Feeling guilty

Every weekend before graduating from college, I often spent the weekend together with a few diehard friends in a dorm room playing "enough" all night, enjoying the weekend, as Qinger knows, and sometimes accompanied me there. At the moment, looking at my tired look, Qinger takes it for granted that I have gone out to play.

I didn't answer. I suddenly felt sorry and guilty. I felt sorry for Qinger. "I couldn't help but hold Qing'er's hand and ask her, 'Qing'er, are you hungry?'"

"Hmm..." Qinger nodded: "I haven't eaten all day, so I drank a bottle of water."

"I suddenly felt a great sadness in my heart and felt that I was a real bad guy. I wondered how I suddenly became a bad guy, because until then, I had always felt like a good person.". Can a good man become a bad man so soon?

I patted Qinger on the shoulder: "I'll take you out to dinner. What do you want to eat?"

Qinger was happy and pulled my arm and said, "Let me think. What do I want to eat?"

Qinger really tilted her head to think of it. I took the opportunity to look in the mirror and was shocked. There was a small piece of lipstick left on the side of the lower neck. I was very nervous. I glanced at Qinger and saw that she didn't notice. I quickly wiped it off with a wet towel, washed my face well, and combed my hair with a comb.

"Brother Feng, I want to eat Congee." Qinger thought for a long time and finally came up with the answer.

"Well, balance the work of the Congee shop!"

Then, as usual, Qinger took my arm and we went straight to the balance Congee store.

On the way, my heart was in a mess. The balance in my heart was constantly unbalanced. One was Qinger's innocence and tenderness, and the other was Yueer's charm and tenderness. My heart was full of contradictions and struggles. Liu Yue doesn't allow me to say that I love her, but only to say that I like her. In fact, when I calm down, I also feel that it is absurd to say love so soon. After all, love and love are not the same nature. In front of me, Liu Yue always kept calm and calm, and always controlled our progress and direction, while I seemed to be drifting with the tide. I'm not willing to give up Qing'er, but I absolutely can't leave Liuyue!

When I arrived at the Balanced Congee Store, my heart was not balanced.

Next to the Balanced Congee Restaurant is a large hotel - Abalone Wing Building, which is luxuriously decorated, brightly lit, and constantly flowing cars.

Qinger and I had just arrived at the Congee shop. I turned my head to look at the abalone wing building at random, and saw a black crown 3.0 parked at the door. Then, a man with a flat head, about 40 years old, and a big belly got out of the car. Then, a beautiful girl in a white dress with her hair tied in a bun came out of the other door.

I can't help but stay. This woman is clearly Liu Yue!

That man must be the one who called in the afternoon!

I stood in front of the balance Congee shop, and my heart suddenly became unbalanced!

After last night's talk, Liu Yue learned a lot about me, from the past to the present, from experience to experience, from personality to ambition... But I know almost nothing about her, only that she lives alone and is my beautiful leader. I don't know whether she has a husband, children, marriage, past, present, plans and dreams. I only know that she is good at business, rich in knowledge and elegant in temperament. At the same time, I also know that her kung fu in bed is excellent, almost outstanding. Although I don't know how other women are, I can't compare them, but I feel that she is the best in my mind.

I watched Liu Yue and the man affectionately enter the abalone wing building, and the man's hand touched her hip at will.

My heart suddenly became burning, my heart almost stopped, my brain immediately began to congest, my eyes were angry... An indescribable pain and jealousy flooded into my heart, and I could hardly myself.

I looked at the back of the man with a big belly, and I was so jealous that I could not wait to cut the dog with a knife. I think this man must have something to say with Liu Yue

Of course, at the moment, I can't realize that this big belly man will be inseparable from my growth later.

"What's the matter? Why are you so stunned? I'm starving. Come in quickly..." Qinger looked at my door and was stunned, standing in the hall of the Congee shop and called back to me.

I recalled myself and hurried in.

I had a dull dinner, and my heart was always thinking about Liu Yue and the big belly. I listened to Qinger's chatter absently, and casually agreed.

After dinner, Qinger and I walked out of the Congee shop. I looked back at the magnificent abalone wing building and thought that Liu Yue must be eating and drinking with the man with a big belly in a private room, doing dirty things... The dirty hands of the man with a big belly must be swimming in some part of Liu Yue's body... Even the mouth of the man with a big belly is sucking on Liu Yue's delicate lips

I couldn't stand my imagination and reverie. My heart was full of colic. Suddenly I turned my head and ran to the abalone wing building, turning back and said to Qinger, "I'll go to the bathroom inside."

I ran from the first floor to the fourth floor, and almost all the large and small single rooms were closed. I couldn't see them, and I couldn't push the door to see them one by one. I didn't dare. I felt that all the people who came here for dinner were rich people or big people. I didn't have the courage.

