Chapter 6:
Life Without Love
Raith died before he could explain.
Aren did not forgive him.
He also did not blame him.
He found both facts irritating.
By evening Blackhold's remaining survivors had gathered in the southern courtyard.
Four hundred and twelve soldiers.
Seventy civilians.
Thirty-eight children.
The number bothered Aren.
All numbers bothered him now.
He watched Seris move among the wounded.
Hadrik repaired wagons.
Lyssa searched the command archive.
Corin stole food.
“No,” Corin said when confronted.
“You are holding six loaves.”
“I am relocating food.”
“To your coat?”
“Secure storage.”
Aren took two.
Corin gasped.
“Thief.”
They sat against the wall eating hard bread.
For several minutes neither spoke.
Then Corin said, “Were you really a hero?”
Aren looked at him.
“What?”
“Before.”
“Before what?”
Corin gestured vaguely.
“The catastrophic disgrace. Magical emotional execution. General aura of misery.”
Aren chewed.
“I was a soldier.”
“People called you the Bright Captain.”
“People are stupid.”
“There were songs.”
“I hated them.”
“I liked one.”
Aren stared.
Corin began singing terribly.
Aren threw bread at him.
Corin ducked.
“There he is.”
“Who?”
“The man underneath the funeral.”
Aren's expression changed.
Corin looked away.
The Severance had not taken that comment yet.
Aren wondered how long it would last.
“Why are you here?” Aren asked.
“Currently? Bread.”
“Blackhold.”
“Oh.”
Corin leaned his head against stone.
“My sentence was three years in a labor company. Then somebody changed the transport order.”
Aren frowned.
“Changed it?”
“I was supposed to go east.”
“Lyssa?”
“South.”
“Hadrik?”
“West.”
“Seris?”
“Capital hospice.”
Aren sat straighter.
“And all of you ended up on my wagon.”
Corin nodded.
“Remarkable administrative incompetence.”
“No.”
“That's what I thought.”
Aren stood.
“Find Hadrik and Seris.”
“What about Lyssa?”
“She’s in the archive.”
“Should I fetch her?”
Aren looked toward the command tower.
“No.”
Corin smiled.
“Because we're going there?”
“Yes.”
“Finally, crime.”
The archive occupied three underground floors.
Lyssa had lit every lamp.
Papers covered the ground.
Books formed towers around her.
She had ink on her nose.
Aren entered.
“You found something.”
Lyssa looked up.
“How did you know?”
“You're vibrating.”
“I don't vibrate.”
Corin nodded.
“You do.”
Lyssa held up a file.
“Blackhold's Engine wasn't the first.”
Aren stopped.
“How many?”
“Official records say zero.”
“Unofficial?”
“Seven.”
She spread documents across a table.
Small villages.
Military outposts.
Hospices.
Prisons.
Each suffered mysterious “Hollow incidents.”
Each had unusual mortality rates.
Each occurred during the previous twelve years.
“Tests,” Aren said.
Lyssa nodded.
Corin stopped joking.
Aren examined dates.
Then saw one.
ORISON.
His hands went cold.
“No.”
Lyssa said nothing.
Aren opened the file.
Most pages had been removed.
One remained.
HEARTSPIRE RESONANCE SATURATION: 94%
CIVILIAN ANCHOR DENSITY: ACCEPTABLE.
PROJECT GENTLE DAWN, PHASE VII.
AUTHORIZED BY—
The signature had been cut away.
Aren kept reading.
Predicted casualties.
Thirty thousand minimum.
Forty-two thousand maximum.
His vision blurred.
The number had been known.
Before the city fell.
Someone had calculated how many would die.
Seris entered quietly with Hadrik.
She saw Aren's face.
“What happened?”
He gave her the page.
She read.
Her mouth tightened.
“This doesn't prove the Crown caused the attack.”
“No.”
Aren stared at the missing signature.
“But it proves someone knew.”
Lyssa pushed another paper forward.
“This does more.”
A deployment order.
Seventh Radiant Company.
Captain Aren Veyr commanded to leave eastern Heartspire at 03:10 to reinforce the southern gate.
Aren remembered receiving it.
The seal.
The courier.
The urgency.
He obeyed.
Twenty minutes after his company moved, the eastern Heartspire exploded.
The court later claimed no order existed.
Here it was.
Stamped by the Heart Court.
Hadrik swore.
Corin looked at Aren.
“You didn't abandon your station.”
Aren could not answer.
Six months.
He had spent six months wondering whether he had unconsciously wanted to run.
