Chapter 0:
Life Without Love
The worst thing about Aren Veyr’s execution was that nobody intended to kill him.
Death would have been easier.
He realized that when his mother stopped crying.
One moment she stood beneath the black pillars of the Heart Court, both hands pressed against her mouth, shoulders trembling as though each breath cut her from within.
The next, the bell rang.
Once.
Deep.
Ancient.
Aren felt something tear.
There was no wound.
No flash of pain.
Only an emptiness so sudden that his knees nearly buckled.
His mother lowered her hands.
Her tears remained on her face.
But the grief behind them was gone.
She stared at him.
Not with hatred.
Hatred would have been mercy.
She stared at him the way one might stare at a stranger wearing a dead man’s clothes.
Aren looked toward the judges.
Nine figures sat above him beneath a ceiling painted with the constellations of the First Lovers. White masks covered their faces from forehead to chin. Gold thread ran between their seats like veins.
At the center sat High Adjudicator Vaelor Rhest.
Aren had once saved his life.
That memory seemed almost comical now.
Rhest lifted one hand.
“Let the second bond be severed.”
The bell rang again.
Aren’s younger sister, Mara, gasped.
Her husband caught her elbow.
“Mara.”
“I’m fine.”
She looked at Aren.
Her expression changed.
For twenty-seven years she had called him Ren when she was frightened. She had once broken a boy’s nose because he mocked Aren’s crooked smile. When their father died, she had slept outside Aren’s room for a month because she feared he might disappear too.
Now she frowned slightly.
“Aren?”
He tried to answer.
Nothing came.
Mara glanced toward the judges.
“I understand that he is my brother,” she said carefully.
A clerk scratched the words onto parchment.
“And what do you feel toward him?”
Mara’s brow furrowed.
“I…”
Aren watched her search herself.
That hurt more than the bell.
“I know I loved him.”
The clerk looked up.
“Do you love him now?”
Silence swallowed the court.
Mara touched her chest.
“No.”
Aren closed his eyes.
Someone in the gallery began to sob.
Not for him.
For the spectacle.
The Heart Court had not pronounced this sentence in eighty-three years.
People had crossed half the kingdom to see it done.
High Adjudicator Rhest leaned forward.
“Aren Veyr.”
Aren opened his eyes.
“You commanded the Seventh Radiant Company at Orison. You were entrusted with the defense of one hundred and twelve thousand citizens. You abandoned the eastern Heartspire during an incursion. The resulting collapse claimed thirty-one thousand, four hundred and six lives.”
Aren knew the number.
He dreamed the number.
Sometimes every corpse had the same face.
Sometimes it was his own.
“You stand convicted of betrayal of covenant, cowardice before the Hollow, destruction of crown property, abandonment of sacred station, and murder through dereliction.”
Aren laughed.
It came out quietly.
Several judges shifted.
Rhest’s masked face remained motionless.
“You find this amusing?”
“No.”
“Then why do you laugh?”
“Because you forgot treason.”
A murmur passed through the gallery.
Aren raised his chained hands.
“If you’re going to bury me, Vaelor, at least dig the grave properly.”
One of the judges slammed a palm against the bench.
“You will address the High Adjudicator by title.”
“I used to call him Uncle.”
Rhest did not react.
Perhaps the bell had reached him years ago.
“Aren Veyr,” he continued, “death would release you from consequence. Imprisonment would permit memory. Exile would allow attachment. None are equal to your crime.”
Aren looked at his mother again.
She had turned away.
That nearly broke him.
Rhest spoke.
“Therefore, by authority of the Crown, the Choir, and the Nine Covenants, you are sentenced to Life Without Love.”
Even the gallery fell silent.
Everyone knew the phrase.
Few understood it.
Aren understood now.
Rhest raised his hand.
“Sever the third bond.”
The bell rang.
This one belonged to Elara.
Aren could not look at her.
He had endured everything else by imagining she remained.
His mother.
His sister.
His comrades.
His friends.
All could be taken.
Not Elara.
That had been the lie he told himself.
Her voice came from behind him.
“Aren.”
He almost begged her not to speak.
Instead he turned.
Elara Sen stood in the witness circle wearing a dark blue dress.
Not black.
She had told him once she would never wear black at his funeral.
“If you die before me,” she had said, lying with her head on his chest beneath a summer sky, “I’ll wear blue.”
“Why?”
“Because you hate being taken seriously.”
He had kissed her forehead.
“That is an outrageous accusation.”
“You laughed during our engagement blessing.”
“The priest sneezed.”
“The priest was eighty-nine.”
“Exactly. He had survived eighty-nine years only to be defeated by pollen.”
She had laughed against him until he could feel it through his ribs.
Now she looked at Aren with dry eyes.
The ring remained on her finger.
That was the cruelty of Severance.
It destroyed affection.
Not memory.
She remembered every kiss.
