Chapter 35:

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Something's Not Right


For
as long as

I can remember

I've only wanted

to die.

Wanting to live—
that's something
that's not

crossed my mind in a long time.

I've never

thought
to ask myself

a question like that.

Living's hard.
I don't like living.

I pretend not to hear
the tune of Moonlight Sonata

calling the patients

together.

Outside the window
of the main hall,

there's a full moon.

It's small

in the large expanse
of Singapore's sky.

I sit in my armchair and close my eyes.

Tammie
doesn't

come sit with me.

I want them
to give me

an injection

or whatever
they were doing in the past

that didn't require me
to get out of bed.

Is this counted as wanting

to die?
Or live?

Tammie.

I think of her suddenly
and open my eyes.

She's sitting in her own armchair,

watching me.

Smiling
apologetically.

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