The Sun.

I don't know... but I want to know... what is wrong with my heart? What is this warm sensation that I am feeling? This feeling of... nostalgia?

I haven't been able to meet with him for two weeks now. Its not that long of a time... but I already feel like I have lost my energy. Recently, I have been thinking about him more and more... during rehearsal, during break, during the late nights.

These 2 weeks were horrible, well thats not completely true, but some parts were really that bad for me. I wont blame my classmates, or even Miko, the scriptwriter. No- they are not to blame, they did a great job, and I loved the script. The problem was with me...

I hated myself every time. It feels like my acting got downgraded. I hated myself for not doing a proper job. I have been doing this for years... then why was I doing so badly?

Sometimes I felt my heart stop. Did I really lose my only skill? Was my dream lost amid my feelings? I didn't know. I wanted to cry...

"Great job, Ayane-chan!" Miko's eyes looked like glitter paint as I came down from the stage after rehearsal. "You were doing so great! I am impressed!"

Thats what she said, but I wasn't buying it. I can do better, I know it. I am not overconfident about it, nor second-doubting it. When its about my passion, I promised myself not to fool my heart with those things. I know it because I experienced it before, I experienced the 'better' I did before. That's why I am frustrated. When everyone were doing their best... I was still trying to figure things out...

During times like this... I remember that day, I remember his face. What would he do during times like this?

"What would you do, my sun? You wouldn't fade away, right? During the rain, you were still there, you didn't let the night devour you until your duty was over. What would you do if you were in my situation?" When I asked myself that question, I felt myself getting so close to the 'better' that I once envisioned, but it went away before I could grasp it.

No- it didn't go away. It wasn't moving at all. It was me, I slowed down. I felt even more frustrated.

"Can I name this picture, 'The Supermoon'?" Always echoed in my head at random times. Though I know, it wasn't about me, but the picture he took, but sometimes I think, that he gave me a nickname. My nickname was now supermoon.

"What are you laughing about?"

"N-nothing, Miko-chan!"

I forgot that I was taking rest in between my rehearsals. It was not time for me to zone out. I have to concentrate on my acting more. But why is Miko giving me a sly grin?

"You look like a maiden struck in love."

"Ehh?!?"

"You are such a cutie, did you know?"

I covered my face in embarrassment. I don't want them to see me when I am thinking about these stuffs. Seriously, this was no time to think about these. "I am heading out now, Its time to start my practice again."

"Hey hey... missing someone right now?"

"S-stop that!!"

"Hehe."

He was capturing my mind little by little, like a conquerer. His subtle actions for protecting me, his dependable side, his radiating heat, everything. He gave me my nickname, supermoon, so I decided to give him a nickname too.

The sun.

But I haven't told him that yet... I am not as bold as him. I wish I were. But I know during times like this, the sun wouldn't back off and run away, he would try and try until he got it right, and I am going to do just that.

Just as the moon reflects light from the sun...