Chapter 9:
The Last Light in Mercy Row
Inez woke in the narrow room behind the shop and, for several seconds, did not know why no one had locked the door.
The space had once been used for storage. Shelves still covered two walls, crowded with obsolete relays, broken diagnostic housings, and components too old to identify without opening them. Someone had pushed the heavier crates aside to make room for a municipal cot with one repaired leg. Two mismatched blankets covered the thin mattress, and a cracked washbasin stood beneath a small window reinforced with metal mesh.
It was not comfortable, but privacy had been made from whatever Tomas possessed.
The temporary regulator sat on a cleared crate beside the bed. A narrow cable ran from its housing to the repaired port beneath her hair, carrying a measured pulse through the architecture Tomas had forced closed again. The rhythm was quicker and more precise than the sound of his frame, though occasionally, when he crossed the shop beyond the wall, the two mechanisms overlapped.
Pulse.
Click. Whirr.
Pulse.
Her pistol rested on another crate within reach. Inez studied it for a moment. Tomas had unloaded it while she was unconscious, but sometime after the cascade he had returned the magazine and placed the weapon beside her. He had trusted her with it, or decided trust was irrelevant when a person had already demonstrated how easily she could kill without one.
Her jacket hung from the cot frame. The birthday card remained inside the inner pocket, where she had left it. She could feel its presence without touching it.
Relay slept at her feet, curled into the fold of the lower blanket. Inez did not remember allowing the cat into the room. Judging by the way he occupied the cot, permission had not been considered necessary.
Her breathing remained steady. The tremor in her hands had weakened, though it had not disappeared. Behind the restored partitions, something moved. A woman hummed a melody Inez almost recognized. A child turned the pages of a book. Someone whispered in Portuguese, too softly for the words to separate.
The doors held. For now.
Inez lay still and listened to the regulator keeping her alive. Tomas had built it. He had repaired the port, hidden her from security, given her a room, and returned her weapon. Every action had value. By the time she pushed back the blanket, she had already begun calculating what she owed him.
* * * *
Inez entered the shop after dressing and found Tomas already at work. He sat at the main bench beneath the amber lamp, one leg extended farther than the other while the support frame held the left hip in a rigid brace. Sometime during the night, he had replaced the damaged cover over the actuator and reinforced the housing with a strip of dark composite, but the mechanism still hesitated whenever he shifted. The delay was small, no more than half a second, though Inez had learned to notice the difference between function and ease.The bruises around his throat had darkened. Her fingers had left separate marks along one side, each one distinct beneath the skin. Tomas had not attempted to hide them, nor had he mentioned them when she entered.
He looked first at the small receiver connected to the regulator beneath her hair.
“No respiratory interruption overnight.” The statement came before any greeting.
Inez paused beside the workbench. Tomas did not ask whether she had slept, whether the memories had returned, or whether pain still moved through the repaired port. He told her what her body had done while she was unconscious, as though the machine’s report was more reliable than anything she might say. Perhaps it was.
“How much do I owe you?”
Tomas looked up from the device in his hands. “For what?”
The question irritated her immediately.
“For opening the shutter. Hiding me from security. Repairing the port.” She counted each item carefully, giving the account the shape he appeared determined to avoid. “The regulator. Medical supplies. The room. Whatever work you have lost while attending to me.”
Tomas glanced around the shop. A child’s music player lay open beside him. Several repaired devices waited on the opposite counter, each tagged with a name rather than a customer number. A water filter dripped slowly into a basin beneath the shelves. His expression suggested he was deciding whether any of this could reasonably be described as lost business.
“The replacement seal cost thirty eight credits,” he replied at last. “The interface lead was used, but it had not degraded. Eight credits, perhaps.”
Inez waited.
Tomas returned his attention to the music player.
“That is all?”
“The cleaning solution was already open.”
“Forty six credits.”
“Approximately.”
The amount was absurd. She had paid more than that for false transit papers that failed before the first checkpoint.
“And the rest?”
Tomas adjusted a contact inside the player. “The rest of what?”
“Your time.”
His hands stopped. He considered that longer than he had considered the cost of the materials, which told Inez the question had reached something he could not price as easily.
“I was using it.”
“For me.”
“Yes.”
“That means it has value.”
“Most things have value.”
“Then name it.”
Tomas leaned back slightly. The support frame responded with a delayed correction, and his jaw tightened before the actuator settled.
“I do not charge for everything I do.”
“Why not?”
“Because then I would spend more time calculating than working.”
“That is not an answer.”
“It is the answer I have.”
