Chapter 10:

WOODEN SPOONS

Life Without Love


Aren had never defeated Darius Vale.

Not as a child.

Not as a cadet.

Not after becoming captain.

The old marshal possessed an infuriating relationship with physics.

He believed every attack had already failed.

Reality usually agreed.

Aren's sword broke in forty seconds.

Darius kicked him through a vegetable stall.

Corin shouted, “Excellent technique!”

Aren lay among cabbages.

“You're welcome to help.”

“I am helping emotionally.”

“You're terrible at it.”

“Fair.”

Darius approached.

Heartguard fought across the square.

Hadrik held three soldiers alone.

Lyssa had transformed fountain water into glowing symbols.

Seris was treating wounded people from both sides, swearing at anyone who objected.

Aren rolled as Darius's sword struck stone.

He grabbed two wooden serving spoons from the destroyed stall.

Darius paused.

Aren stood.

For the first time the marshal's empty expression cracked.

Memory.

“You cannot be serious.”

Aren held one spoon like a dagger and the other like a short sword.

“Technique matters more than dignity.”

Darius stared.

Then something impossible happened.

He laughed.

One sound.

Short.

Startled.

But real.

Aren's heart stopped.

Darius looked equally shocked.

The Resonance Engine atop Merrow's tower flickered.

Aren understood instantly.

Memory had bypassed Severance.

Just as with Seris.

Not the emotion itself.

The path toward it.

“Again,” Aren said.

Darius attacked.

Wooden spoon met Heartsteel.

The spoon exploded.

Aren threw the other.

It struck Darius's forehead.

Corin screamed with delight.

Darius blinked.

Aren tackled him.

They crashed through the stall.

Darius punched Aren.

Aren hit him back.

For several seconds the greatest marshal in the kingdom and its most disgraced captain rolled through cabbages like drunken brothers.

Then Darius pinned him.

Sword at Aren's throat.

“Yield.”

Aren smiled through blood.

“You laughed.”

Darius froze.

Aren saw fear.

Real fear.

“You felt something.”

“No.”

“Yes.”

“The Engine—”

“Isn't perfect.”

Darius's hand trembled.

Aren whispered, “Come back.”

Something happened behind the marshal's eyes.

Pain.

Memory.

Love.

Grief.

All at once.

Darius dropped the sword.

He screamed.

Across the city, the Heartspire pulsed.

Lyssa looked toward the tower.

“Aren!”

He turned.

Black fire had connected him to Darius.

The negative Resonance inside Aren pulled against the Engine.

He had become a counterweight.

Lyssa saw it.

“Keep going!”

“How?”

“Make him remember!”

Aren grabbed Darius.

“What was your wife's name?”

Darius shook his head violently.

“No.”

“What was her name?”

“Stop.”

“You buried her beneath a cedar tree.”

“Stop.”

“You visited every year on the first snow.”

“STOP!”

“What was her name?”

Darius screamed.

“MAELIN!”

The Heartspire cracked.

Across the square, citizens stopped.

A woman dropped a basket.

“Maelin,” Darius sobbed.

Aren held him.

The marshal gripped Aren's coat.

“I loved her.”

“Yes.”

“She died.”

“Yes.”

“I couldn't—”

“I know.”

“I asked them to take it.”

Aren froze.

Darius looked at him.

“I volunteered.”

Aren's anger faltered.

“Why?”

“Because I was tired.”

There it was.

Not conspiracy.

Not coercion.

A grieving man.

Rhest had offered anesthesia.

Darius accepted.

How many others had?

Aren looked around Merrow.

Perhaps the Gentle King did not need conquest.

Only exhausted people.

People willing to trade pieces of themselves for relief.

Darius wept.

The Engine cracked again.

Seris shouted from across the square.

“It's destabilizing!”

Lyssa ran toward the tower.

“We need to isolate the core!”

Aren stood.

Darius caught his wrist.

“Rhest knows you're alive.”

“I assumed.”

“No.”

Darius's face was frantic.

“He needs you alive.”

Aren frowned.

“Why?”

“The Resonance you carry.”

“What about it?”

Darius swallowed.

“It isn't random.”

Cold spread through Aren.

“What?”

“Blackhold's Engine was designed to transfer bonds into you.”

Aren stared.

“Why?”

“I don't know.”

“Darius.”

“I swear.”

The marshal closed his eyes.

“But I heard Rhest call you something.”

“What?”

“The Vessel.”

Aren stepped back.

Lyssa screamed from the tower.

“Aren!”

He ran.

Inside the Heartspire, gold cables wrapped around a black crystal.

Lyssa circled it with runes.

Corin hung upside down from a support beam.

Aren decided not to ask.

Hadrik guarded the door.

Seris entered behind Aren.

“The entire city is connected.”

Lyssa nodded.

“If we break the core normally, neural backlash could kill everyone.”

Aren looked at the black crystal.

“Then we don't break it normally.”

Lyssa's eyes widened.

“No.”

“Worked at Blackhold.”

“You nearly died.”

“Bad habit.”

Seris grabbed him.

“Stop volunteering to become containers for magical catastrophes.”

“I have a specialized skill set.”

“This is not funny.”

“I disagree.”

The Severance moved through her.

Seris clenched her jaw.

“Wooden spoons.”

Aren stared.

“Seris—”

“Wooden spoons.”

Her hand tightened.

“I am choosing to care whether you live.”

Something inside Aren cracked.

Not painfully.

A wall.

He had accepted that nobody could love him.

That acceptance had protected him.

Hope now entered through the opening Seris created.

Terrifying.

Bright.

He touched her hand.

“I'll try.”

“You always say that.”

“Do I?”

“Frequently.”

Aren turned toward the Engine.

He placed both palms against the crystal.

Black fire exploded.

Merrow screamed.

Every lost connection in the city rushed toward Aren.

Parents remembering children.

Spouses remembering promises.

Friends remembering jokes.

Enemies remembering why they hated one another.

Grief returned.

So did joy.

Aren received everything.

The burden became impossible.

He saw his mother.

Not real.

Memory.

She held him as a baby.

A bond severed from her side but preserved somehow inside the Chorus.

He saw Mara chasing him through a field.

Elara kissing him beneath summer rain.

Darius placing a captain's insignia in his hand.

All stolen.

Stored.

Measured.

Catalogued.

Then Aren found something hidden beneath them.

A command.

Written into the structure of Severance itself.

VESSEL PREPARATION: COMPLETE.

AWAITING CROWN OF QUIET.

Aren understood.

The Heart Court had not sentenced him to punish him.

They had hollowed him deliberately.

A human body with every emotional channel emptied.

A container capable of holding impossible quantities of Resonance.

The Gentle King did not want to kill Aren.

Neither did Rhest.

They needed him for something.

Something called the Crown of Quiet.

Aren tore his hands away.

The Engine shattered.

Merrow woke.

Thousands of people began screaming.

Mothers ran toward forgotten children.

Husbands collapsed beside wives.

Brothers embraced.

Others fought.

Some wept.

Some laughed.

The city became chaotic, painful, loud.

Alive.

Aren fell.

Seris caught him.

He looked up at her.

“The Crown of Quiet.”

“What?”

“That's why they made me.”

“Made you what?”

He laughed weakly.

“Empty.”

Then he passed out.

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