four hundred years. The transformation of innocent villagers into demons. The creation of the Crimson Lilim." She looked up at the darkening sky. "My rage infected everything it touched. Made the seal imperfect. Made every renewal more painful than it should have been. My wrath is the foundation of four centuries of suffering."
"But that wrath came from somewhere," Shinjiro said. He was standing guard at the circle's edge, blade ready despite his exhaustion. "You didn't become angry for no reason. The priests sealed you, yes, but they did it to stop a war. You were destroying provinces, killing thousands—"
"To save my own province," Ayame interrupted. "To protect my people from invaders who would have slaughtered them all. The demon power I took, the transformation I underwent—it was all to be strong enough to defend those who couldn't defend themselves."
"So your wrath was justified?" the priest asked.
"At first, maybe. Self-defense, protection of the innocent—those are acceptable reasons for violence. But somewhere along the way, my anger stopped being about protection and became about punishment. About making those who'd wronged me suffer. About revenge instead of justice." Her voice dropped. "That's when I truly became monstrous. When my wrath consumed my purpose."
The sun touched the horizon, bleeding red light across the clearing. They could all feel it now—that familiar pressure building, the sense of reality bending to accommodate something vast and ancient.
"It's time," Kiku whispered.
The Serpent of Eight Sins materialized from shadows that shouldn't exist, its massive form coiling around the circle of stones. The eight heads swayed in unison, studying Ayame with different-colored eyes that burned with divine judgment.
*"THE THIRD TRIAL BEGINS,"* they spoke as one. *"THE SIN OF WRATH. AYAME, FORMER DEMON QUEEN. YOU WHOSE RAGE CORRUPTED A SEAL THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN PURE. YOU WHOSE ANGER ECHOED THROUGH FOUR HUNDRED YEARS OF SUFFERING."*
The head showing rage moved forward, its red eyes blazing. *"YOU CLAIM TO BE REDEEMED. CLAIM TO HAVE SEPARATED FROM YOUR DEMON ESSENCE. CLAIM TO BE HUMAN AGAIN. BUT RAGE IS NOT DEMON—IT IS MORTAL. IT IS THE MOST HUMAN EMOTION, THE ONE THAT SURVIVES EVEN TRANSFORMATION."*
"I know," Ayame said steadily. "My anger didn't come from becoming demon. It came from being human. From watching my people suffer, from being sealed away, from four hundred years of isolation and pain. The demon essence amplified it, but the rage was always mine."
*"CORRECT. WHICH IS WHY THIS TRIAL IS UNIQUE."* The serpent's body began to glow, scales lighting up in sequence. *"FOR THE TRIAL OF DESPAIR, THE GUARDIAN FACED ANOTHER'S BURDEN. FOR THE TRIAL OF PRIDE, ALL FACED CONSEQUENCES TOGETHER. BUT FOR THE TRIAL OF WRATH—"*
All eight heads turned to look at Haruto, Shinjiro, the priest, and Kiku.
*"—YOU WILL FACE HERS. EACH OF YOU WILL EXPERIENCE THE RAGE THAT DEFINED THE DEMON QUEEN. WILL FEEL WHAT SHE FELT. WILL UNDERSTAND WHY HER WRATH CONSUMED EVERYTHING."*
"Wait—" Haruto started, but it was too late.
Darkness crashed over him like a wave, and suddenly he wasn't in the clearing anymore.
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He was in Ayame's province, four hundred years in the past. The plague had just begun—he could smell the rot in the air, could hear children crying from hunger, could see bodies piling up in the streets because there weren't enough living to bury the dead.
And he was Ayame. Or rather, he was experiencing what she'd experienced, feeling what she'd felt.
The rage was immediate and overwhelming.
Not at the plague—that was just misfortune, cruel but impersonal. The rage was at the empire. At the emperor who'd been sent message after message begging for aid, for supplies, for anything, and who'd responded with silence. At the nobles who'd promised help and delivered nothing. At the merchants who'd quadrupled their prices, profiting from desperation.
At a system that could watch thousands die and call it acceptable losses.
The rage burned in Haruto's chest like swallowed fire, demanding action, demanding justice, demanding someone pay for this senseless suffering.
*This is what she felt,* he understood. *This is why she sought the demon's power.*
Then the scene shifted. He was standing over a battlefield, demon-transformed, her power finally sufficient to protect her province. The invaders were fleeing, their army broken, their general dead by her hand.
Victory should have felt good.
Instead, there was only more rage. Because the invaders had come in the first place. Because they'd thought her province weak, ripe for conquest. Because even now, even with demon power, she was still seen as lesser.
The rage demanded she pursue them. Make an example. Show the world that her people were not to be trifled with.
And she did.
Haruto watched through Ayame's eyes as she hunted the fleeing soldiers, showing no mercy, leaving no survivors. The rage justified everything—they would have killed your people, it whispered. They would have raped and pillaged and burned. This is justice. This is necessary.
But somewhere in the slaughter, justice became revenge. Necessity became cruelty.
And the demon essence, fed by that rage, grew stronger.
The scene shifted again. The sealing. Fifty maidens chanting, a thousand warriors surrounding her, Kenji standing with his sword trembling in his hands.
