Ain II - Afterlife

My vision is now blank. I can't feel anything.

So this is the 'death' looks like, nothingness. It's terrifying. But I guess there's no heaven or hell here.

I really wanted to reincarnated into a new person, a new identity. Whether I could come back to the Earth, or... what was that called again?

... oh. Right. Isekai. To another world.

But I guess 'Isekai' didn't exist after all. And I guess this is what I am right now. Dead, by suicide. And I guess my painful experience finally comes to a close. I can't feel my body, my mind, my hands, feet, heart beating. This might be the peace.

"..."

You know, this is getting boring. It's been too long now and I don't know what to do here floating in the world of nothingness. I really hope that there are other people around here. But this is nothingness. Of course there's 'nothing' here, duh.

I wonder though, are the people who died are also here? Are they just can't talk, or gives a signs or a signals? Is it just a lost soul who only got conciousness?

Wait... conciousness?

Why am I concious? I am sure I was dead, right?

If I am dead, I was ceased to exist. I supposed to.

So why am I concious right now?

"Well, thanks to my power, I help you recover your remaining soul."

Oh, I see. That's good to hea--

WAIT. WHAT WAS THAT VOICE!!??

...

What was that? Which voice is that? How did he hear me?

"Oh sorry. I was just enjoying your monologue there."

There it is again...Hey! Who are you? Are you here somewhere? How did you know I am monologuing he-- wait, am I really dead? Did you just saved me?

"Yeah, about that. You see, I arrived here... too late. I didn't make here in time to save you. Well, I was supposed to save you from jumping yourself there in that tall building. But when I arrived here. I saw your body... a dead body on the ground."

... And you didn't use your power to revive me?

"I don't have that such of an absurd ability. But this is the only I can do... communicating with you - the remaining soul."

How did you do that exacltly?

"Well, the first thing I heard about you is this: "My vision is now blank. I can't feel anything. So this is the 'death' looks like, nothingness. It's terrifying. But I guess there's no heaven or hell here.", and so on."

Did you just said exactly what I said in the beginning of chapter two?"Yeah! Pretty neat right?"

"Ahem... Well then, since we finally communicating, I guess I have something to bring this matter to you."

Why? I am dead already. Do you plan to resurrect me? Are you going to make me reincarnated to somewhere else?

"First, because I have a gift for you. Second, as I said before - I cannot resurrect dead people. and Third, nope. In your dreams. The other world does not exist, unless you want to reincarnate into an alien from another planet. Do you want that?"

Yeah, no.

...

What 'gift' are you talking abo--

"Hey! Sorry to cut in, but uhm.. can you do me a favor and keep monologuing? I am still in this process right now."

... What are you doing, really?

"You will see. Just go and narrate something, about your suicidal act."

... What do you care?

There's no hope for me to keep living. The world is going to crumble anyway. Even If will keep living, there's nothing else for me to do other than being the most miserable man alive. And I was 32 years old.

I am selfish, that's the fact. But despite my age, I want to pursue further. I want to continue my purpose, to continue college.

I want my youth back. I want to experience again. I want to give my all, doing my best to study.I want a job to eventually help my family.

I want...

I want a girl who will marry me. I want to build my own family.

I just want achievement... for once in my life... Then I will satisfy myself, and accept everything until I grow old and die happily.

"..."

... Hey, can you hear me?

"Oh... Yes. Yes. I can still hear you... You know, you're an idiot."

Huh?

"Do you really think ending your own life is the ultimate solution of your painful experience? Do you really think 'suffering' should not include to your whole life?"

... My whole life is full of suffering. What do you know about everythi--"Sorry to cut you there."

... Seriously?

"Look, I don't know much about you. But one thing I know for sure. Sometimes, you need to endure all of that painful moments to find out your true purpose in life. Grinding is a thing, you see. You thought that every seconds of your life is wasted. But the reality is, you just didn't wait. You want to do whatever you please, to yourself."

"I get that you want an achievement to help your family. But by the looks of it, you didn't think enough. You didn't look the other way around, instead of complaining yourself that you have no job or whatsoever. But, you really need to consider, change doesn't really comes immediately."

... I

I don't know what to do.

"Ok, hang on. It's done now. You can open your eyes now."

When I opened my eyes, I noticed something around me. I came back to Earth, but the time stopped. I see the armies and heroes clashing each other, the destructions all around, the chaos escalates quickly as the humanity seems to have lost.

Then I look at myself. I see my body. Dead body. So I am really dead.

Then a mysterious man. His appearance is... Godly. I am looking at his colorful outfit with a rooster's feathers around him.

"So, welcome back to Earth. I'm sorry I didn't introduce myself earlier." He placed a hand to his chest. "I am Sarimanok. Your spirit guidance from the other world" Then he scratched his head. "And a guy who arrived late."