Finally, I walked down the stairs dejectedly and said to Qing'er, who was waiting, "Let's go."

My mood is extremely low, my heart is extremely depressed, my heart is extremely painful, my soul is extremely confused

I went back to my dorm with Qinger. It was late. Qinger didn't go back and lived here.

Qinger has lived with me several times before. She slept in bed and I slept on the floor. This time is no exception.

I always feel very pure. I spend the night with my girlfriend. Although I have the impulse to do that, I always keep self-control and sleep quietly on the floor under the persuasion of Qinger.

However, after the romantic affair with Liu Yue, I suddenly felt that maybe my sexual impulse to Qinger was not so strong, and I always felt that it was dispensable, so I could stop under Qinger's dissuasion. Otherwise, if it was Liu Yue, I would be unstoppable to charge and seize the city and land.

Late at night, I lay tossing and turning on the floor and couldn't sleep. I kept thinking about Liu Yue and her big belly. I was jealous and almost went crazy

Maybe Qinger sensed my abnormality today, or she was sensitive to my indifference to her. She also kept turning over and didn't fall asleep.

After a while, Qinger came to me.

Qinger and I embrace each other, as we usually do.

My heart is very astringent and my actions are very passive.

The afterglow of the moonlight spilled into the room, and my eyes were wide open, full of energy and powerless. I looked out of the window at the deep night sky, and my thoughts had flown to the willow moon.

What is Liu Yue doing now? Is it already asleep? Or think of me like I think of her? Or

I don't want to think about it any more. My eyes turned to Qinger's face, and I couldn't help staring. Qinger didn't close her eyes as before, but was looking at me.

"Brother Feng, you have something on your mind, don't you?" Qinger looked at me carefully, her long eyelashes flashing in the moonlight.

"I..." My heart was full of emptiness. "Don't talk nonsense. I have nothing to worry about. I just work..."

"I'm just worried about you. You are too competitive. You need to do your work bit by bit. Don't force yourself too much. Don't put too much pressure on yourself..." Qinger said gently, lying on her side, gently touching my face.

Qinger attributed my unhappiness to the worries and pressure at work. She didn't realize that my feelings for her were quietly changing qualitatively. She never expected me to doubt and shake our feelings for so many years.

My heart felt a burst of guilt, a burst of emotion, what a good Qing'er, what a good woman.

"Don't worry about me, I won't force myself too hard, I won't bear the pressure..." I said quietly

Qinger can't help closing her eyes and enjoying my tenderness.

I looked at Qinger's appearance and felt pain in my heart. I really can't bear to hurt Qinger. I can't hurt Qinger. She is innocent, she is kind

I closed my eyes sadly.

Suddenly, the shadow of Liu Yue appeared unstoppably in my mind, her wild and wild eyes appeared, her loving and caring eyes appeared, and her enchanting and charming expression appeared... I dreamily realized that it was Liu Yue and my Yue'er sister who was hugging and kissing in my arms at the moment

I suddenly felt

My hand was suddenly blocked. Qinger took my hand and whispered softly in my ear: "Brother Feng... don't, I want to wait until that day, that day... I will give myself to you completely... OK?"

In a flash, I woke up. I opened my eyes and saw that Qinger's eyes were still closed, with happiness and innocence on her face, and a faint smile

I mistook Qinger for Liu Yue just now, and almost did that. I'm a fucking bastard. If Qing'er knew what I was thinking at the moment, she would be very sad.

My heart became very clear. I suddenly lost my interest. I let Qinger go, sat on the floor, felt a cigarette, lit it in the dark, and took two deep breaths. A curly smoke slowly rose in the night

Qinger is keeping her virginity for me and keeping the most precious things of women for me. But I gave Liu Yue the first time, the mature young woman who made me crazy.

Looking at the bright moonlight outside the window, I felt confused and suddenly felt lonely and sad.

Yue'er also sat up and hugged me from behind, "Brother Feng, are you angry?"

I didn't speak. I was still thinking about Liu Yue, sitting there motionless.

Qinger saw that I didn't speak, and was silent for a moment. After a while, there came a stripper voice from behind: "Brother Feng..."

I turned my head.

Qing'er in the moonlight looks particularly beautiful.

Qinger looked at me with a little shyness, and the expression on her face was still a little nervous.

I know that the last thing Qinger likes is that I am unhappy. As long as I am happy, she can do anything for me.

I know what Qinger means at the moment. She must think that I am unhappy and angry because I want to get her. She wants me to make further efforts to meet some of my needs.

However, my body has belonged to another woman. That night, I have been cleaned out. My vitality has not recovered. Qinger's beautiful body has not moved me. I would think that except Liu Yue's body, maybe no other woman will make me have real sexual impulse.