The rage was incandescent now. How dare they? How DARE they? She'd saved her province, protected her people, and this was her reward? Imprisonment? Eternal suffering?
*LET ME OUT,* the rage screamed. *LET ME OUT SO I CAN MAKE THEM PAY. SO I CAN SHOW THEM WHAT TRUE SUFFERING MEANS.*
And even as the seal closed, even as her consciousness was trapped in darkness, the rage remained. Growing. Festering. Spreading corruption through the prison itself because anger that intense couldn't be contained—it infected everything it touched.
Four hundred years of rage.
Four hundred years of fantasizing about revenge, about freedom, about making everyone who'd wronged her suffer as she'd suffered.
Haruto felt all of it. The weight of that anger, the way it consumed every other emotion, the way it became identity itself.
And he understood why the seal had been imperfect. Why it had leaked corruption for centuries. Because Ayame's rage had been so absolute, so overwhelming, that even divine containment couldn't fully hold it.
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He came back to himself gasping, tears streaming down his face. Beside him, Shinjiro had collapsed to his knees, his face twisted in agony. The priest was weeping openly, and Kiku—
Kiku was on fire.
Not literal flames, but the demon essence inside her had ignited, responding to the rage it had just been forced to witness. Her small form was wreathed in crimson light, and her eyes—her eyes burned with inhuman fury.
"Kiku!" Haruto tried to reach for her, but she flinched away.
"DON'T!" Her voice was layered now, carrying echoes of the demon queen. "I can feel it. The rage. It's trying to consume me, trying to make me into what mother was. I need—I need—"
She was fighting it. Haruto could see the struggle playing out across her face—human emotions warring with demonic fury, love battling wrath, the child she'd chosen to be fighting against the demon she'd been born from.
Ayame moved to her side, kneeling before the child-demon. "Look at me. Kiku, look at me."
Slowly, Kiku's burning eyes focused on Ayame.
"You're feeling what I felt. All that rage, all that justified anger that turned poisonous." Ayame's voice was gentle but firm. "And you need to know something—it's real. That rage is valid. The injustice that created it was real. You're not wrong to feel angry."
"Then why—" Kiku's voice broke. "Why does it hurt so much? Why does it feel like it's destroying me?"
"Because rage without direction is just destruction. Anger without purpose is just pain." Ayame placed her hands on either side of Kiku's face, grounding her. "What you're feeling now—that's the cost of my wrath. That's what I inflicted on everyone around me for four hundred years. And you need to feel it, understand it, so you don't make my mistakes."
"How?" Kiku was shaking, the crimson light flickering. "How do I not become you?"
"By choosing what to do with the anger. I let mine consume me, let it become my identity. But anger is just information—it tells you something is wrong, something needs to change. What you do with that information is what defines you."
The Serpent's eight heads were watching intently, evaluating.
"The empire wronged me," Ayame continued. "The invaders threatened my people. The priests sealed me away. All of that generated legitimate rage. But I used that anger to justify atrocity. Used it as an excuse to stop seeing my enemies as human. That's when wrath became sin."
Kiku's eyes were clearing slightly, the burning fury beginning to dim. "What should I have done? What should you have done?"
"Acknowledged the anger. Used it as fuel for change rather than destruction. Sought justice instead of revenge. Protected my people without dehumanizing my enemies." Ayame's voice was heavy with regret. "But I was young, frightened, and newly powerful. I thought rage made me strong. Took decades to realize it just made me alone."
The crimson light around Kiku guttered and died. She collapsed into Ayame's arms, sobbing—not from rage now, but from the weight of understanding. From experiencing four hundred years of anger and realizing how it had poisoned everything.
Haruto forced himself to stand, still shaking from the vision. Shinjiro and the priest joined him, all three moving to stand around Ayame and Kiku. Supporting them. Showing that they understood, that they'd felt the same rage, that they didn't judge.
The Serpent studied them all, then slowly nodded.
*"THE TRIAL OF WRATH IS NOT ABOUT PUNISHING ANGER,"* it said. *"ANGER IS HUMAN. NATURAL. SOMETIMES NECESSARY. THE TRIAL IS ABOUT UNDERSTANDING WHAT WRATH COSTS. WHAT IT TAKES FROM YOU AND EVERYONE AROUND YOU WHEN IT'S ALLOWED TO CONSUME RATHER THAN INFORM."*
The rage-head spoke alone now: *"YOU HAVE ALL FELT THE DEMON QUEEN'S ANGER. HAVE EXPERIENCED FOUR HUNDRED YEARS OF JUSTIFIED FURY THAT BECAME UNJUSTIFIED CRUELTY. AND YOU HAVE CHOSEN—TOGETHER—TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT WITHOUT BEING CONSUMED BY IT. THIS IS ADEQUATE."*
*"THE THIRD TRIAL IS COMPLETE,"* all eight heads spoke in unison. *"FIVE TRIALS REMAIN. WE WILL RETURN IN FOUR DAYS FOR THE TRIAL OF GREED. PREPARE YOURSELVES. THAT ONE WILL TEST WHETHER YOU CAN DISTINGUISH BETWEEN KEEPING AND HOARDING. BETWEEN PROTECTING AND POSSESSING."*
The Serpent began to fade, but before it disappeared completely, the serene head spoke one final warning:
*"THE TRIALS GROW HARDER. NOT IN INTENSITY, BUT IN SUBTLETY. DESPAIR WAS OBVIOUS. PRIDE WAS RECOGNIZABLE. WRATH WAS VISCERAL. BUT GREED IS INSIDIOUS. IT DISGUISES ITSELF AS RESPONSIBILITY, AS PROTECTION, AS LOVE. BE WARY OF WHAT YOU CLAIM TO CARRY FOR OTHERS' SAKE. THE LINE BETWEEN BURDEN AND POSSESSION IS THINNER THAN YOU THINK."*
Then it was gone, leaving them alone in the darkening clearing.
