It wasn't a dream.

After I fell unconscious, I had a dream...

It was a weird dream.

I saw myself at the hands of Kanako-kun, as he tried to wake me up. I was in his arms, as if I were dead.

Was it because of the date that we went out on that day? I don't know why, but I am slowly thinking that Kanako-kun is trying to protect me.

Well, he already said that he was. What am I even saying. I suppose I can't explain it well. I was never good with these type of things. I never got to express nice emotions, and I don't know how to explain them.

Why would he go such lengths to save me? Someone who is unknown to him? Is it normal human behaviour?

I guess no. In this cruel world, nobody even cares for one another, they are only after themselves. This is true for everyone.

Sometimes I think, when I am alone,

In that night, if I were to jump off from a different bridge, a bridge full of people, in a crowded night, how many people would even dare to save me?

Wait, am I being narcissistic? Do I want people to sympathise with me? Am I that selfish?

I don't want others to sympathise with me. I don't want them to enter into my world...

I don't want them to enter into my world. My world is messed up. My mentality is broken. I would not make up for a good love interest. I often lose myself, I often turn blank, I become depressed easily, I can barely do anything. My skills of acting has been lost too I guess. I didn't practice it for I don't know how long.

But even after all this, why?

Why did he stick with me? Why did he took me to a date with him?

I am sure he is popular enough at school. I mean, thats the reason I got bullied again...

There are other girls out there who are better than me, more expressive and enjoyable to stay with than me.

Then why me?

He is good with his words too. His words are inspiring, and it gives people hope. And he gives these to people with no cost, as if he were a therapist.

His words always gets stuck in my head, like a nail, which has been hammered down.

I don't kniw what is going on with my brain. Why do I feel lightheaded?

I feel like my brain is going overdrive with the thoughts. It is processing a thousand thoughts per sceond. I even forgot what I was thinking about.

Please stop, my thoughts. My brain is going to explode if it doesn't slow down the thinking.

As I lost myself thought, my eyelids got lighter. The evening sun rays welcomed me, along with the bright lights of the room, flashbanging me a bit.

"Its already evening...", I said, as I looked outside.

I heard the door of my room open, and came in Kanako, with a pot, which had something inside it.

"So it wasn't a dream..."

Before I knew it, I had let out a big smile, along with a sense of relief.