Inez studied him. Men who claimed not to want payment usually wanted something they believed could not be named. Obedience. Gratitude. Access. The right to ask later and call the request reasonable because the debt had been allowed to grow.
“I can pay you.”
“Can you?”
The question was not mocking, but it struck close enough to make her cautious. She had money hidden inside the reinforced seam of her coat. Not much. Enough for food, transport, and perhaps a night in a lower district room where nobody examined identification too closely.
“That is not your concern.”
“It becomes my concern if you give me all of it.”
“I did not say all.”
“You did not say how much.”
Inez said nothing.
Tomas returned the music player to the workbench and pressed its power contact. A distorted song emerged from the single functioning speaker, slowed almost beyond recognition. He listened for several seconds, then disconnected it again.
“Keep your money.”
“I do not want charity.”
“Good. I am not offering any.”
“Then what are you offering?”
“A place to recover until the regulator is stable.”
“And the price?”
He looked at her for a long moment, tiredness gathering beneath the patience he had maintained since she woke. Then his gaze moved past her toward the narrow room behind the shop.
“Clean the room.”
Inez followed his attention.
“You want me to clean.”
“Yes.”
“The room you put me in.”
“You are the person currently using it.”
She searched his face for amusement and found none.
“That is what you want in return?”
Tomas lifted the damaged music player again, his attention already returning to the repair.
“At present,” he replied, “I want the floor cleared before Relay swallows something that requires surgery.”
Inez remained beside the workbench.
“Tomas kept his attention on the music player, adjusting the damaged contact with a narrow tool. “You vomited beside the cot.”
His practical tone made the request worse. She had expected an amount large enough to negotiate, a question she could refuse to answer, or some service that would reveal why he had opened the shutter when every other door in Mercy Row remained closed. Cleaning the room was too small. A debt could not shrink that easily unless the reduction itself was meant to humiliate her.
“You expect me to believe that is all?”
Tomas looked up. “The room was cluttered before you arrived,” he explained, patience still present in his voice, though no longer effortless. “The shelves need to be cleared so the regulator can remain away from metal dust. There are two crates beneath the window that I cannot move easily, and Relay has already tried to eat part of the insulation.”
Relay, asleep inside a box of wire connectors, did not appear troubled by the accusation.
Inez folded her arms. “So you have found work suited to me.”
Tomas’s expression tightened. “I found work that needs doing.”
“Work you cannot do yourself.”
“Not without wasting half the morning and possibly damaging the frame.”
The answer should have ended the matter. Instead, it sharpened something inside her. Weak. Dependent. Useful only where someone else had decided she could be useful. The pattern was familiar enough that she could already see what came next. A small request first. Compliance observed. Boundaries moved. Larger requests framed as reasonable because she had accepted the first.
“You made the demand insignificant on purpose,” she told him. “If I refuse, I look ungrateful. If I agree, you establish that I obey.”
Tomas set the tool down. The music player continued producing a slow, wounded note from its speaker.
“At present,” he replied, each word controlled with visible effort, “I expect the room not to smell like blood and vomit.”
“Do not pretend you have no motives.”
“I did not say I had no motives.”
“You opened the shutter. You repaired the port. You built something that is keeping me alive, and now you want me to believe the price is sweeping a floor.”
“Motive and price are not the same thing.”
“They become the same thing eventually.”
“Not always.”
“Everything becomes an invoice once the person who gave it decides to collect.”
Tomas stared at her. Pain had gathered around his eyes during the argument, whether from the frame or exhaustion she could not tell. The bruises on his throat looked darker beneath the work lamp, and seeing them should have made her cautious. Instead, they made her angrier. He bore the evidence of what she had done and still refused to use it against her.
“Doing something for you does not make the rest of you mine,” he told her.
The words entered too close to the place she guarded. She laughed once, without humor. “That sounds generous.”
“It is not generosity.”
“Then what is it?”
“A boundary.”
“Yours?”
“Ours, I would have thought.”
Inez looked away before he could see how deeply the answer disturbed her. Boundaries had always been placed around her by someone else. Orison built them inside her mind. Rourke decided when they failed and when the drug restored them. People offered choices only after removing every option they did not want her to take.
“Everyone wants something,” she said.
Tomas picked up the tool again, though his hand remained still above the open player. “Yes. I want the room cleaned.”
“You expect nothing else.”
“I expect accurate answers when the regulator behaves badly. I expect you not to point a weapon at my neighbors. I expect you to tell me before you stop breathing, assuming you notice.”
“And later?”
“I do not know what I will want later.”
“There it is.”
His patience broke. Not loudly. Tomas did not shout, but his tool struck the workbench hard enough to make Relay lift his head.