Kiku had stopped crying but remained in Ayame's arms, exhausted. "I'm sorry," she whispered. "I almost lost myself. Almost became—"
"But you didn't," Ayame said firmly. "You felt the rage, understood it, and chose not to let it define you. That's stronger than never feeling anger at all."
"Is it?" Kiku looked up at her. "Because I'm terrified, mother. The demon essence inside me carries so much rage, and I'm just a child. What if next time I can't fight it? What if I become what you were?"
"Then we'll stop you," Haruto said, and there was no judgment in his voice. "The same way we'd want you to stop us if we fell. That's what it means to carry this together—not that we're strong enough to never fail, but that we're not alone when we do."
They made camp in the circle of stones, too exhausted to travel further. As night deepened and stars appeared overhead, Haruto found himself thinking about the trial. About Ayame's rage and how justified it had been, at least initially.
"Can I ask you something?" he said to Ayame, who sat nearby feeding small sticks to their fire.
"Of course."
"Do you regret seeking the demon's power? If you could go back, knowing what would happen, would you still make that bargain?"
Ayame was quiet for a long moment. "That's complicated. Do I regret becoming a monster? Yes. Do I regret the suffering I caused? Absolutely. But do I regret trying to save my people?" She shook her head. "No. Even knowing the cost, even understanding what I'd become—if the only way to save thousands of lives was to damn my own soul, I'd make that trade again."
"That's either very noble or very broken."
"Probably both." She smiled sadly. "The Serpent said greed disguises itself as protection. I think wrath disguises itself as justice. And love—" she looked at Kiku, sleeping peacefully now, "—love disguises itself as sacrifice. All the sins are like that. They wear the faces of virtues until you look close enough to see the rot underneath."
"How do we tell the difference?"
"Intention, maybe. Or consequence. Or just... time. Sometimes you only know whether a choice was virtuous or sinful after watching it unfold." She poked the fire, sending sparks spiraling upward. "That's what makes these trials so cruel. They judge us for choices we made without full knowledge. Hold us accountable for consequences we couldn't foresee."
"Is that fair?"
"No. But fairness has nothing to do with it. The universe doesn't care about fair—it only cares about balance. We broke a four-hundred-year-old seal. Released demons that had been safely contained. Took on burdens we weren't sure we could carry. The trials aren't punishment—they're verification. Making sure we understand what we've done. Making sure we're strong enough to live with the consequences."
Haruto looked at his companions. Shinjiro, the ronin who'd died once and lived on borrowed time. The priest, who'd sacrificed his granddaughter to maintain the very seal they'd destroyed. Kiku, born from a demon's love and now carrying part of that demon's essence. Ayame, trapped between human and demon, neither and both.
And himself—guardian's blood, missing piece of his soul, carrying rage and despair that weren't originally his.
They were all broken. All changed. All carrying more than they should.
But they were also still here. Still fighting. Still choosing to face trials that could destroy them rather than give up and let the demon essence run wild.
That had to count for something.
"Five trials left," he said. "Greed, and then what? Envy? Lust? Sloth? Gluttony?"
"All of them," the priest said from his watch position at the circle's edge. "Seven sins total. We've faced three. Four more to endure."
"And if we pass them all?"
"Then the Serpent acknowledges our right to carry the demon essence. Stops hunting us. Maybe even helps us understand how to manage it long-term." The priest's voice was heavy with doubt. "Or we fail, and it extracts the essence by force, leaving us dead or hollow. Either way, the trials determine our fate."
"No pressure, then."
"None at all."
They took turns on watch through the night, each lost in their own thoughts about rage and consequence, about justice and revenge, about the thin line between righteous anger and destructive wrath.
And in the morning, when they broke camp and continued their journey, Haruto noticed something:
The demon essence inside him was quieter. Not gone, not weakened, but... settled. As if understanding Ayame's rage had helped it understand its own nature. As if witnessing the cost of wrath had taught it something about restraint.
Or maybe he was just imagining it. Projecting hope onto something that was simply waiting for the right moment to consume him.
Either way, they had four days until the next trial.
Four days to rest, recover, and prepare for the sin of Greed.
Four days to figure out what they were willing to keep and what they needed to release.
Four days to learn the difference between carrying a burden and possessing it.
The road ahead was unclear, but they walked it together.
And for now, that was enough.

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