Every promise.
Every stupid argument.
Every night Aren woke screaming after the war and she held him until sunrise.
She simply no longer cared.
Elara touched the ring.
“I remember wanting to marry you.”
Aren swallowed.
“Elara—”
“Please.”
The word was polite.
Not tender.
Polite.
He stopped.
She studied him.
“I remember believing there was no version of my life that made sense without you.”
Aren’s chains trembled.
He realized his hands were shaking.
“And now?”
The clerk should not have asked.
Perhaps Aren hated him most for that.
Elara looked directly into Aren’s eyes.
“Now you are only a man I remember loving.”
Something inside Aren became very still.
He had survived Orison.
He had survived six months beneath the palace in a cell where daylight arrived for seven minutes each afternoon.
He had survived interrogation, starvation, fever, and dreams filled with burning children.
This was different.
This could not be survived.
Rhest spoke.
“The final bond has been severed.”
Aren frowned.
Final?
There were hundreds.
Comrades.
Teachers.
Old neighbors.
The baker who slipped him honey cakes when he was ten.
Captain Darius.
Lieutenant Pell.
The men and women who had followed Aren through the Red Gorge.
Rhest seemed to read his confusion.
“The court has severed your primary anchors. The Chorus will do the rest.”
Behind the judges, gold threads began to glow.
Aren suddenly saw them.
Thousands.
No.
Millions.
Lines of light connecting every living soul in the chamber.
A woman to her husband.
A child to his father.
Friends.
Siblings.
Teachers.
Rivals.
Even hatred carried a thread.
Love was not a single emotion.
The Heartwrights had lied about that.
Love was attention made sacred.
It was the piece of yourself that remained facing another person even when you walked away.
Aren saw his own threads.
And one by one, they went black.
Across the kingdom, people would awaken with memories of him emptied of warmth.
Soldiers who had worshiped him would remember an officer.
Children who had once played at being Captain Veyr would remember a criminal.
People Aren had saved would remember being saved.
But gratitude would disappear.
The old world ended without thunder.
The last thread broke.
Aren inhaled.
Nothing happened.
That seemed unfair.
A punishment that enormous deserved fire.
Instead, High Adjudicator Rhest removed his mask.
He was older than Aren remembered.
Gray-haired.
Thin.
Almost gentle.
“Aren,” he said.
For the first time there was something in his voice.
Pity.
Aren hated him for it.
Rhest descended from the judges’ platform.
He stopped several feet away.
“You may wonder why you are still alive.”
“I assumed incompetence.”
“You were always insolent.”
“You used to like that about me.”
Rhest’s eyes flickered.
Perhaps some bonds were harder to kill than others.
“You cannot remain in the capital,” he said. “The Severed affect Resonance. Your presence weakens ordinary Heartcraft.”
“So exile.”
“No.”
Aren smiled without humor.
“Of course not.”
Rhest stepped closer.
“Three nights ago, Blackhold Station stopped sending signals.”
Aren’s smile vanished.
Blackhold guarded the northern breach.
Beyond it lay the Mourning Lands.
A country destroyed seventy years earlier when an entire people died in a single night.
Nothing living remained there.
Nothing properly dead, either.
Rhest continued.
“The Sorrowing is spreading south. Heartbound soldiers cannot survive prolonged exposure.”
Understanding came slowly.
Then disgust.
“You stripped me of everyone I love because you need someone who has nothing left for the Hollow to use.”
Rhest said nothing.
Aren laughed again.
This time the sound frightened even him.
“You didn’t sentence me.”
He lifted his chained hands.
“You made me equipment.”
Rhest’s face hardened.
“You will depart tonight.”
“And if I refuse?”
“Then Blackhold falls. After Blackhold, Deren. After Deren, perhaps the capital.”
“Thousands die.”
“Yes.”
Aren looked toward Elara.
She was speaking quietly with a court attendant.
She did not glance at him.
Why should he care?
That was the question.
The kingdom had taken his name.
His honor.
His family.
The woman he loved.
Even grief felt foolish now.
Why save people who would cheer his death?
Why defend a world that had carefully erased him from every heart inside it?
Aren looked back at Rhest.
“Then let it fall.”
Rhest watched him.
For once, the old man had no answer.
Guards seized Aren by both arms.
They dragged him toward the western doors.
The gallery parted.
No one reached for him.
No one shouted his name.
No one wept.
Aren Veyr left the Heart Court surrounded by hundreds of people who knew exactly who he was.
And not one of them loved him.
Above the courthouse entrance, carved in the language of the First Covenant, were seven words Aren had seen a thousand times.
He had never understood them until now.
WHAT WE LOVE TEACHES THE WORLD TO REMAIN.
Aren stared at the inscription.
Then the guards pushed him into the rain.
For the first time in his life, he wondered what happened to a world when there was nobody left who wanted it to remain.
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