KAGEYAMA’S PERSPECTIVE & HIRO’S DECISION.

In this chapter, we are going to learn about Kageyama and what he thinks about Hiro. Let’s get started.

Hello, my name is Kageyama. I’m 17 years old and in high school. This is my first time introducing myself, so I guess it was good. When I was in middle school, I was different from the students around me. I often stayed alone. I was always looking for something. Maybe I was looking for some people, people with whom I would feel alive and happy. I don’t have friends who people call best friends. So I wanted to be friends with people like that. I wanted to be friends with someone, someone like the people who are called best friends. Best friend who has always been by your side. Whether you’re in trouble or not, they will be by your side. It's not like I didn’t have friends back in those days. I had friends, but I felt like they never considered me as a friend, so I always felt like I should not belong here.

Now I have started going to high school. Now my high school life has begun. On my way to school, I was thinking about how I should do things this time. How do I become friends with someone who will consider me his friend? Because I don’t want to repeat my past again. I just want to live a happy and exciting life. I reached the school. Suddenly, I started to feel uneasy because I couldn’t find the answer I was looking for a few moments ago and also, here there were people who were happy about their high school life. They are going to live their lives with new friends. It's not like that I’m not happy for them; I was happy for them. At the time, I felt like if I become friends with someone, I’d be able to live my life the way they live!

I went to the rooftop since I was feeling uneasy. I was thinking about my childhood. A few minutes later, something unexpected happened. A boy came onto the rooftop. I don’t know why but he seems to be terrified of me. I didn’t know what happened to him. He was really scared of something. He was trembling, and suddenly he started to say something like, “What was that?” What the hell happened? How did that happen? When?..

..I wanted him to calm down, but didn’t know what to do. I had a cold drink in my bag, so I think it will help to calm down a bit. So I stood up. When I was standing up, I heard him say something like, “She lost her.” It was something like that, and I ran to where my bag was. I grabbed the drink and ran straight towards him. Hey, Hey, calm down. If you drink this, you will feel better.

I called him several times, but I think he didn’t hear my voice. Finally, he looked up at me. When I saw his face, he was crying, so I asked him, “Hey, what happened to you?” “What are you saying and why are you crying?” But when I saw his eyes, it scared me. I was shocked after seeing those eyes is. Those eyes of his are practically dead, there is no hope left in it. In those eyes of his, I saw pain, regret, guilt, and remorse and that’s not all of it, It felt like he had been carrying this burden for years now. Who is this guy anyway? How can someone get himself into a situation like this? This is insane. Man, look at yourself. How can you do this to yourself? I know more than anyone how it feels to carry those emotions, because those eyes of his remind me of myself.

After that, I gave him some space so he could calm down. At that time, I was thinking about what would’ve happened to him. I have never met or seen such a person. He seemed like he had gone through tremendous emotional torture. I get scared whenever I think of it. I can’t imagine how much this guy may have suffered. But I know that this guy has been suffering for years now. He has already suffered a lot, but he is still suffering. It’s not easy to carry those emotions with you over the yearsIt is a fact that some people forget their promises in a year or two, but he has been carrying those emotions for years now.

That!! Now I don’t care if I get friends or not, I will help him. I will help him to solve his problem. After that day, I started watching him. I wanted to know about him first. The only two expressions on his face were when I saw him. The first sorrow and the second happiness Sometimes he looks happy, and sometimes he looks overly sad. But whenever I saw him, the emotions in his eyes were the same as the ones I saw that day. His mood was starting to change. There is something weird about it. I noticed something. Whenever he looks at Sakura, that expression on his face changes. For that moment, he looked happy.

So I thought something happened between them or There is a possibility that they might know each other. If they knew each other, what would have happened between them for him to look like that?

I continued to keep an eye on him. Many times, he noticed that I was keeping an eye on him. After a few days, I decided that I was going to talk to him and provoke him so I could get an answer. That way, I can know the truth about him. So it will become easy for me to grasp the situation so I can help him. I know it is not the place for me to do this because we don’t know each other, but the thing is, I want to help him but also don’t want to pry into his life. This is the only way I can think of right now.
 Today is the day I’ll talk to him. I thought I’d have to say something bad about Sakura, so I’ll get my answers by pointing out his weaknesses. But when I talked to him, I didn’t say anything bad about Sakura. I asked him if he liked Sakura or not, because I wanted to become very close to her. It was all just to provoke him, though, and it didn’t work on him. He said, “Do what you want; I don’t care.” I guess he was not an easy target, so I said let’s become friends. Now let’s see what he will answer.

Now we will see what Hiro’s answer was to Kageyama’s.

I was shocked for a few seconds. For the first time in all these years, someone asked me to be their friend. It felt good though. I think it would be good to become friends with someone like this guy. It would be nice. Because this guy is a good person, but I’m afraid I won’t be able to play buddy-buddy right now. I would have to refuse his offer.

Sorry.

I don’t have time to play buddy-buddy with someone. I have some important matters to settle. There might be some other guys who want to play buddy-buddy with you, so you can play with them.

Oh, is that so? With the help of you, I might have gotten closer to Sakura, but now you have refused, so it can’t happen.

With the help of me? I don’t know what you are talking about.

You either know exactly what I am talking about, or you pretend that you don’t really know. Anyway, it can’t be helped.

Is it over or do you have anything to talk about? Because I have something important to do. Yeah, yeah. I don’t have anything to talk about now. Sorry,

I turned him down. It would’ve been good if I accepted his offer, but I can’t do that. She is still suffering because of me, so I can’t do this, at least not now.

Let’s see what will happen tomorrow.