chapter 4 Between Hope ,and Despair

chapter 4 

Between Hope ,and Despair

Michelle sat down on the ergonomically designed armchair and continued to go through the multitude of materials she had brought from work, but something kept bothering her. She was mysteriously nervous and frustrated.

"What's the matter with me? Why am I nervous? My brain is going crazy? Oh, well, with someone like Abraham, no wonder. "

She opened her bag lying next to her ,and reached in to grab a smoke, but the package inside her bag suddenly gave her a trance,

,and she suddenly remembered with excitement ,and anxiety.

"Wow, how could I forget this test? I am going to do it right now."

She opened the package quickly, took out the pregnancy kit, and glanced at the pamphlet.

"Come on…I already know this by heart. I can be a guidance.

counselor for pregnancy tests."

She threw the pamphlet into the bin next to her ,and hurriedly went into the bathroom. The five minutes that she was in the bathroom giving herself the routine test passed by quickly. She left the bathroom with the kit in her hand and threw the wrapper into the bin. She lounged on the couch in the living room and placed the package on the table.

"Too bad. Abraham has messed up sperms. Exactly like him! The result is that I'm get be fucked ,and Abraham just looks to get laid anxiously.

"I can't tell him I'm taking this test! He's always warning me not to get pregnant. That pervert only cares about his dick. I'll continue to tell him that I'm on the pill. He can bite me! He doesn't want a baby, but I do… It's my right ,and even my duty! I want a baby. I need a baby. I'll surprise Abraham."

The clock kept moving. But unlike before, she wasn’t anxious to see.

the results,

"Maybe if I give the kit a little more time, God will grant me the wish. I am so longing for…maybe I'll finally feel happy like all those women with the flat belly."

Two more minutes went by as she held her breath, picked up the kit with her shaking hands, and peeked at it. Her eyes focused on the two strips of the package. Her mouth opened, shocked, her eyes were about to burst out of their sockets. The truth hit her like the A- bomb thrown on Hiroshima. She closed her eyes and opened them slowly.

"It's two strips! I can't believe it! I'm finally pregnant!" She jumped up ,and down crazily, held her head with both hands, and couldn't comprehend the truth fallen into her lap.

"Michelle, you're pregnant! You're going to have a baby soon. Wow! You're the man, Abraham! You finally did something useful for humanity!"

Unknowingly, tears of happiness ,and joy poured like Niagara Falls threatening to flood the pleasure ,and tranquility engulfing her. She poured herself a glass of white wine. Her eyes stumbled across a picture of Abraham ,and her when they had met. She emptied the glass in one single lonely gulp.

"Here's to you, Michelle! To you ,and your baby!" Suddenly she grabbed her head worriedly.

"Abraham can't know what's happening! I won't tell him anything! I won't give him this news!"

Michelle hurriedly returned to the bathroom, removed the mask on her face, and took a shower while singing a lullaby in an annoying off tone. She put on perfume, did her hair in a new way, and put on a sexy robe. The thought of being pregnant, having a baby inside her made her want to look sensual ,and erotic, even just for herself. She returned to the living room, sipped the wine enjoyably ,and with a smile, laid on the couch curiously watching the boring movie playing. Despite her efforts to overcome the tiredness taking over her, she fell asleep. Michelle slept with an angelic smile on her face.

Meanwhile, Abraham was driving home after a long, tiring, and frustrating day of work. Abraham continued driving in anger as he pounded the steering wheel furiously, spitting out with disdain. Abraham's car slowly moved up the one-way street where his house was located on the ground floor where an unkempt yard lay. The yard was fenced with an iron net, and the center of which was an iron gate used to go out to the street. Abraham parked his car in the space inside the yard. He left the car still in an angry ,and foul mood because of the legs, island crazy boobs that slipped away from him. The cluttered look of the yard he promised to take care of ,and the small dirty, damaged shed by the parking space disgusted him.

"I don't have time to clean…but Michelle, should take care of the

yard, such a parasite!"

He opened the living room's sliding door leading out to the yard.

