This is New Beginning of My Life

I feel so angry now. Why she can’t even understand me? I get out from the house without thinking too much. I don’t have any money with me. I only have guitar. The sky has already turned dark. I am walking without knowing where I am going. After walking for a while, I arrive at the children’s playground and sit on swings. I take the guitar and start playing a song that I heard sometime from Ai’s MP3. The melody is quite sad. This song talks about a person who can’t found love even after they try so hard. At the end, they give up. I sing with full emotion that somehow; I feel resonate with this song. Without I realize, tears are flowing from my eyes. My heart becomes heavier. Rain suddenly pouring. While I was singing, this thought crossed my mind. Maybe I should try harder to get mom to understand what I want to do. Right! I should not give up! I will tell mom. With the rain does not showing the sign to stop, I make my way to my house. I knock on the door and the door opens. In front of me, is the person who I never thought I would see crying so much.

“Where are you going Yuka? Don’t you know I am so worried about you? Why you left house earlier? Why are your cloth so wet? What are you doing in this rain?”

Then, she pulls me into the house and hugs me so tightly. I can feel her warmth and her sincerity of worries. Her tears started to fall on me. I don’t know if she will worry this much about me.

“Never ever again you left me like that! I am so afraid that you also will left me too!” her voice trembled as she managed to say that to me. Her tear did stop flowing from her eyes.

“I am sorry mom!”

I feel so bad now. I should not have left abruptly earlier. I never know that’s how mom feel about me.

“Now, take a bath first. After that, you can have dinner that I prepare earlier.”

“Mom cooks for a dinner?”

“Of course. Although I think this is first time, I do this for you,” she said while feeling embarrassed. Is she, my mom? Why did I never see her like this before?

“Quickly! You should take a bath now. You must go to school tomorrow, right?”

“Okay mom!”

I take a bath. I put on clothes and go to the dining room to have dinner. At the dining table, mom is waiting for me.

“What do you prepare for dinner, mom?”

“This is chicken soup. I think your dad has prepared this for you before. I don’t if its taste same with your dad’s.”

I take the spoon and taste the soup. It feels so light but warm.

“Its so delicious, mom! It feels different than what dad cook for me before.”

“Really? Yuka, can I tell you something?”

“What is it mom?”

“Do you know why I and your dad divorce?”

“Because two of you no longer have same opinion about each other, right?”

“That’s true. But the real reason is your dad want to focus more on his music career. He is a music producer, and he wants to create more new creations in music. That’s why he asks for a divorce from me. Hearing that, I want to stop him from doing so but he looks so determined. After several times I tried to stop him, I gave up. That’s why, when I saw you playing guitar, I afraid that you will doing same to me.”

“I don’t know that dad is working as music producer. Why did you not tell me earlier about this mom?”

“I just can’t found the right time to tell you.”

“So, the reason I need to study more, is it related to dad?”

“Not everything. I just want to show you, with excellent academic, you can find job that more beneficial than work that related to the music.”

“But there are many people who work in music industry become successful person nowadays.”

“They still work harder than most people. Although they have become more successful people, they still try hard to become better than before. Not everyone can become a musician. Did you want to become musician in future, Yuka?”

“Not really. I still think about my future now.”

“It’s okay then. For now, study harder. So that you can have a bright future. By the way, after this I want to comb your hair. Is this alright for you?”

“Alright mom!”

I finish my meal quickly and go to the living room. There, mom is ready with comb. I sat on the floor and mom started to comb my hair. I can feel the gentle touch of her soft hands.

“Yuka, you should take care of your hair more after this. How can you go to school with hair that look like ghost’s hair?”

“Are you kidding mom? How can you say that my hair is like ghost’s hair?”

“Look at your grade school and middle school picture. Even exorcist will mistake you as ghost if they find you.”

“I don’t care.”

This is my first time to have fun with mom like this. I will always cherish this moment forever. A few minutes later, she done comb my hair.

“Here is the mirror. Do you like your hair now?”

“Is this really me?” I am surprised with my new look. I don’t even know I was this pretty before.

“Yes! You look so beautiful like me when I was a high school student. For the glasses, are you still wearing them? I thought you didn’t have any prescription.”

“I just want to look more mature and cleverer. That’s only the reason I am still wearing those glasses,” I said with a grin on my face.

“You should just stop wearing those glasses. Look! You even look prettier than before without glasses.”

“Alright then. Thank you, mom, for tonight! I feel so happy to talk with you more this night!”

“You are welcome! Just don’t forget your study.”

“I know that mom!” I said that jokingly.

Since that day, I can play guitar more frequently. I have improve myself a lot in the last three months. During that time, I also have write my own song although I don’t know when I will perform this song. Not to mention, my classmates started to talk to me more than before. They said they like my new appearance as they said I can be an actress if I try it. I feel so happy. Now, I have make many new friends.

Starting from today, our school will have school festival. There will be many kinds of activities during the festival. Our class decided to open an animal café with some of my classmates bringing their own pet to class. Every day, there are many customers who come to our café. The reason is not only for pets but the food that is prepared by our chef team that is led by Ai is so delicious. We got a lot of good feedback from customers. On the last day of the festival, our class decided to close the café to give space to everyone enjoying festival. Ai brings me to see her childhood friend who will perform with his band later at school hall.

“Yuka, I will introduce to you. He is my childhood friend. His name is Matsumoto Kaito. You can call him Kai!”

“Nice to meet you, Kai. My name is Nakamura Yuka.”

“Nice to meet you too! I have heard many stories about you from Ai. I hope you will enjoy our performance later!”

“Sure!”

“Kai, is everything okay?” Ai asks as she notice Kai look have some problem.

“Our bassist can’t come today because he still has fever since yesterday. I still can’t contact the drummer now. I don’t know how we should perform with two guitarists only. Right, Taro?”

“Yes, Kai. Especially when your guitar’s string was snapped,” said Taro who I assume as the band’s guitarist.

“Right. We just have that acoustic guitar that you brought, Taro. Should we cancel our performance today? I feel so sad that I can’t perform for the last day of festival,” said Kai.

“Sorry for disturb but can I perform instead?”

Maybe I can perform my new written song here today.

“I forgot that you have learn to play guitar. But what kind of song will you perform, Yuka?”

“You will see it later, Ai. Taro-san, right? Can I borrow that guitar?”

“Sure! But are you fine to perform alone on the stage?”

“Yes!”

“Thank you so much, Nakamura-san! Now is our turn to perform. Goodluck!” said Kai trying to give me supportive words.

“Goodluck Yuka! I will always support you,” said Ai.

“Thank you, guys! I will do my best!”

Just prepare everyone! This is a new beginning in my life!