Down The Abyss

"Am I still alive?", I said, opening my eyes slowly. 
 

How? I thought to myself. Where was I? This is not my apartment. I wondered for a while before falling into a deep sleep again.         

           When I woke up the second time, I felt numb. I stared at the ceiling for quite a while until I heard someone humming on the other side of the wall. I was curious and wanted to see the person with such a sweet voice.        

My legs were still numb. I couldn't feel them.        I didn't give up. I tried my hardest to get up. I failed miserably.        

 I heard footsteps. Someone was coming towards the room (probably the one who was humming sweetly).       

  The door opened. My eyes widened at the sight of her face. It was her. She was alive.       

"Is– this the afterlife?", I asked, stupidly.      

  She let out a giggle.     

   "Did you hit your head somewhere?"   

  "What is going on? I don't understand"  

   We jumped. We were supposed to be dead. Did someone save us? Did we become angels? Is this an alternate universe? My head was going to burst.          

"Did you need me? If not, I'll come back later", she smiled as she left. Her smile was uncanny. It made me uncomfortable.     

  Although I couldn't move my body much, I scanned the room for my smartphone. If this was the afterlife my smartphone shouldn't be here.      

  I put my hand under the pillow and there it was, my smartphone. I checked LINE to see if her messages were still there. They weren't there.

Had she deleted them? For what purpose? 
I fell into a deep sleep again. 

         When I woke up the third time, she was beside me holding my hand. Her hands were cold.   

   She held my cheek with her left hand and I gazed at her. It was her. Her adorable face with round eyes and full lips. I wouldn't mistake anyone else for her.  She brushed my hair with her cold, soft, and slender hands. 

I felt at ease. If being dead was this peaceful, I'd rather stay dead. May I never wake up from whatever this is?    

          I felt her soft, cold lips on my forehead and her hair strands on my face. I stayed put.

She kissed my nose lovingly. I smiled.

Lastly, her lips met mine. For a moment we became one. 

She stayed that way for more than a minute before letting go. 

She was about to leave but I held her hand. "Don't leave me…alone", tears rolled down my face. 

   "I was ready to die with… you", I said. She nodded in response. 

 "Why am I still alive and… you're not?". My tears stopped. 

"I fell in love", she answered, "I gave it my all"
  

 "What does that mean?", I asked. She smiled again. The same uncanny smile. I felt a shiver.     

"You need to let go", she said.  

  I fell into a deep slumber again. This time I wish I never woke up again. I didn't want to see her face. Her eerie smile. I didn't want to feel her cold touch.  My heavy eyes struggled to open. When they did, I found myself in a dark cave or whatever this was.     

   I was hanging by a string.

 "You need to let go", her voice resounded in my mind.     

 "I need to let go", I told myself.  I looked down. Was there any end to this abyss?       

"You need to let go, dear", her voice echoed from under the dark abyss. 

"I need to let go", I reminded myself. Nothing was waiting for me in this pathetic life. 

"Let go". 

 I shouldn't cling to this miserable life. 

I need to let go. Leave everything. 

She needs me. She came for me. She loves me. 

"Let go"

I am needed for the first time in my life. I have a purpose to fulfill. 

"Let go".

My future. My life. 

"Let go".

I need to let go of myself. 

"You need to let go", it resounded in my head again.

My hands let go of the string that was connecting my life and death. I was reminded of the Grim reaper that had come to pick me up. 

I had finally let go. 

The fall was unending. I raced down at a fast pace with no end. 

"Alas, you're here", I said as I hugged her. I embraced my God of death for the last time. 

  "I love you", she whispered in my ear. I smiled hearing her sweet-honeyed voice. Her voice stayed within me for a long time after I had let go of the embrace.     

 When she was no longer in sight.

  I muttered, "Goodbye".