,and quietly walked in but almost got a heart attack at the sound of the welcoming snores coming out of Michelle. She was lying on the couch with a happy, weird smile while her lips ,and mouth contorted while playing the unfinished symphony of donkey snores coming out of her throat. She didn't feel or sense anything as Abraham walked by her, looking curiously at her sexy apparel. But his gaze immediately turned scornful, and he mockingly mumbled.

"So good you came home to the pigs' pen." He placed his things on the chair across from her and watched Isaac's clothes scattered around.

"I wonder where my sweet son is, my piglet. If he's not in the living

room, what is he doing?”

Abraham walked to the bedroom, opened the door quietly, and peeked in. Isaac slept peacefully with a happy smile on his face. Abraham closed the door, shrugged his shoulders helplessly, and went back to the living room as he mumbled.

"Why don't we open a B&B? A loser hotel?"

His eyes focused on Michelle's sexy body maliciously, and he approached her stealthily. His dark mind schemed. ,and an increased sensation of horniness flooded his mind ,and landed forcefully on his awakened penis. Michelle smiled pleasurably and felt pleasant electrical currents. Sure, she was dreaming as Abraham's hand slowly ,and gently stroked her legs moving slowly towards the lost heaven. His pants ,and underwear were down around his ankles, and his penis was ready ,and waiting for the charge. Michelle gurgled in pleasure. Her tongue licked her luscious lips, and her naked legs decided to part. A pure sense of happiness crawled from her brain to her stomach. That seized her like an epileptic patient. The sound of pleasure ,and lust came out of her throat. The sensation of intimate stimulation continued lower to the area between her legs and drove her crazy! Abraham, controlled.

,and hypnotized by his erected penis, bent over her, and started spreading her legs to bring down the last defense line! Suddenly Michelle's mind sent her back to reality. The illusion faded as she anxiously awoke. At the sight of his grotesque figure ,and his disgusting acts, she backed off ,and screamed at him.

"Are you crazy? What are you trying to do? Are you mad? Can't you see I'm sleeping?" Abraham forcefully tried to keep her from closing her legs; she struggled and refused to comply. He heard himself screaming from within himself.

"I need to be inside you right now. Don't interrupt me! I'm hot for you like an erupting volcano. My balls are exploding with superhuman strength.” Michelle managed to push him off her,

stood up like the world champion boxer defending his title, and suddenly remembered the pregnancy kit she did.

"Stop it right now, Abraham. Don't do it. I must tell you something important!"

She immediately stopped talking, praying he didn't hear what she said, or maybe he heard but didn't take notice. Amazingly surprised

,and curious, Abraham immediately stopped his attempts to cling to her ,and pulled up his pants.

"What happened? What important thing do you want to talk about now? What could be more important than us be inside Ing now? What's more important?" Abraham fearfully backed up as she smiled ,and cringed to him, grabbing his hand.

"I was kidding, Abraham…there's nothing important! I'm tired now.

,and going to sleep, do not disturb me." Abraham prevented her from leaving, grabbed hold of her arm.

"Stop playing games with me! I'm not letting you move until you tell me what happened." Abraham tightened his hold cruelly until Michelle screamed.

"Okay, I'll tell you… I'm pregnant, Abraham! We're going to have a

sweet baby boy, or a cute girl… I'm finally pregnant."

Abraham broke out in laughter. Her joke amused him! Pregnancy

,and baby stuff interested him like the weather on Mars. he always avoided this subject if he could. He cynically ,and scornfully asked, "You're drunk, right? Or are you high too? What did you take, dope? Coke? Advil?"

To his amazement, she started laughing happily, which boiled his blood even more, and he backed up.

"Sweetie, Abraham, you're right, I'm high! High with joy. With happiness! I did the test twice, and it came out positive. I'm so happy!"

Abraham could barely breathe. The oxygen in the room seemed to be fading! The ground under his feet shook, and his hand quickly reached out to hold on to the table. For the first time in his life, he tried not to crumble like a house of cards. His eyes were blazing, his body shaking, and he whispered ominously.

"You are not pregnant! I warned you that I didn't want a baby! What about the pills? Were you lying to me?"

