The day I made the promise

Greetings my name is Haric Tama I am an 45 years old  adult who due to bad decisions made in my youth i suffer the consequences. I had a wonderful and loving wife but because of my gambling and alcohol addiction I lost her.Misaki was so understanding, loving and I was so stupid, so damm stupid, that I lost our house at roulette in a casino. Even when we were forcibly evicted from the house where we lived, she did not leave me, I remember it was January in the middle of winter. With a warm expression with a smile on his face and tears in his eyes she told me not to be upset everyone  mistakes mistakes everything will be fine as long as we are together we can overcome any obstacle. Then she hugged me tightly and whispered in my ear no matter what happenes I will always be by your side.There and then I promised that I would no longer participate in gambling and that I would become a husband who truly deserved her love.I managed to find a rent the next day and I found a job as a cook at a small  fmvamily restaurant  for 4 years I worked hard and my wonderful wife worked as a waiter. We managed to raise the money needed to buy a country house, a small house with a little land so that we could live togheter in peace.Two days before buing  the house, I gave in to the temptation and stole the money we had both raised and went to the casino, where we lost everything.After I lost everything, the security guards threw me out of the casino like a garbage bag. Not that I didn't deserve it, being angry I went home I remember it was 2 o'clock at night. Misaki was waiting for me with the table set  to eat together. In a worried voice she asked me when I entered where you were and what had happened. Being very angry, I said I lost all the money. She fell to her knees began to cry and shout at me, wondering where my head was. Rising from her knees in a very accusing voice, she asked me: how dare you do such a thing? I thought you changed, I can't go on like this. Being very angry, I did something unforgivable and hit Misaki so hard that she fell over the table with the food. Without saying a word, looking at me with fear, hatred and disgust, she got up and locked himself in the bathroom.At the time because I was drunk I didn't realize what a mistake I had made and I went to bed to sleep.Waking up in the morning I noticed that Misaki was not in the house, going to the kitchen I saw the table overturned table with broken plates I remembered the mistake I made and the conversation with her. Out of sheer despair, I fell to my knees and began to cry like a baby.Not knowing what to do, I started looking for Misaki everywhere at  her workplace at her friends  she was nowhere to be found. After the evening came, I thought about going to her parents. The next morning I got on the first train to Osaka. Arriving in front of her parents' house, I felt guilty as I rang the bell. Her father opened the door and with a hatred in his eyes as if he wanted to kill me there and then he said to me in a very threatening voice: you no longer have the right to be with my daughter or to return . With that, he slammed the door in my face. One week later I received the divorce papers in the mail. Of course I signed them without any complaint, in the end it's all my fault. I had a welcoming home and a loving wife. What did I need more? I'm such a stupid fool.After that I started drinking so hard that I couldn't stand on my own two feet, I didn't show up for work so my contract was canceled. Since i no longer have a job, I could no longer pay my rent, I was kicked out of the house. That being said, it brings us to the present. Now I work at a questionable restaurant where I wash dishes of course without a contract or with any legal form of employment.I earn next to nothing. But it is enough to pay the rent in a questionable apartment complex and for 2 cup ramen a day. The work schedule starts at 7 in the morning and is ready around 11 at night 7 days a week is hard but at least it is a life. I had everything a person could want but I kicked everything and what is worse is that I hurt the person I loved and still love. Miraculously today, the boss let me go faster and gave me more money than usual. Is the sun finally rising on my street too? Today I will shorten the road home through the park. It is not well lit and I doubt anyone will be there at this time. Speaking of the devil, the gate of the park.I had reached the  middle of the park when I heard a woman screaming, I ran in that direction and saw two men trying to rob her. Telling me it would be time to start doing good things, I intervened and managed to scare the thieves and they ran away. I bent down to pick up the woman's purse from the floor and asked her if she was okay. After handing over my purse, I felt a sharp pain in my back. I couldn't breathe anymore. One of the thieves turned back and stabbed me afther that he  ran away. When I fell down, I reached for the woman i asked her to help me and call an ambulance. She took her purse and ran away without saying anything. I struggled to breathe and felt my lungs fill with blood I told myself this îs what i recidive for trying to help.But I have no regrets, at least I saved that woman from a possible death.At least I did a good thing in this miserable life of mine. Misaki where are you I hope you are happy. With my last strength I promised myself that if I ever came to reincarnate I would live a straight and dignified life.