Wanting to Cry IN PUBLIC.

I came back to the classroom and immediately went to see Agatta, she was still finishing her lunch in her seat, surrounded by her friends.

"Excuse me Agatta, there is someone looking for you in the hall, they told me it is about something important so…"

"What happened to your face?"

"Divine Retribution."

I had Sume's hand marked on my face due to the supreme slap she gave me a few moments ago, after hitting me with all her might she insulted me until she believed was enough, she told me that I was a failure as a boyfriend, that Agatta was the probably the only one keeping our relationship alive and that I was just a horny monkey that believes that doing nothing is doing enough. However she used a lot of other words that are not appropriate to say. Nonetheless she is right about everything she said, that's why I accepted the slap and the scold as Divine Retribution, however it is better that Agatta listens to her instead of me explaining everything that happened. So I need her to go see Sume in the hall.

"What do you mean by 'Divine Retribution'? I don't understand-" She said, trying to know exactly what happened.

"Listen, I can't explain it right now but maybe the person waiting for you in the hall can, so you should definitely go see them." I interrupted trying to give her a further reason to go there.

And it worked, she got up immediately after I told her that and went out of the classroom. There, Sume was waiting for her, and as soon as Agatta saw who she was, her usually calm face frowned and her attitude went on the defensive. Sume on the other hand was calm and smiling since she was about to ask her for a favor, but before she could talk Agatta confronted her:

"Are you the one that hurt Impo?"

"Well… I guess you can say-"

"Don't you dare screw around with me, you bitch!" She said. Her anger was undeniable, but she kept her voice down so she wouldn't cause a scene.

"C-calm down." Replied Sume. "I know it looks bad but I can explain it. So please meet me at the rooftop after classes are over, I'll explain everything to you there." She was intimidated by Agatta's reaction, so she just asked her for that and then returned to her classroom.

While all that was going on, inside the classroom the girls that were sitting with Agatta were having their own conversation about me while I sat on my desk to eat the rest of my lunch.

"Did you see that he's got a hand marked on his face?"

"Yeah, what happened to him?"

"He must have tried to do something to that girl that was on the door."

"Probably, after all, what other reason would she have for wanting to talk with Agatta."

"Yeah, right? He seemed like a pervert already, but I never thought he would be that brute!"

"Well, he exposed himself to the rest of the school just a few days ago, remember?"

"Ew, don't remind me of that gross thing, I was so excited to see all that the school had and then that thing appeared. Disgusting!"

"I know right! Hahahaha."

It has been two days since that happened, but this was the first time I heard someone make fun of me for what happened. It felt bad, but I know I can't say anything about it. I still don't know how I am going to deal with it, because I know it's going to happen numerous times in the future.

Whilst they were laughing at me Agatta came back to the classroom. Those girls paused their laughter expecting that she was going to rejoin them to finish their lunch, but after she stopped by her seat to get her handkerchief and her water bottle, then she kept going and came straight towards my seat.

"Lift your face." She told me whilst she moistened her handkerchief with the water.

I looked towards her and she wiped the side of my face that had the mark of the hand printed on.

"Honestly, you are such a pain. Why are you always getting into trouble?" She scolded me.

"I'm sorry…"

"Just look at your face, you are not a child anymore, you should act more mature and don't get yourself into any stupid troubles."

I felt really sad by what she was saying, after all it was all true, I don't know why I keep doing all kinds of stupid things. Maybe that’s the real reason as to why Agatta wants to dump me, and after all it is justified, I don’t know if I just didn’t noticed or preferred to ignore the fact that her mind has changed a lot during the last years, I’m still hooked with the same shows I have been watching since I was 10, she has been watching a lot less television and instead she has been reading a lot of books, both modern and classics. All the songs in my phone are from anime and games, she has been listening to a wide variety of artists and some of them are in english too. She has excellent grades and is a great swimmer too, I’m just average in classes and in our club too. She has been discovering a lot of topics recently that she is interested in and might help her choose a career or get into university, I just discovered recently what hentai is and nothing else. Yeah, that surely is the true reason as to why she wants to left me, maybe she never even wanted to be my girlfriend and I have wasted her time all this 3 years we have been together, maybe I’m just dragging her down, I’m just a load that she can’t get rid of because of pity.