Michelle hugged and kissed him. Tears streamed down from his eyes. He even backed off in disgust and pushed her away. She didn't relent, held his head, put it on her shoulder, and stroked his hair.

"You want me to lie ,and say I'm not pregnant? I am pregnant, Abraham! Get it into your head. It is your baby, and nothing is going to change that." A long, frightening shriek came out of his throat. He tried to reason, but everything around him turned gray.

,and gloomy.

"I don't want a baby, and I won't let you be pregnant… You're going.

to pay for it now."

His dark sexual instincts mixed ,and bubbled in his confused ,and tormented brain! The demons of lust ,and desire commanded him to give in. He pushed her to the couch and forced her down. He took off his pants ,and underwear as if possessed. Pulled out his penis and tried to cling on to her.

She objected, scratched, hit him with her fists, and yelled out, "Leave me alone…I don't want to screw with you now! Why can't you understand?"

Isaac woke up fearfully, his face was terrified. He didn't understand where the sounds ,and screaming were coming from. He left the bed.

,and tiptoed to the living room. Abraham's senses were clouded, his mind was in a lustful trance. He faced the supreme goal. The divine wished to enter her! Isaac peeked. He didn't understand what was happening between them, but his small mind sensed something dangerous, and evil was happening right now. Part of him commanded him to go back to bed, but curiosity ,and excitement.

won over, and he continued peeking. Michelle whimpered and tried to resist with the last of her strength, but this just caused Abraham to stiffen. He could not back down even though he knew what he was about to do was wrong.

"I must do it. It's better if you don't disturb me! It's my right ,and prerogative." He laughed. "You might not enjoy it, but I'm sure you'll be begging for more…I'll do what I feel like."

Michelle continued to shout in terror, humiliation ,and disgust. Trying as hard as she could to prevent him from coming closer to her, but Abraham was not in control of his madness. He held his member; he grunted like an animal ,and forcefully ,and roughly entered her. Michelle felt like a corpse during the act. She lied without movement, whimpering as he screamed with pleasure ,and ecstasy when his penis emptied into her! Isaac stood paralyzed pale, his body shaking, his mind confused. He didn't know how to absorb the frightening sight. Michelle was hysteric, and a sensation of disgust, despair ,and vengeance filtered through her burning mind. She slammed Abraham's body with fists to hurt him physically ,and screamed out in pain ,and rage.

"You're going to pay for what you did, Abraham! I'm going to the police to say you raped me! Your crazy son of a devil. You are a disgusting chauvinistic pig! I tell you I'm pregnant, and you rape me? You're scum."

Abraham didn't react; he quickly dressed and preferred to erase the last events from his mind! Michelle hurriedly got dressed and started putting her things into her bag without another look at his face. Eventually, the significance of what he did became clear to Abraham. He felt as if the ceiling was falling on his head, and the demon roller coaster entered his brain, terrifying him. Abraham was now scared to death ,and blocked Michelle's path, who was trying to leave the room, breaking out in tears.

"Let me leave! I don't want to stay here. After I file a complaint with the police, I'm never coming back to you."

Abraham paled ,and fearfully backed off. His glance suddenly came across Isaac's frightened face peeking at them.

He looked at Michelle ,and whispered, "Michelle, my love, forgive me, Michelle. I don't know what happened to me! I know I acted like a pig. Like a mad man, please don't go to the police. I love you,

,and I swear I'll never do anything like that again."

Michelle was confused and didn't understand her ambivalence! An inner voice whispered, "You must screw this son of a devil. He did the worst possible thing to you! Go to the police, complain about him. Teach him a lesson."

Another inner voice filtered in; trying to make her forget what happened ,and think rationally, "Don't forget, he loves you…he already apologized ,and promised he would never do it again…,and the most important thing is we have a baby we need to raise together. "

She was going crazy with confusion. One second, she was in heaven, the next, she fell to hell. She didn't know what to do. Wishing she wasn't pregnant ,and had to stand at the gates of life ,and death as tears streamed down her face.

