A bad person.

Do I really deserve him?

Is the question I ask myself every time I lay my eyes on him. He is dazzling, as if he is a chandelier. He is good exceptionally good at sports, good looking and tall. Compared to me, Im just a small, unnoticed girl...

I still believe that I don't deserve him, even though he re-affirmed again and again that he loved me and was glad to have someone like me be by his side. I don't deny that. He isn't the type of person who would lie. But I still sometimes feel that the reason why he is by my side is for that day, the day everything went wrong.

I... I was the one who was wrong, I was the one who is supposed to be feeling guilty... then why is he feeling guilty... why did he make that kind of face when he saw me back then? He did nothing wrong...

He was my senior when I was in middle school, it was the same person, but giving off the same glow as he is right now. He always had people surrounding him, mostly girls though...

"Who is that creep..." that time my bangs covered most of my eyes. All I could see is that a boy is surrounded by tons of girls as soon as he entered the school building. I sometimes laugh, because, if I didn't had such long bangs, my introverted self would've been evaporated from the glow he was giving off.

I silently went to my locker number as I approached the school building. I hate crowded spaces, and the fact that he was okay with so much people in his vicinity made me puke.

"Why are there so many people even here?!?" I tried to raise my voice, but it was all in my head. The area that my locker was was too crowded for me to pick up my shoes. "I guess I have to wait..."

"Hey hey... I heard Kuze-kun came back with the national championship trophy..." I heard as some girls shoved me away from where I was standing.

"They had to push even when I was standing this far away. It might be on purpose..." I know because they were giving such weird eyes to me and didn't even apologise. As if they are saying, "I won't let this gloomy girl get close to him. It will ruin his image." I guess girls are like that, though I am a girl too. They would do anything to win over their love, though I don't know much about those stuffs.

As the warning bell for the class rang, Kuze-kun suggested that they should go to the classroom for now. Good thing... if he stayed I would have a hard time going to class on time. Now I could put my school shoes and be just in time for the class.

As I eyed him with irritation at his back while he was going to the classroom, for the first time I saw his face.

"He... looked back..?" But I didn't know the reason why. It's so awkward now... we made eye contact...

He smiled at me, but that smile had the expression of "I am sorry for troubling you" all over his face. Because, though he was smiling, his eyebrows were down. I have read too many books to know that expression.

"Now I feel like a bad person..."