With all these thoughts going around in my mind I suddenly felt terrible and wanted to cry. I finally realized that I have been nothing but dead weight that she has to carry around, so I started sobbing while she was still wiping my face.

“What happened?” She asked me, concerned. “Did I hurt you?”

“No, I-I-I’m not good right?” I asked, then some tears came to my eyes.

“What?! What are you saying all of a sudden?”

“You said it! I’m such a pain!”

“No, I didn’t mean it like that…”

“But it's true! I’m not good for nothing! I’m just causing you trouble every time.” Then I really started to cry, not loudly, but still noticeable.

She panicked, I guess it was the last thing she would have thought it would happen, but I felt really bad, so I couldn't help it. To try to make me stop she apologized:

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to make you feel bad, it’s just that…”

“It’s ok, you were just being honest, you have always held it in to not make me feel bad but that is how you truly feel, and I’m sorry…”

“No, I’m sorry, I didn’t…”

“No, I’m sorry, for wasting your time all these years, for slowing you down pretending to be your boyfriend. I’m sorry, now I see why you want to break up with me.”

But once I finished that sentence she grabbed my head and held it against her chest. She did that for a few seconds, then with a cracked voice she said:

“Thank you.”

That was weird, why was she thanking me, there was no reason for that. But then I heard her sob, and I saw a tear come down her eyes.

“Thank you…” She repeated. “I- I’ve had that same thought. The thought that I’m not good enough for you and that all this time we have been together I have been nothing but a nuisance to you. But…” She stopped for a moment, I couldn’t see her face, but her voice changed and it seemed to me that she was smiling when she continued. “But if we both think the same, then it means that things can only change for the better now. We have been in situations like this since we were kids, and we will solve this one in the same way we have always solved them: Together.”

And then she squeezed my head even tighter against her chest.

Maybe the whole class were looking at us at that time, but I didn’t care, this was one of the most beautiful moments that Agatta and I have shared in our lives, I put my hands around her and gave her hug to try to convey all my feelings towards her, I still needed to know her side of the story, why she felt that she was not good enough for me, I needed to let her know that I love her and only her. There is not only ‘good enough’ for anyone, she’s overqualified for the position in my case.

Now… leaving that aside…

I think you already know enough about me to know that things always have two sides. And in this case is that while we were hugging each other and sharing our feelings in the most beautiful way it turns out that I was trying to breath before she hugged me, but since I was crying and my nose was running I opened my mouth to try to breath more air, and at the exact moment I opened my mouth to breath it was also the moment in which she grabbed my head and bury it on her chest.

So, long story short, I had one of her breasts inside my mouth the entire time.

And as I said, I didn’t notice until she finished talking, and now I don’t know what to do about it, because on one hand, I don’t want our hug to be too short, so I never let go of her, but I also didn’t want her to look down and see me gobbling up her chest.

And you know how they say that in situations like this a little angel and a demon show up on your shoulders to tell you what you should do? Well it happened to me.

On one side I had a little devil telling me:

“Stick out your tongue!”

Which was a crazy idea. I definitely was not going to do that. So I waited to hear what the angel had to say. But it appeared and told me:

“You know what? That’s actually a good idea!”

ARE YOU MENTAL? I’M NOT DOING THAT TO AGATTA! SHE WILL KILL ME!

I need to get out of this situation, but how do I do it? When it’s the bell going to ring? Why does time seem to go slower right now? Was Agatta’s chest always this big? Is the teacher going to be mad at us for-

Wait.

What was the last question I asked?

Now it’s not the time to be admiring her chest, no I shouldn’t be…

But it really is bigger than I thought it was…

NO! KEEP A HOLD OF YOURSELF YOU CAN’T BE-

And it has the perfect roundness, it is really…

STOP! STOP RIGHT THERE!

But I wonder how it would feel to touch it with my tongue…

DON’T DO IT!

“Ok, class is about to start, everybody take their seats!”

Thank God the teacher just arrived! Well, I’m happy, but somehow I’m also angry about it. I was so close to really sticking my tongue out. Agatta let go of me once she heard the teacher’s voice, and as she did I put my head down to hide my embarrassment. Then she hurried back to her seat and that was the end of it.

“Damn it!” Said the little angel on my shoulder. “We were so close!”

“Don’t worry!” Replied the devil. “We’ll get them next time!

Then both of them disappeared.