"Forgive me, Michelle, I want the baby. We'll raise it together! If you don't file a complaint against me."

The inner voice that reminded her of his plea for forgiveness ,and his love ,and their baby overcame everything ,and won the case for him. Michelle looked at him ,and whispered, "This time, I'll be considerate ,and forgive you! I won't go to the police. But, if it happens again, I'll nail you! I’ll file two complaints ,and maybe even more. If you annoy me like today, I'll tell the police you raped me whenever you wished, which is about twice a week. ,and that you threatened to kill me if I complained!"

To the amazement of Michelle ,and Isaac, who was still peeking, Abraham allowed himself to burst out in tears! He was now the lead actor in a Hollywood drama and must give a lifetime performance because the movie was to be haphazard on his account. He hugged.

her affectionately, stroked her face tenderly, and kissed her gently, but his eyes were still focused on Isaac.

"I'm sorry, Michelle, you're the only one I've ever loved ,and will love…I was wrong! You ,and our baby. We're all one soul! We belong to one another, and nothing will come between us! Nothing will come between us, On our way to success."

His gaze focused again on Isaac's frightened eyes, and Michelle following his worried look, saw Isaac hiding ,and peeking at them. Michelle was shocked and held his hand fearfully.

"Oh my god, oh my god, Isaac must have seen everything. What shall we do?"

"Don't worry, my love. Let me take care of it."

Abraham whispered in her ear, worried that the kid saw everything might get him in trouble – now or in the future. The thought that the rape would stay in Isaac's mind gave Abraham chills, who was also worried about the terrible prospect that the kid would tell Eve what he saw, and she would have that over his head to have an upper hand over him.

Abraham watched Isaac for a moment ,and then turned to him with a fatherly smile ,and spoke, "Come here, my sweet son! Don't be afraid. Nothing will happen to you; come here, Isaac. I'll explain something important to you."

Isaac wanted to step forward but didn't understand why his legs suddenly weighed a ton and won't take him towards his father. Michelle hurriedly approached Isaac ,and tenderly stroked his head, trying to reassure him.

"Sweet Isaac, don't be afraid…nothing happened. We're not angry.

at you, okay?"

Abraham realized he must recruit all his persuasive powers and acting abilities as a Hollywood superstar. He signaled Isaac to approach him and hugged him warmly.

"My dear son! What you just saw was a bit from a movie; you know your daddy is an actor on television ,and cinema, right? Well, because Michelle wants to be an actor too, what you saw was a rehearsal for a new movie, Michelle ,and I received parts. We must rehearse. Lots of rehearsals! Right, Michelle? Right, my love? My sweetie."

Michelle, stunned, nodded her head in assent. Abraham's words hypnotized her as well as Isaac, "You know, nothing bad happened! Michelle was only kidding about complaining to the police! It was a joke. What you saw didn't happen." Michelle would rather Isaac forget what he saw the sooner, the better.

She hugged him as well. "It's true, Isaac! Daddy didn't do anything bad to me! We were just playing around, kidding, nothing happened" Abraham hurriedly pulled Isaac to him ,and hugged him. He looked in Isaac's eyes.

"Now go back to sleep! Sweet dreams! We're sorry we woke you." Isaac managed to pull himself together, watched them skeptically,

,and tried to smile in understanding,

"Okay, daddy, I won't disturb you again." He turned around and started walking to the bedroom but immediately stopped at the sound of Abraham's cold voice.

"Promise me you won't tell anyone what just happened. Okay, Isaac? If you tell anyone, Michelle, your mother, and I will be incredibly angry with you! We will punish you. You promise not to tell? ,and forget about what happened?"

Isaac turned to them with an embarrassed smile ,and spoke, "Okay, daddy, I promise to forget everything ,and not say anything about what happened."

Isaac watched them with acceptance as his eyes met Abraham’s eyes, who felt that Isaac’s eyes were saying this isn’t over yet! Isaac again turned around and disappeared into the bedroom. Michelle sat on the couch silently and watched Abraham thinking anxiously.

,and didn’t know what to fear more! Abraham or Isaac.