Part III

Suddenly I felt a big arrow pierce my heart. I felt it shatter and become fragmented. It was as if I was losing my mind when I found out that the two most important people in my life were cheating on me. Why they did do this to me? What have I done wrong to punish me like this? I locked myself in the room and no one else talked to me. I did not go to work without saying to my boss. Drink a lot of alcohol and abuse too much. I have lost interest in the world. I don’t care if I died. That lasted for a few months and I still can't forget what they did to me.

After 2 months, my mom and dad knocked on the door to talk to me. I ignored them because I didn't care. I looked at myself in the mirror and it was as if I saw a zombie in front of me. My appearance has changed from the way I looked before. I feel like I’m a drunken master. I knew they were very worried about me and I was guilty of what I did to myself so I just let them in.

My parents talked to me because they had news to give me. I received a wedding invitation from Pat and big brother, and they wanted me to be there. I told them I couldn't go because I really couldn't. Dad told me that no matter what happens, I will not give up on the battle of life. It hurts to accept what happened, but need to move on. I looked at myself in the mirror again and realized that I should not be like this for the rest of my life. I hugged my parents and felt their love as much as the love Pat gave me. Somehow, I feel a little relieved. I thought when they were both happy, I could be happy too.

I just thought of writing a letter for the two of them. I still can't face them because I will gradually build myself up. Get up and move on. Even so, I still wished for their happiness. I gave my blessing to them. I know they will be happy from now on.

“The person I’m about to talk about is the most amazing person you will ever be able to marry, the person whom I fell in love with. I never felt anything close to how I feel for her with anyone else. She is the only person in this world I have ever felt natural to, the only one who could understand me and my feelings.

When I’m writing this, all I can think of is One more time, to hear her beloved voice, to smell her addicted smell, to see her pretty face.

One more chance, to be with her, to be the person who will try to make her feel like how she deserves.

Thank you, Patricia, for being the person you are, I will never be able to forget you, you will always have that spot in my heart, then now and forever.

For my dearest big brother, thank you for supporting me all the time. I’m sorry if I couldn’t go to your wedding. I still can’t. If ever the time comes, I will likely see you after a while. I wish you all the best.

Congratulations on your wedding and I can’t wait to see your child.

- Ken "

The more precious someone to you, the harder it is for you to accept the fact that there will be no more time, there will be no more chance, and all left are memories. She is the most precious person to me, and anywhere, at any time I will be willing to do anything for her best.

If you love someone, don't make the same mistake I did, do not take those good times for granted. Experience the moment as it's your last chance to be with them. Always let them know how you feel and never take them for granted.