“You keep asking me to name a future crime so you can defend yourself against it now.” His voice had roughened, exhaustion stripping away the careful distance he usually maintained. “I am behind on seven repairs. My hip barely works. There are people outside who need heat, water, and prosthetics that do not close around their throats. I do not have time to construct an elaborate method of owning you.”
Inez became very still.Tomas drew a breath, then released it slowly.
“If refusing matters more than helping, leave the room as it is. I will clean it later.”
She searched his face for the trap. There was none. He had given her the option to refuse and had not threatened to withdraw the regulator, the shelter, or his assistance. He had not even asked her to explain herself. The argument ended because he would allow her to win it.
Inez turned away before the confusion could become visible. She crossed the shop, entered the narrow room, and closed the door with more force than necessary. Relay followed moments later.
She found a broom leaning behind the cot, and began cleaning with the concentrated anger of someone dismantling a weapon.
* * * *
Inez began with the floor because it required the least interpretation. Dust had gathered beneath the cot in soft gray layers, threaded with wire clippings, fragments of insulation, and screws too small to see until they caught the light. She swept them into a shallow pile, then moved to the shelves, where everything had been stored according to a system that appeared meaningless until she noticed the labels.
They were not inventory numbers, just names. Mina. Amara. Jonah. Mrs. Ortega. Names had been written across boxes, jars, and folded paper packets, sometimes followed by brief instructions in Tomas’s narrow handwriting like KEEP UNTIL SHE DECIDES, MAY FIT THE OLD HAND, or simply DO NOT THROW AWAY. That final instruction appeared often.
Inez removed a stack of technical manuals from the lowest shelf. Their covers had split along the spines, and several pages were held together with tape. Tomas had filled the margins with corrections, diagrams, and arguments addressed to engineers who would never read them. Beside the manuals lay municipal utility schematics for heating lines, water systems, and electrical grids that officially no longer served Mercy Row.
The room had accumulated around him. Nothing had been abandoned completely. Failed components waited beside improved versions of themselves. A box beneath the window contained six nearly identical neural relays, each marked with a date and a short note describing why it had failed. The newest design appeared in the regulator beside her cot.
Inez held one of the earlier versions between her fingers. Tomas kept broken things because he believed function could be recovered. The comparison arrived without invitation. She placed the relay back too hard, and Relay took the opportunity to climb onto the cleared shelf and sit directly in the space she had made.
“You are not helping.”
The cat closed his eyes.
The words sounded familiar. Inez looked toward the wall separating the room from the shop and realized she had repeated Tomas almost exactly.
Relay began to purr. She moved him to the cot, but he returned before she reached the next shelf.
Behind a crate of obsolete processors, she found a child’s drawing. A figure stood beneath a crooked sun with metal legs extending far beyond the body and tools in both hands. The name TOMAS had been written above it in several colors. A damaged photograph lay facedown beneath the drawing.
Inez lifted one corner, then stopped. The act felt too much like opening a door that had not been offered to her. She left the photograph where it was and continued cleaning.
Notes had been pushed between manuals and component boxes. Promises of bread, water filters, help carrying equipment, or repayment after someone’s next work shift. Some were months old. Others had been crossed out with the word PAID, though the original promises remained unfulfilled.
The yellow table appeared while she was moving the heavier crate beneath the window. For one breath, dust became sunlight. Two children sat beside her. A knife rested in her hand, cutting fruit into careful pieces while the younger child watched with fever bright in his eyes.
“Mama?”
The voice came from very far away. Inez closed her fingers around the broom handle. Felt the wood and the dust beneath her boots.
Beyond the wall, Tomas dropped a tool, muttered something under his breath, then resumed working , and the kitchen faded. She remained in the narrow room. Relay rubbed against her ankle, solid and impatient.
She drew a slow breath and returned to the crate.
By the time the floor was clear, the shelves had been ordered and the regulator sat alone on a clean surface. The work had not saved her, hidden her, or carried her through a collapsing memory. It had only made the room usable, but for the first time since entering Mercy Row, Inez had done something that belonged entirely to the present.
When Inez returned to the shop, Tomas had arranged the child’s music player beside the receiver linked to her regulator. One hand worked inside the open speaker housing while the other adjusted the timing intervals displayed on the diagnostic unit. The two tasks seemed unrelated, yet he moved between them without confusion.
“The room is clean,” she told him.
Tomas glanced toward the rear doorway. “Did you move the box of old relays?”
“Yes.”
“Good.”
That was all. Inez waited for him to inspect the work, offer approval, or reveal what he expected next. Instead, he returned to the damaged speaker as though the matter had closed.
