Chapter 1

None of these things made sense to me; love, marriage, childbirth, couples, going on dates, caring for a significant other. It's not like they were too difficult to wrap my head around. They were things that only existed in romance novels. But, I knew that wasn't entirely true. 

I had seen people being lovey- dovey with each other. I had seen couples walking down the streets with their hands intertwined. And I could never understand how they could trust another person and tell them all about them. I could never understand what was so special about a person that you had met one day and had decided to trust. 

Maybe, I could understand all of those things very clearly but I just couldn't bring myself to accept the fact that people could be happy with other people. Maybe, that was the reason I had developed this lifestyle of fucking around every Friday with no strings attached. 

Tonight, just like all the previous Friday nights of my university life, I had decided to go to the same club I always attended. I dressed up as sexy as I could and made my way towards the club. 

I knew that drinking too much and fooling around with random men was not that good of a thing to do as I was a medical student and this was common knowledge to me. But, I still used to do all of that because I needed it to relieve the stress that always piled up on me. 

The neon lights of the club were my escape and the drinks and people inside my paradise. I was born into a good family and yes, I prayed and went to church as well. But, this was my guilty pleasure and I could not let go of it. I was addicted to this. 

But tonight was not going to be like all of the other nights. This was because the  two friends who would always be there with me were not there tonight, Will Jung and Sam Choi.  

Will and Sam were IT students and I was a medical student in the same university as them. I had become friends with them when I had met them in the university in my first week. I was from another city and they were really happy to become friends with me.

They were not here with me tonight as Sam's girlfriend, Hannah, had broken up with him earlier in the day today and Will was comforting him as he sulked in their shared apartment. Will had texted me that he was cooking ramen for Sam and I was free to take anyone else with me. And the only person I could think of was Miles Song 

Miles was just sitting in the club. He was drinking but he wasn't involving himself in dancing at all. I was dancing with a middle aged man whom I did not even find sexually attractive but was just dancing around with for the fun of it. 

Suddenly, my eyes went towards a very handsome guy who seemed to be just a bit older than me. Letting go of the middle aged guy I was dancing with, I made my way towards the man. I wrapped my hands around his neck and swung my hips. His hands came down on my hips and he gently groped them.

I was enjoying his presence a lot but I could feel that there was a pair of eyes watching me. I turned and looked at Miles' direction. His eyes were staring daggers at me. I tried to avert my eyes as the innocent and sweet Miles could not be the one staring like that at me. It was just an illusion. 

But I was mistaken as it was not an illusion at all. Miles was not taking his eyes off of me and soon I saw him walk towards me. 

He stealed me from the guy I was dancing with and pulled me close by the waist. Now this was fun. 

I had never imagined that Miles would be so good at dancing in the club. I had never expected him to even know what to do at clubs much less dance at the club. But here he was, rocking my body around along with his own. 

Suddenly, I felt his hands go down and touch my hips. I did not resist him and let him touch my hips. I was used to it so I didn't feel uncomfortable at all. He groped my hips in a really alluring way and I loved it. 

Soon, I could feel his lips drawing really close to me and I could feel his breath on mine now. Then, his lips landed on mine and we kissed. I lost myself in the motions of his tongue. I could have never thought he would be this good at kissing. 

As the kiss drew to an end, I could feel that both of us were very needy and we couldn't stop here. So I quickly grabbed his arm and led him outside. He started his car and we soon went to his apartment and as soon as we stepped inside, our lips met again.

We made our way towards his bedroom and lost ourselves in pleasure. 

When we were done, I got off of his body which was taken care of very well. I put on the red dress which I had taken off. I checked my phone and saw that it was three am in the morning. 

I looked outside through the window and then looked at the man sleeping on the bed. I saw Miles' lips move. He had said something that was inaudible to me. My eyes then shifted towards the street when I heard him say something that destroyed me. 

"I love you, Lisa. I really love you." 

I ran outside of the house as soon as I heard him say it. I called Will. I didn't know I was crying and I didn't even know why I was crying. 

"What's wrong?," he asked. 

"Miles....he........he," I tried to say. 

"What? What did Miles do? He's a gentleman. What did he do?," he asked. 

"Miles......Miles said that he......he said that he," I tried to make a sentence. 

"What did he say?," he asked.

"Miles loves me," I said. 

There was no reply from the other side. I knew Will was as shocked as I was and was unable to form a sentence. 

"Where are you?," he asked after some minutes. 

"Outside his house," I answered. 

"Stay there. I'm coming to get you," he said.