Mental Changes

As I had said Mental Changes began occurring a little bit after shopping.

I was honestly just in my room watching a yugioh tournament when I caught a glimpse of myself in my mirror and started feeling very, very self conscious. So I did end up taking a shower and washing my snow white hair very well. I also ended up putting on a black dress to look good even though I was home with my family. And still I thought I looked bad so I ended up taking my glasses off. Even though I couldn't see I knew I looked better. I decided I would ask my parents to get me contact lenses so I could see and not have to worry about wearing my ugly glasses. 

As the week went on Allan was dead mostly replaced with asana.

I started wearing dresses everywhere, and if not a dress then a skirt and shirt. Unless I had to run I wore heels all be it I twisted my ankles. I wasn't even a shut in anymore. I made girl friends in our home school group and neighborhood. I was consistently wearing makeup and nail polish. Luckily I never dyed my hair because I already thought It looked perfect. My parents worried actually bought me the newest model duel disk to see if they could get the old me back. While yes I was still a duelist and a gamer. Allan was dead, asana had been born. Luckily after the nightmare week ended and my mind settled on a middle ground between the old and new me. I usually wear light makeup and lower heeled boots. A black shirt and skirt with my white hair in braids. My nails sometimes painted a pale lavender the same color as my eyes. My personality also sort of settled on a middle ground. No more shut in but my interests are still the same. Of course I was definitely more asana than anything and slowly fading into what was seen in the nightmare week. But for now at least I feel at ease knowing that I'm happy. I'm the popular girl of the neighborhood and the best duelist around honestly. But Like I said allan is dead, very dead. But no matter for "No matter what stands in my way nothing will block my road to happiness". Asana Mutsaba Signing off.

September 11 2129. S.C