A knock sounded against the shutter. An elderly woman stood outside holding a wrapped loaf beneath her coat. Tomas raised the metal only far enough to accept it.
“For the heater,” she told him.
“The regulator,” Tomas corrected gently.
“It makes heat.”
“It regulates pressure.”
“It was cold before you fixed it.”
Tomas appeared to decide the argument was not worth continuing. He thanked her, lowered the shutter, and opened the ledger beneath the counter. Beside the woman’s name, he wrote PAID.
He tore the loaf in half and placed one piece near Inez.
She looked at it, then at the ledger. “That was worth less than the repair.”
“Yes.”
“You wrote paid.”
“Because the account is closed.”
Inez accepted the bread, though she did not eat it. “Do all your accounts work that way?”
“No.” Tomas tested the music player. A fragment of melody emerged, bright and distorted. “Some people can afford the full cost. Some cannot. Some repay me later by helping someone else.”
“And when they do not?”
He adjusted the speaker contact. “Usually nothing.”
The answer irritated her more than it should have. “Then people use you.”
“Sometimes.”
“And you allow it?”
“Sometimes.”
Tomas continued working, apparently untroubled by the conclusion. Inez watched him with growing contempt, though the feeling sat too close to anger on his behalf to remain convincing.
* * * *
By evening the rain had stopped.
The trains still crossed above Mercy Row, though less frequently now, each passing leaving a slow vibration in the walls before silence settled over the shop again. Tomas was preparing to close for the night. The repaired music player sat finished on the counter, while he adjusted the regulator’s timing with the same careful attention he gave every machine that entered his hands.
Inez stood in the doorway longer than she intended. She had spent the entire day trying to understand a debt that refused to become an account. The uncertainty was worse than any price he might have named. A debt without value could grow forever.
“I don’t have enough money,” she said at last. “And I can’t tell you where the architecture came from. Not without making both of us targets.”
Tomas continued watching the regulator’s readings.
“I know.”
“So there is only one thing I still own.”
He finally looked up.
“You can have me.”
For a heartbeat he seemed genuinely confused. “I already have you occupying my back room.”
The corner of her mouth tightened. “You know what I mean.”
Understanding reached him all at once, and whatever trace of dry humor had been there disappeared. He did not look away from her, but neither did he look at her the way other men had. There was no calculation, no embarrassment, no hunger. Only a quiet sadness that unsettled her far more than desire would have.
“Is that what you want?” he asked.
“Wanting is irrelevant.”
The answer seemed to confirm something he had already suspected. “No.”
Anger rose through her before she could restrain it. “Don’t pretend you’re better than everyone else.” Her voice remained controlled, but the control itself carried years of practice. “I’ve done it before. For information. For access. To finish a job. To survive. I know exactly how this works.”
Tomas listened without interrupting. The bruises along his throat caught the warm light from the bench lamp, silent evidence that he understood more about survival than she had given him credit for.
When she finished, he asked only one question. “Would you be offering if I hadn’t saved you?”
The shop became very still. Inez searched for an answer that would preserve her dignity, but every truthful path led to the same place. In the end, she could not say yes.
Tomas nodded once, almost to himself. “You’ve had enough people deciding what you owe them.”
The words struck with unexpected force. For an instant she saw white examination rooms, Rourke holding a syringe, strangers whose faces she could no longer remember deciding where her body belonged and what it was worth. Behind those memories stood other doors she still could not open.
She folded her arms as though protecting herself from the thought. “You pity me.”
“No.”
“Then what?”
“I believe you.”
His answer carried no triumph.
“I believe that, somewhere along the way, someone convinced you that gratitude and consent were the same thing.” He lowered his eyes to the regulator, adjusting one contact before looking back at her. “They aren’t.”
Neither of them spoke again. The regulator pulsed softly between them, and somewhere above the shop another train rolled across the tracks, carrying strangers toward destinations neither of them intended to reach.
The silence stretched until Inez could no longer bear it.
“You think you’re different.”
Tomas looked up from the regulator. “I don’t.”
“You think refusing somehow makes you better than everyone else.”
“It doesn’t.”
Her laugh was sharp enough to cut. “Of course it does. You get to keep your conscience, and I walk away reminded that even this wasn’t worth taking.”
The words surprised even her. She wanted to gather them back before they reached him, but they were already hanging in the shop between the humming lights and the slow pulse of the regulator.
“Inez.”
“Don’t.”
“You think I’m judging you.”
“Aren’t you?”
He was quiet for a moment, before replying. “I think you’ve been damaged.”