Whether fear had rewritten memory.
Whether thirty thousand people burned because some hidden coward inside Aren chose survival.
The kingdom had made him doubt his own mind.
Seris touched his arm.
Aren looked down.
Her hand remained there.
For once she did not pull away.
“You didn't do it.”
He laughed.
It sounded broken.
“No.”
“You were framed.”
“No.”
Seris frowned.
Aren pointed at the file.
“I followed the order.”
“That doesn't make it your fault.”
“Thirty thousand people are still dead.”
“Because somebody manipulated you.”
“I should have known.”
“How?”
“I should have—”
Seris grabbed his face with both hands.
Everyone froze.
“Listen to me.”
Aren stared.
She was furious again.
The emotion burned through the Severance like sunlight through fog.
“You are not powerful enough to be responsible for every evil committed around you.”
His throat tightened.
Seris continued.
“Guilt is not the same as accountability. Sometimes guilt is vanity wearing funeral clothes.”
Aren's eyes narrowed.
“You have an unusual bedside manner.”
“I've been told.”
“Mostly by corpses?”
“Frequently.”
Corin looked at Hadrik.
“Should we leave?”
“No,” Hadrik said.
“This is uncomfortable.”
“Yes.”
“I enjoy comfort.”
“No one asked.”
Seris released Aren.
Already confusion touched her face.
The Severance was coming.
Aren saw it.
She did too.
Something like panic entered her eyes.
“No.”
Aren frowned.
Seris pressed a hand against her chest.
“No, no, no.”
“What?”
“I can feel it.”
The warmth disappearing.
She grabbed Aren’s sleeve.
“Tell me something.”
“What?”
“Anything.”
“Seris—”
“Something I won't forget.”
He stared at her.
She was fighting the sentence.
Trying to preserve what the magic erased every time.
Aren did not know what to say.
So he told the truth.
“When I was nine, my father taught me swordsmanship with wooden spoons because we couldn't afford training blades.”
Seris blinked.
Aren continued.
“He said technique mattered more than dignity.”
“Did it work?”
“No. Mara hit me with a frying pan.”
Seris laughed.
The sound hit Aren harder than it should have.
The Severance moved.
Her laughter faded.
But not completely.
Seris frowned.
Then whispered, “Wooden spoons.”
Aren froze.
“What?”
“I remember why it matters.”
Lyssa stood suddenly.
“The sentence isn't erasing everything.”
Everyone looked at her.
She grabbed paper.
“Why?”
Seris looked at Aren.
“I don't know.”
Lyssa's eyes widened.
“Because the bond wasn't established before Severance.”
Aren's pulse quickened.
“What does that mean?”
“The sentence cuts registered Resonance pathways and suppresses replacements. But human memory can build around damaged channels.”
Corin frowned.
“In stupid people language.”
Lyssa pointed at Aren.
“The court can make people stop loving him.”
She looked at Seris.
“But it may not be able to stop them from choosing him again.”
Silence.
Aren almost wished she had not said it.
Hope was dangerous.
Hope was merely grief waiting for an appointment.
Then alarm bells rang above them.
Not the bell of Severance.
War bells.
Hadrik drew his sword.
A soldier shouted down the stairwell.
“North wall!”
Aren ran.
They emerged into the courtyard.
Blackhold's remaining soldiers stood on the battlements.
Beyond the walls, the Mourning Lands moved.
Not an army.
A storm.
Black fog covered the northern horizon.
Inside it walked shapes large enough to scrape the clouds.
Aren felt ten thousand borrowed loves inside him recoil.
Lyssa reached the wall.
Her face emptied.
“What are those?”
Aren knew.
Every veteran did.
Nobody had seen one in fifty years.
“Grief Titans.”
Three enormous silhouettes approached Blackhold.
And above them, suspended in the storm, floated a man dressed entirely in white.
No wings.
No spell-circle.
He simply stood in empty air.
His voice reached every person in the fortress.
Gentle.
Warm.
Almost loving.
“Aren Veyr.”
Aren stepped onto the battlement.
The white-clad man smiled.
“Come north.”
Hadrik whispered, “Who is that?”
Aren remembered Raith's final warning.
The Gentle King.
The man raised one hand.
The Grief Titans stopped.
Every Hollow in the storm fell silent.
“I know what was stolen from you,” he said.
Aren's black fire ignited.
The Gentle King's smile deepened.
“And unlike them…”
He placed a hand over his heart.
“…I can make them love you again.”
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