Level 4-4

Hey there, Gaia, wassup!

You weren’t online today, I thought you’d be streaming?

Crush!

Yeah, today ... somehow an impromptu threeway stream between me, Val and Big-Tuber-San happened on her channel

Wow, that’s cool

Shame I missed it.

It was fun!

I got married, heheh.

???

What?

In-Game! In-Game ...

Thank GOD, you gave me a heart attack

Why, you jealous? ;P

No lol.

After that he was just typing for a while. Maybe I actually hit the spot?

Come to think of it ... I don’t even know, why he would be jealous. What even this ... silly crush is supposed to be. We haven’t even had a proper talk in a while.

I let myself sink into my pillow.

We started to talk, just as the pandemic hit. With no-one else around, we’d be talking to each other constantly. Of course, it all started with our DnD group. So, all of our „actual“ conversations were reserved to the calls on the server.

Me of course roleplaying as that dumb muscle-girl I somehow conjured into existence.

But it helped.

Our texts became occasionally flirtatious.

And that’s that. That’s where we left off.

Things started getting back to normal. People started meeting up. And I blocked off any chance at meeting that guy.

Maaaan, I’m an asshole.

Was there still anything there?

Or was it just the 2020 version of a summer fling?

I was saved by a Discord notification lighting up my screen.

So, you’ve probably seen me typing for a while. I don’t really know, how to say, what I want to say. Things have changed between us? I have so many ... weird feelings when it comes to you, and I’d like to get them out of the way. I feel, like lately you have been distant, I guess. I mean, yeah 6 feet, pandemic, screen, hahah. But ... we don’t chat as often as we do, and we haven’t even met up irl, despite restrictions being lifted for a while now. I get, that you might have safety concerns, be it your health, or just the fact, that I am some dude from the internet. Although, no, scratch the latter, we literally share the same friend group. I just ... wanna know what’s up.

Crap.

Oh no, you’re completely mistaken!

Okay, Guy, time to ... do your thing!

I haven’t meant to get so distant, it’s just ... this V-Tubing thing has been very time-consuming, which is why I haven’t really had time for you. On that note, I am so sorry, we’ve been missing each others streams. I do want to meet you. It’s just ... I am scared of you finding out, who I am in real life.

I hid the truth behind some flowery words, but I did not lie.

I waited for him to type out his message.

Well, you took that risk, when going to the DnD meetup, right?

For the record, I actually was sick lol

Yeah, that’s true.

And on top of that, I literally met Val and Nadeshiko the other day, and it was really fun. Even though I am still unsure, if Val’s dislike of me was an act or not.

So, what do you say ...

We go to that party Mika invited the entire group to?

Oh right, that was a thing, that was going to happen!

Hesitation, hesitation, hesi- fuck that!

That sounds like a plan!

In case things go awry I can still get you wasted, and hope you black out and forget the whole evening!

Yeah, maybe it’s a good thing, when you are a bit different irl, than right now.

It goes without saying, that message made me smile just a bit.

Looking forward to that :)

Me too <3

I really did.