She flinched. The reaction crossed her face before she could bury it. Tomas saw it and continued immediately, unwilling to leave the sentence unfinished.
“So have I,” he said with his hand resting against the frame bracing his left leg. The actuator answered with its familiar click before settling again. “That isn’t the same as being worthless,” he continued.
She looked away. “Easy for you to say.”
“No.” The single word carried no anger, only certainty. “It isn’t.”
She folded her arms tighter across her chest. “Refusing doesn’t erase what I owe you.”
“There isn’t anything to owe.”
“That’s a lie.”
Something finally gave way inside Tomas. Not loudly. Simply all at once. He pushed himself upright, the damaged frame protesting beneath him, and faced her fully. Fatigue had hollowed his eyes, and the bruises around his throat had darkened through the day, but his voice remained steady.
“You do not get to turn my refusal into another thing done to you.”
The words landed harder than any raised voice could have. Inez opened her mouth, but nothing came.
“You’ve spent the last two days trying to make me choose a price because prices make sense.” He drew a slow breath, temper held on a short leash. “If I ask for money, you understand it. If I ask you to clean a room, you search for the trap. If I refuse to use you…” He shook his head once. “You don’t get to rewrite that into another injury just because being injured feels familiar.”
The shop was silent except for the regulator’s measured pulse. Almost immediately, regret softened the hard edges of his expression. Not regret for what he had said, but for how sharply it had needed to be said.
“You may stay until the regulator is stable.” His voice had settled again into its ordinary calm. “After that, leave if you want. Stay if you want. Repay me someday if it matters to you. Never come back if that’s the better choice. Those decisions belong to later.”
He reached for the regulator and checked its readings one final time. “For now,” he said without looking up, “I expect only two things.”
She waited.
“Don’t threaten my neighbors.” He made a small adjustment with the screwdriver. “And clean up after yourself.”
The unbearable part was not the simplicity of the request. It was that, for the first time in longer than she could remember, someone had asked nothing of her that required her to stop being herself.
* * * *
The room was different when she returned. It was not transformed, it was simply ordered. The blanket had been folded over the foot of the cot after she stripped and remade it. The shelves no longer leaned beneath uneven stacks of manuals and broken components. Dust no longer drifted through the narrow beam of light falling from the ceiling fixture. On the cleared work surface, the regulator rested by itself, its cable neatly coiled instead of disappearing beneath a tangle of discarded parts. Relay occupied the center of the blanket with complete confidence that the room had always belonged to him.
Inez picked up her pistol. The weight settled naturally into her hand. She checked the magazine by habit, confirmed the chamber, then slipped the weapon back beneath her coat.
The rear alley would be dark now. She knew its exits. If Rourke remained anywhere in Mercy Row, he would not stay in one place for long. If he had already left, she could follow. She had escaped worse situations than this with fewer resources.
The thought should have carried relief. Instead, it felt strangely unfinished.
No one had ordered her to remain. Tomas had not hidden her weapon or withheld the regulator. He had not promised answers tomorrow, nor asked for loyalty in exchange for today. Even Halo, hanging from the temporary regulator at her neck, was no longer something he controlled. If she walked out the back door, no one would stop her. The freedom felt unfamiliar because it resembled nothing she had ever known.
From beyond the wall came the sharp clatter of metal striking the floor. A heartbeat later Tomas muttered something she could not quite hear, followed by the unmistakable click of his support frame failing to catch his weight. A chair scraped across the floor as he steadied himself. Then came silence, broken only by the faint hiss of solder cooling somewhere in the shop.
He did not call for help. Inez stood motionless for several seconds. Then she opened the door.
The screwdriver had rolled beneath the edge of the workbench. Tomas was leaning awkwardly against the bench, one hand braced on its surface while the damaged actuator slowly reset itself. He looked up as she crouched, retrieved the tool, and placed it within easy reach.
Their eyes met. Neither of them spoke. Tomas shifted his chair a few centimeters, making room at the bench as naturally as though the space had always been there. He returned to the open regulator without thanking her, and she found herself sitting opposite him before she had consciously decided to do so.
The temporary regulator pulsed softly against the base of her neck. Across the bench, Tomas’s frame answered with its familiar click and quiet mechanical whir as the servos corrected another imperfect movement. For several minutes the only sounds in the shop were those two uneven rhythms, the scrape of a file across metal, and the distant trains crossing somewhere above Mercy Row.
Behind them, the rear door settled gently into its frame. Staying had always meant that someone had prevented her from leaving, whether through orders, drugs, promises, or the certainty that she would fail alone. This time the door remained unlocked, and no one asked her to stay. She remained at the workbench anyway.
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