Lonely life

I am suki, and this is my story. 

I am a 17 year old boy, I am in high school, as u can understand from the title I am lonely, yes lonley, I have no friends no family i am alone and when my mom gone I got depresed and I wanted to be dead but I was not strong to kill myself. So how I survive, well I do 2 part time job  at a restaurant and at a depertmental store. I do 2 part time job because I have to give my school fee and my rent and my expences like food and bills. Don't worry my uncle give me little money evey month cuz it's hard to save any money. So let's go to my lonleyness as I tell I don't have friends this is not the case I am shy so I can't make any friends no it's not I don't like to talk to anyone and I don't even like meet anyone. I was just eating for a great time when i can able to kill myself but I was not strong at that time to I have fear of heights and I don't wanted to cut any part of my body, so that's why.