Stress

I stepped out into the hallway. All I saw were the same white walls that decorated my room. The walls were brighter but darker all at the same time. There was a feeling of sadness, but I guess that is just how it goes here. When all my thoughts were running amuck, Mr. Sato was right beside me. "Mr. Sasaki, are you all right?" His tone of voice was a mix of concern and hesitation, "Let's go," he said. I was nervous, scared, and happy all at the same time. My emotions were all over the place. "She is going to be okay," I reassured myself. I calmed down a little as soon as we started walking. My mother was on the third floor while I was on the seventh floor, I had overheard the nurse talking about it earlier. "You know, Mr.Sasaki, it might be a while before your mother is awake right?" As Mr. Sato spoke, his face looked grim. It felt like he was hiding something, but I could not figure out just what it was. After we reached the elevator, I slowly studied the inside of it. It was like the hospital room that I had woken up in, but somehow it felt even more suffocating. There was a lingering feeling of being trapped with no way out, and it gave me a sense of unease. When we were walking, I started to notice the small details I would have never even batted an eye at, like paint chipping off the walls. I stepped into the elevator, but soon as I did, the sense of unease just grew. "Mr. Sasaki, the more you are on edge, the more you are going to make people around you stressed as well." Mr. Sato chided. I stared into his eyes as he spoke. Even though they are just a simple shade of black, it looked like his eyes were an entirely separate universe altogether. Mr. Sato's voice broke through my thoughts. "Mr. Sasaki, we've arrived." The moment the elevator came to a halt, I fell to the floor and groaned in discomfort. As I opened my eyes again, I saw Mr. Sato's hand reaching out to me. I reached for his hand and held it firmly. He pulled me up and then said in a soft but gallant voice, "Let's go." The door opened, and as it did, a little bit of dust came out. With the door opened, the hallway looked as if it were more new than the floor we were previously on. I noticed the railing on the walls was made of metal instead of wood. I stepped out into the room and felt air rush past me. My footsteps echoed in the hallway, it had more of an airy feeling to it. I looked around me. The floor was checkered like a chessboard, and the walls weren't as chipped as the previous floor. It gave a more modern feel as if everything was new. I looked at Mr. Sato, then I looked past him down the hallway. I had a feeling of hope warming my chest. Like when you find something to look forward to and that everything is going to be alright. Unfortunately, you know that feeling will eventually go away. That is the feeling I had, but that is one thing I do not want to admit to myself. "Mr. Sasaki your mother's room is just up ahead." The only word I could muster up was "Okay." We started walking. I looked down at the floor and was able to see my reflection. My hair was covering my eyes, but you could still see the vivid color of green. I had the same green eyes as my mother and black hair. I could see I looked so much like her, but so different at the same time. "We're here," He said, Mr. Sato's tone didn't change, but it somehow felt different. Though, I can't put it into words. I looked up, but suddenly I got scared. I reached for the door handle and started shaking. Huh, I thought to myself. I tried convincing myself that everything was going to be okay, but it wasn't. I could feel my anger and sadness. All of these emotions were overwhelming. I am very familiar with these feelings, but they felt so different. My instincts told me to run. Run as fast as possible and far as possible. But my body froze. All I could do was leave my hand out on the doorknob and shake like a freezing wet puppy. I was scared. I looked at my hand and thought to myself. Open the door. "Please, I'm sorry for everything I did wrong. But God, please give me the strength to do this." I calmed myself enough to open the door.

Sorry I have not updated the novel I had surgery so I did not have time