The cassette of his life, part 2

                                                            "Tomorrow"

This was my worst day ever. I just couldn't believe that my father is a cult leader. And on top of that, he made me for Satan. I'm not even mad, I'm just dissapointed. I don't even know why my mom wanted me to know this stuff. 

I also told everything to my grandfather. He was heartbroken. I could see that he was mad. I feel that he wanted to get some revenge. He told me this: " Yuko if you ever go to search for your dad, I'm coming with you.". I was surprised by that. I was happy. I deffinitly didn't expect him to say that. He's almost 78, so if i go to search for my dad once, i better make a hurry.

                                                             "4 hours"

I'm sitting on my bed. Thinking about if I'm gonna watch the second part. This time grandfather is here to. He said he wanted to watch it to. The cassette is still in the cassetteplayer from yesterday. I turned on my small TV my grandfather bought me. It pops up directly. I've decided. I'm going to watch it together with grandfather. It starts again from the beginning. Honestly, I don't even wanna see, it. But I'm too curious. If I'm not gonna watch it know, my whole life is kinda going to be a mystery. I fast forward the video. It's 4 minutes left. She continues: " It was a dirty cult, I met your father on work. We liked eachother, so we decided to have a date. We would meet at a pub. 5 minutes of talking, I had a vision. God was right in front of me. He told me that this is " The man", "The man to make your child with". But God lied, it wasn't " The man to make my child with". It was a man pure of horror inside of him. He didn't tell me he was in a cult. 4 months later, when we were already a couple and when we already had you. I once visited his appartment (PS: we never lived by eachother) I saw a log lying on his bed. It said " private!!" on the front. He just went out to do groceries. I know it's not right to look into people's personal things, but i did it. I checked it. There were about 5 pages filled with text, so not to much. I was reading it, on the second page i saw something weird. The title was: YUKO for cult. I read everything about it. I read how he was in a cult. I read how he was in a cult. I read how he had to make a child to offer to Satan. I was in tears. That was the moment i knew God lied to me. I immediatly left his appartment, without even seeing him come back from the grocery store or texting him. A few hours later he called me. He asked me why i suddenly left. I never told him i knew about the fact that he was in a cult. I just said that my boss called me for work. So yeah, that was the awful story of me and your dad." She grabs something out of the shelf behind her. I think it's a picture. It's the picture of my dad where his head is ripped out!! But it doesn't seem like his head is ripped out. She says:" This is the only photo of your dad I have. On his left side is his brother, on his right side his mom, you've seen now how your dad looks, so I'm gonna rip his head out of it now. You don't need to see his face everytime, this is the end of the cassette. Hope you enjoyed it :).". This was the cassette.

That was the cassette. I don't know how, but the second part made me hope to go search him. I want to have a long conversation with him. Because i know, deep inside of him, there's something great. Grandfather is a bit relieved to. He also has more hope to go search him. I'm happy now that i know more about him. I know the city and the street where dad lives. I think it's kind of decided.

Me and grandfather are gonna search for him.