Sorrow Days

As I stared out my window, I could faintly see the moonlight shining through it. Opening it let in a cold and gentle winter breeze, chills ran down my whole body and yet the feeling of it didn't make me feel at ease at all, on the contrary, it simply made me recall bad memories.

I immediately closed the window and laid down on my bed, staring at the bedroom ceiling, I could only start thinking back to everything that had happened, even though it was all in the past, the memories continued pestering my mind.

Each and every time I would remember those things, the feeling of gripping my heart and pulling it out from my chest lingered. The feeling of not existing any longer plagued my mind. It wasn't because I was told that I shouldn't exist, it was what I wanted.

I had been through a lot, I didn't want to continue living a life where all I could feel was regret. I wanted to be happy, I desired a regular life, but for me, that was impossible after everything that had occurred.

Heaving one last sigh, I got up from my bed, threw on a hoodie and walked out my room and towards the exit of the house. My mother was already asleep so there was no need to worry about waking her or disturbing her.

As I walked down the road, the bright light of the moon shone down on me lighting the way for me. With each step I took, It was one more step for me to succeed with what I needed to do. After a few more minutes or so, I arrived at a bridge which was built above a river. The distance all the way to the bottom was pretty long.

Staring down at it, it sent shivers down my spine, but even then, it didn't stop me from climbing the railing of the bridge which led to me just one more step away from falling to my death. Looking up at the night sky and then at the plunge that would lead to my death made it the perfect scene to mark the last thing that I would ever see.

"Hey, what are you doing?!"

From out of nowhere, a voice yelled out at me and almost instantaneously I ran and ran all the way back home, thankfully, whoever it was, didn't follow me back, but even then, I went ahead and hid myself in a nearby alleyway just to be cautious, once I knew for sure that they weren't looking for me, I started heading back home.

"I guess I couldn't do it today..." Both disappointment and regret clouded my mind. I wasn't meant to continue living, I was meant to perish so that I could no longer worry those around me and also to stop suffering from everything that would happen to me.

"The world would be so much happier without me here... There's no point in my existence"