The "Savior"

"I'll show you that it's worth living"

The girl stood in front of me with that outlandish declaration of hers, hearing this, all I could really do in that moment was simply stare at her in awe for both her eccentric behavior and outright beauty.

Just staring at her was just as blinding as the sun itself, I turned away from her gaze and sighed to myself "What are you even saying...? Who even are you?"

"Who am I? We met at the start of class"

"Ohh yeah... Totally forgot about her for a minute" I had never been good with names or to be more precise, I simply didn't care about knowing anyone else overall which made this sudden appearance from her even more nerve-wracking than it already was "I remember... You're Amaya, right?"

A sighed escaped her breath and she beamed me a smile "I'm glad that you didn't forget about me, I was scared for a bit that I didn't leave an impression on you"

"I'd rather you didn't to be honest" 

"Now that's pretty rude, don't you think?"

Seeing as I had spoken those words out loud, I covered my mouth and lowered my gaze "S-Sorry about that..."

Amaya shook her head at me and inched herself ever so closer to me "There's no need to apologize, it didn't hurt my feelings"

Hearing this from her, I couldn't help but wonder what went through that head of hers. Usually, anyone would be pretty bothered by such words being said, but in her case, it wasn't like that at all.

"Now then..." She proceeded to take a seat next to me and stared directly at me without a care in the world "I'll show you why it's worth living, ok?"

"Like I said... Why?"

"Yesterday. Last night to be precise" Just hearing her say the words 'Last night' was more than enough for me to know what she was going to say next. "You were the person who was trying to kill himself, right?"

"..."

"I'll take that silence as a yes then" "If I hadn't been passing by when I did, I probably wouldn't have met you today at all, much worse, I would have witnessed a suicide the day before going to school"

"No one would have cared if I disappeared... I would have been doing everyone a favor by getting rid of this life of mine"

"Why do you say that? Who would be benefitting from your death?" Amaya continued questioning my actions from the day prior and my words from the present, in her eyes, it was illogical and unreasonable for someone to want to end their life, but to me, it would have been better if that had been the case.

"You don't know anything... You don't understand what I've been through"

"I might not know what exactly happened, but at the very least, I don't think it could have been to the point where you need to end your own life" "You should have no reason to end your life just like that"

"And like I said... You don't know anything about me! You barely met me today!" I was over it at this point. This girl was pushing me to my very limit. I wanted to leave, I wanted to yell, I wanted to cry, I wanted to end it all... But before I could even make another move, she lifted her long sleeve and what I saw next left me completely speechless.

Scars ran all across her wrist, there were too many to even count and from what I could tell, they looked pretty old since they were pretty much all healed, but even then, one could tell that she had cut her wrists at one point. I had also thought about doing such a thing, but I could never bring myself to actually do it for the reason that I didn't want my mother to find my lifeless body in my room.

"I know how it feels... Wanting to disappear and everything. That's why I'm saying that I understand you, Yuma"

"But... You're still alive, aren't you? If you really wanted to end it all, you would have already done it regardless"

"Yeah, but I found a reason to continue living..." When she said those words, I couldn't help but notice the slight sadness in her voice "But I can't tell you about it"

"Why not?"

"Well... I can tell you on one condition" The once depressing and sorrowful mood did a complete flip and instead, Amaya pointed at me and smiled "Let's go out after school and I'll tell you what changed me"

"Not happening"

"That was fast!" "Why are you rejecting my offer?"

"To be honest, you seem like a pain in the ass to deal with"

"That's rude, Yuma!" She started pouting at me for a bit but then shrugged her shoulders and sighed "But I can tell that that's your way of just speaking, huh?"

She had pinpointed all that almost perfectly, every little interaction we had was immediately dispelled by her quick intuition, almost as if she had gone through the same thing herself at one point of her life "It doesn't bother you...? My way of speaking?"

"I can't tell you exactly why unless you agree to go out with me today after school"

I scratched the back of my head and sighed "I guess..."

"Sounds like a plan then~!" "Let's meet at the front of the school gates once we're done with classes, alright?"

"Yeah... That's fine"

"Great, I'll be heading back to the classroom then. See you late, Yuma"

She waved bye at me and before I knew it, it was simply me alone in the rooftop. For once, I was glad that I had silence back in my favorite spot in the entire school, but at the same time, my head was not quiet, on the contrary, I couldn't help but continue thinking about Amaya... About what she had said and about what I had seen for myself.

"She really doesn't know anything about me... It's just a coincidence that we went through the same thing if it's true what she said and showed me" In the back of my head, I still had my doubts about her and the real meaning behind her presence up here in the rooftop, but even then, there was something that was still bugging me deep down. Something that could just make me relive a part of my past that I wanted to completely forget.

"I can't fall for the same trick again..." I clutched at my arm and started tightening my grip on it "I can't get hurt again..."